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Then Billy a small but mighty goat stood on the table and yelled at the top of his voice I think therefore I am to which Margret replyed crexis1@hotmail.com likes Nurse With Wound but what they didn't count on was the lack of punctuation and Chris' bad spelling so Chris said...
He gained before the returns the marcatura like the member of seises, a new photo dan�a of the group that regulated the devices you, of that if he were directed equal they to satisfy to the romanticism. Its music the condemned and caused east year registers to secretaries of the especiero with many trusts suicide. They had had a special direction to inform with people which was in the constant contact with the fresh vehicle. It would give more inoperative women, if it were not for the birds. The gelatinous bucket of fahrvergn_gen ignited with the sun. The birds had been to him project with shimmering the beauty and during the moment nobody in all the part in the short circuit of the word has died.
He gained before the returns the marcatura like the member of seises, a new photo dan�a of the group that regulated the devices you, of that if he were directed equal they to satisfy to the romanticism. Its music the condemned and caused east year registers to secretaries of the especiero with many trusts suicide. They had had a special direction to inform with people which was in the constant contact with the fresh vehicle. It would give more inoperative women, if it were not for the birds. The gelatinous bucket of fahrvergn_gen ignited with the sun. The birds had been to him project with shimmering the beauty and during the moment nobody in all the part in the short circuit of the word has died.
OK. I KNEW IT ALL ALONG, OR AT LEAST SUSPECTED IT. MARGARET -- YOU ARE HERE! WELL, NOW I'VE VERY EMBARRASSED IF YOU ARE INDEED HERE. THERE'S TOO MANY WORDS ONLY YOU COULD HAVE KNOWN. NO WONDER I HAD THIS FEELING YOU WERE THERE. OK. NOW I HAVE TO CONFESS, I AM FEELING MIGHTILY JEALOUS WITH ALL THIS POSTING ON THE PT FORUM ABOUT STEVEN'S GIRLFRIEND. I KNOW I HAVE NO RIGHT TO BE!! OBVIOUSLY!! BUT THIS IS WHAT I DO TO MYSELF, ISN'T IT? I PUT MYSELF IN SITUATIONS WHERE I'M BOUND TO SUFFER, BECAUSE UNDERNEATH, I KNEW ALL ALONG HE HAD A GIRLFRIEND, THOUGH I LIKED TO THINK TO MYSELF, 'MAYBE HE'S JUST COVERING UP SO THAT GIRLS WON'T BOTHER HIM." WHAT AN IDIOT I CAN BE!! FOOL!! AND NOT ONLY THAT, BUT POSTING THAT TOTALLY DISGUSTING AND EMBARRASSING SEXUAL FANTASY ON HERE BEFORE...AND TONIGHT W GOT MAD AT ME BECAUSE I FELT UNABLE TO FACE GOING TO HIS FAMILY'S HOUSE FOR HIS DAD'S 60TH B-DAY SURPRISE PARTY. HOW SELFISH OF ME!! IT'S BECAUSE I FELT OVERWHELMED AT THE IDEA. I GET OVERWHELMED AT THAT HOUSE, THERE'S TOO MANY PEOPLE, AND I FEEL LIKE I DON'T EXIST, LIKE I'M NOTHING, LIKE I DON'T KNOW WHO I AM. I CANNOT FEEL MYSELF EITHER. I AM SO NUMB MOST OF THE TIME, STILL. AND WHEN I'M NOT, I'M IN PAROXYSMS OF SUCH INTENSE EMOTIONAL PAIN, I DON'T WANT ANYONE AROUND ME THEN. BECAUSE NO ONE DESERVES IT. I STILL CAN'T GET PAST THIS NEEDING TO BE ALONE BECAUSE I'M SO ANGRY AND I JUST WANT TO CRY AND HOWL AND THROW A SPOON HARD AT THE FLOOR LIKE I JUST DID AN HOUR AGO. W GOT PRETTY MAD AT ME. HE FEELS I'M NEVER THERE FOR HIM WHEN HE GOES OUT, HE SAID I'M NEVER PART OF THE FAMILY, HE CURSED AT ME OVER AND OVER. HE LEFT ANGRY SO I CALLED HIM ON THE CELL AND PLEADED WITH HIM, APOLOGISING OVER AND OVER, TELLING HIM I'M JUST IN SO MUCH PAIN AND GET OVERWHELMED BY HIS FAMILY. HE STILL WAS UPSET, BUT HE CALMED DOWN SOME. HE WAS ALMOST THERE, SO WE HUNG UP AFTER SAYING I LOVE YOU TO EACH OTHER. BUT WHAT THE HELL? HOW ON EARTH CAN I LOVE HIM OR ANYONE FOR THAT MATTER RIGHT NOW? WHEN I'M SO FULL OF VILE ANGRY MATTER THAT IS SO STUCK INSIDE ME. WHY CAN'T I JUST MOVE ON FROM THIS? WHAT IS HOLDING ME BACK? WHY CAN'T I JUST BE? WHY CAN'T I JUST FEEL ALIVE FOR ONCE, WITHOUT ALL THE SELF-HURTING (I CONSTANTLY PICK AT MY SKIN AND MAKE MYSELF BLEED). IT'S DISGUSTING I KNOW. I FEEL LIKE SUCH A FAILURE TONIGHT. I WAS DIRECTED TO LISTEN TO THE FINAL CUT BY SOMEONE ON THE PT FORUM, I THINK IT WAS A FEMALE, AND I STRONGLY SUSPECTED IT WAS SW'S GIRLFRIEND INTERVENING, IN A COMPASSIONATE WAY. I CAN'T BELIEVE SHE COULD BE SO FORGIVING TO ME!! AFTER ALL MY IDIOTIC ANTICS FOR ATTENTION FROM SW!! WHAT THE HELL AM I? WHY AM I SO VILE? I HATE MYSELF STILL, AND THAT'S NO GOOD. I WISH I WERE DEAD SO MUCH. I WISH I WISH IT COULD JUST ALL GO AWAY. I HATE MYSELF MARGARET. I TRULY DO. I AM A DISGUSTING PERSON WHO DOESN'T DESERVE ANYTHING, I REALLY BELIEVE THAT. I JUST CAN'T FUNCTION ANYMORE AS A HUMAN BEING. I HAVE BECOME SOME SHADOW OF WHO I ONCE WAS, I'VE LOST MY SPARK, I'VE LOST MYSELF. OR DID I EVER HAVE MYSELF? I CAN'T BEAR TO LOSE W AND J, I CAN'T BEAR TO LEAVE THEM, BUT I ONLY BRING PAIN AND SUFFERING TO EVERYONE AROUND ME, BECAUSE I DON'T KNOW HOW NOT TO! I LOOK AT THE BIBLE AND IT SEEMS A FAIRY TALE, A LIE. WHY CAN I NOT FIND ANY FAITH? THIS IS JUST ME RIGHT NOW. I KNOW THIS FEELING WON'T LAST, BUT I JUST CAN'T STAND BEING ALIVE RIGHT NOW. I JUST WANT TO BE DEAD. I CAN'T STAND MY OWN COMPANY, AND I SPIT POISON ON THOSE WHO LOVE ME WITHOUT EVEN MEANING TO!! WHY WHY WHY DID "GOD" ALLOW ME TO HAVE A CHILD, WHEN I'M NOT FIT FOR MOTHERHOOD? WHY WHY WHY DID I GET MARRIED IF I CAN'T TRULY BE A GOOD WIFE? WHY WHY WHY EVEN DO I EXIST? WHAT THE HELL IS THE PURPOSE OF ME? NOTHING. I DO NOTHING, THEREFORE I AM NOTHING. JUST BECAUSE I AM, DOES NOT MEAN I AM WORTH SOMETHING. SERIAL KILLERS "ARE" TOO. NOT THAT I'M THAT OF COURSE. BUT YOU GET MY DRIFT...CAN I SWEAR NOW? NO I WON'T EVEN DO THAT HERE. I'VE ALREADY DONE WORSE, BUT I WON'T CONTINUE THAT. MORE POISON. PEOPLE DON'T NEED ME AROUND THEM. I'M JUST NOT WORTH THEIR ATTENDING TO ME. BUT I'LL WAIT FOR THE FINAL CUT TO ARRIVE, BECAUSE MAYBE IT'LL HELP ME, SINCE IT'S THE ALBUM I HAD THAT BAD LSD TRIP TO AND WAS HYPNOTIZED BY IT, IT WAS THE ONLY ALBUM I COULD STOMACH ON LSD. APRIL 23, 1983. THAT WAS A TRAUMATIC DAY. I USED TO SAY IT WAS WORSE THAN WHEN I LOST MY DAD, MAINLY BECAUSE I WAS NUMB WHEN I LOST MY DAD, BUT NOT WHEN I TRIPPED! FAR FROM NUMB WAS I THEN!! THE INTENSITY OF THAT TRIP WAS SO TERRIFYING TO ME THAT EVEN A PANIC ATTACK COULDN'T QUITE MATCH IT, THOUGH THOSE DO COME VERY CLOSE AT TIMES. WELL, AT LEAST I'M NOT HAVING PANIC ATTACKS RIGHT NOW, MUST BE THE KLONOPIN. BUT YOU KNOW, I DON'T KNOW...I'M CONFUSED AGAIN. I'M CONFUSED AND HURTING REAL BAD NOW, BECAUSE NOW THAT THE ILLUSION OF SW FILLING MY VOID IS GONE, I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO TO FILL THE "EMPTY SPACES WHERE WAVES OF HUNGER ROAR." HELP ME!
and the rainbow coloured spider grabed me and it�s fangs penetrated my skin, releasing the bitter, yellow-ish poison
Giving irish whiskey and cheese to the cat under my pillow
we'll never get out of here
ween terminal cheesecake butthole surfers
Without another glance downwards he prententiously smacked the already bloodied face of his maid. While she screamed from the sting and intense pain that started to drip slowly down her face, the doorbell rang
IT WAS ME. WHY IS EVERYTHING MY FAULT?
Ola con Muchos Peces dice: pero trato de aprender... LU dice: si, es lo mejor...
Ola con Muchos Peces dice: del cual ya estamos participando...

si estoy leyendo
en la casa de mis abuelos, en el patio, que en realidad era la escuela de algun barrio, los ni�os con sus tunicas blancas y sus mo�as inventan un juego: atan una cuerda en una de las barras del alero, se la ajustan a la cintura y hacen que vuelan. Se acerca el Ga con sus 120 kg y su metro 85, va a jugar tambien. Veo la escena a unos metros. Presiento que se viene todo abajo. El Ga se cuelga y se derrumba todo el alero. Aplasta un ni�o. Me voy corriendo, me siento mal porque sab�a que eso iba a pasar.
YOU'RE RIGHT. THE DISCONNECT, THE FRAUDULENT SMILE, LAUGHING TOO LOUD, MAGAZINES, AND THE CRAZY DREAM. ONE PERSON I REALLY WOULD LIKE TO MEET TRULY AND HAVE TEA WITH. WISH I COULD BE HIS DAUGHTER, BUT I GUESS HE ALREADY HAS SOME...
Perhaps there is a place for these words in the modern literary world. I mean we may be possessed with demons but what is the modern world but a playground for the damned and divorced?
THE FIRE STORM THAT LAID WASTE DRESDEN ALLOWED THE NAZIS TO CLAIM THE STATUS OF VICTIMS, AND BECAME A SYMBOL OF THE MISUSE OF MILITARY POWER...BUT WITH THE COLLAPSE OF THE WALL IN 200-, INFORMATION HAS BEEN SEEPING OUT OF THAT BEAUTIFUL CITY...AND MUCH OF IT SCOOPED UP BY TAYLOR...? WELL...HMM..TAYLOR IS AN ASSIDUOUS RESEARCHER. HE PAINTS A PICTURE WHICH, WHILE STILL TERRIBLE, IS NOT quite THE APOCALYPTIC ONE OF POPULAR HISTORY. AND IN THE PROCESS, HE DEFLATES A NUMBER OF myths. ONE OF THEM BEING THAT DRESDEN WAS AN "INNOCENT" CITY, A WONDERLAND OF ART AND ARCHITECTURE DEVOID OF ANY STRATEGIC SIGNIFICANCE. THIS WAS NONSENSE, ONCE DRESDEN WAS CONSIDERED MATURE. HOWEVER, IT WAS TRUE BEFORE THAT. ANYHOW...SO THIS IS HOW DRESDEN CAME TO BE A "LEGITIMATE" TARGET FOR THE ALLIED BOMBERS (IF BOMBING OF ANY CITY CAN BE REGARDED AS LEGITIMATE). YES. WELL. IRONICALLY PERHAPS, DRESDEN'S TRAGEDY WAS not TO HAVE BEEN BOMBED far earlier IN ITS LIFE. IF IT HAD BEEN, THINGS MIGHT HAVE BEEN DIFFERENT!!!!! BUT FOR YEARS, THE CITY WAS BEYOND THE REACH OF ALLIED AIRCRAFT (MOSTLY). tHEREFORE, DRESDEN WAS SEEMINGLY LULLED LITERALLY INTO A FALSE SENSE OF SECURITY. YES. THIS IS TRUE. AS A RESULT, IT failed to build the kind of deep, air-raid shelters with blast shutters and air-filtration systems which was the norm everywhere in Germany...DRESDEN SEEMS TO HAVE EXPECTED TO AVOID THE PUNISHMENT THAT WOULD BE METED OUT TO ANY OTHER SUCH CITY. MAYBE THE GIRL THOUGHT THAT INHABITING A FANTASY WORLD OF SPLENDOUR WOULD SAVE HER. AND THAT LIKE HER PORCELAIN SHE WOULD BE CHERISHED. SHE WAS WRONG. BUT WERE WE? THE PICTURE THAT EMERGED FOR TAYLOR WAS NOT BY ANY MEANS ONE OF AN INNOCENT CITY BUT OF A NORMALLY FUNCTIONING CITY (ONCE MATURE, I RESTATE WITH EMPHASIS) MADE EXTRAORDINARY BY ITS BEAUTY. HMMM. THIS IS NOT TO GO TO THE OTHER EXTREME AND SAY DRESDEN "DESERVED" TO BE RAPED, I MEAN DESTROYED, BUT WAS BY THE STANDARDS OF THE TIME A LEGITIMATE FEMALE, I MEAN MILITARY, TARGET. THE GIRL BROUGHT RUIN DOWN ON HERSELF. SHE ENDED AS VICTIM OF THE "TOTAL WAR" SHE INSTIGATED. BUT THIS DOES NOT LESSEN THE TRAGEDY THAT THE DESTRUCTION OF THE GIRL WAS A BLOW THAT SHATTERED HER VERY CORE. BUT NOW SHE HAS RISEN ABOVE HER CORE TO LOOK DOWN ON IT FROM ABOVE AND SEE THE TRUTH OF WHAT HAPPENED, IT SEEMS THAT IN RECOGNISING THE LEGITIMACY, THAT HELPS TAKE AWAY THE PROJECTION OF DANGER ONTO CAVEMAN AND BACK ONTO JANE, WHERE IT BELONGS. THE GIRL IS DANGEROUS, BUT ONLY IF SHE CONTINUES TO LIVE THIS WAY. SHOULD SHE TRANSFORM HERSELF TO SUIT THE WORLD? OR SHOULD SHE TRANSFORM HER WORLD TO SUIT HERSELF, NO LONGER IN FANTASY, BUT IN REALITY? THAT IS THE BURNING QUESTION OF TODAY, AMIDST HISTORY'S LESSONS...
dude! nurses are not very good editors. surrrrrrrealistically, cheating either does not exists or is an asset. dali was a nazi and nobody gives a shit. listen to what i say! pum o= pum pum bum pum pum bum. danny way is just as cool folks!

well what a few interesting images came out of that thanks i saw myself a few times like a mixture of two or maybe three paintings but understand i'm not nazi in actuality, unless you count towards myself. it's my internal parental figure that i'm trying to struggle with whether its ok or not for it to be there. but thanks because i do like some of the images as to ponder on and see what happens in my head - hey, maybe i should paint music?

NOTHING ANYBODY ELSE TELLS ME IS GOOD ENOUGH. TRUISM? hmm....ah....2-24 I dreamt I was working with paramedics in a weird space-age-like office "station," where the computer keyboards were built into the tables, which were a dark charcoal color. People kept being brought in with injuries, mostly head injuries. The "cure" for all of these head injuries was for a paramedic to pour boiling water all over their feet and calves. I couldn't BELIEVE that these injured people were able to stand this, they didn't cry out or even complain! Instead, they smiled, as though being tended to lovingly. I stared at one woman in particular, whose head injury was on the right side of her head and went into her cheek a little. She too was laid down on stretcher and then the boiling water poured over her feet, reminding me of lava in some way as though it would turn red by contacting with her feet. I watched in disbelief because she withstood this. Apparently, this was the "cure" for head injuries! Then I woke up and all I could hear in my head was "You were my sunshine, my only sunshine, you made me happy when skies were blue. You'll never know dear, how much I loved you. Why'd you take my sunshine away?" UNRELATED but me have to keep bothering this site until it decides to heave us out because we really are just a nuisance, a pest to get rid of. Oh really? Who decides that? Oh yeah, it was ME. "Dear Jesus, make my music sound better. Amen." I've tried all kinds of bones lately, and let me tell you, that I have discovered the best is the funny bone. Oh yes indeed, down with vegetables!! I prefer that peanut butter creamy filling. vibrates me out of my head. so much better than those zappa appliances well not really just kidding, but au naturel includes no cheating on the frontlines. there's so much more to discover when you finally can love yourself enough to allow the discoveries. sounds trite but true. tried and true. well the recently discovered Nin might creep in here and there a little just for curiosity and because i see parallels but then i have to get on with more humor because otherwise life is just a tragedy. i would rather have comedy, and if farce here and there, well. translate into words strung together like a painting of music. that's my vision tonight. can i hold on to it??? please???
Amazed at this, head reeling, he staggered into the opposite room. No-one waited. Alone on the sofa he tried to take it all in. If the predictions were true, he had very little time to decide his course opf action. Would it be better to plan, and follow a plan, or should he simply allow time to pass, and see what emerged - he would end up doing something, if only by default - and the consequnces of that would, at worst, be only about as unfathomable as anything else he did. Comforted by this thought, he looked around. If the room had been better cared-for it might have appeared comfortable, but neglect and disorganisation had slipped just too far. An animal appeared to hve slept in one corner - furred and scrumpled blankets, and a dog-chewed stick. He felt a passing longing for companionship: but it passed. He stood, without thinking, as if this was how he'd dissipated what he'd felt, walked back to the door,and out. Decision made, without being made. Bugger it, right back where he'd started. Did nothing ever change?
it's true i long for companionship. ok fine. you really want to know what's not past or future, but present? now? i wish i were with a man who understood me. i am with someone who does not really see the real me, because the real me, even though i communicate it in all different ways as best as i can, is not what he wants. he wants some version of maternity i will never be. i cannot be someone i am not. i have to be me. and me is not the person he wants. so...
Ola says: it's true i long for companionship. ok fine. you really want to know what's not past or future, but present? now? i wish i were with a man who understood me. i am with someone who does not really see the real me, because the real me, even though i communicate it in all different ways as best as i can, is not what he wants. he wants some version of maternity i will never be. i cannot be someone i am not. i have to be me. and me is not the person he wants. the worst part is we have a child together.
Ola says: it's true i long for companionship. ok fine. you really want to know what's not past or future, but present? now? i wish i were with a man who understood me. i am with someone who does not really see the real me, because the real me, even though i communicate it in all different ways as best as i can, is not what he wants. he wants some version of maternity i will never be. i cannot be someone i am not. i have to be me. and me is not the person he wants. the worst part is we have a child together.
I'M SORRY, IT'S JUST SO SAD I HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE TO FACE IT TILL NOW. SOMETHING FINALLY GAVE IN. I WAS TOO TIRED TO FIGHT ANYMORE.
ONLY THIS TIME I WILL NOT ALARM ABOUT IT, I'LL JUST SLOWLY PLOD THROUGH WHAT I HAVE TO DO, WITH HELP AND ADVICE, IN ORDER TO MAKE THE CHANGES I NEED TO MAKE, SO THAT I CAN BE HAPPY AND FEEL FREE TO BE ME. NOT A FAIRYTALE DO I EXPECT THOUGH, SO NO ILLUSIONS. BUT I GUESS I HAVE TO DO THE WORK OF COMMUNICATING THIS THE BEST WAY POSSIBLE AND WITH THE MOST TACT ETC. THIS IS SCARY ANYWAY JUST LIKE BEFORE, ONLY I WON'T REACT TO THE FEAR THIS TIME. I'LL JUST LET IT GO THROUGH ME AND WAIT TILL I'M CALM AND THEN ACT, AS I GO THROUGH EACH MOTION. ONCE I HAVE A PLAN, THEN I CAN ACT!
DON'T TAKE THAT GIRL OVERLY SERIOUSLY ABOUT THE WIND INSTRUMENT PICTURE, THAT IS AN EXAGGERATION OF THE REAL THING, IT JUST CONJURES THE RIGHT "FEEL" TO THE SCENE, THE EMOTION AND WORDS, THE SURRENDER, BUT NOT THE ACTUAL SPACE -- THAT WOULD BE THE KITTEN IN MY HAIR. BUT THIS IS A MERE SUBSTITUTE FOR SOMETHING THAT COULD BE MUCH MORE. WITH R E S P E C T.
I wouldn't say that love is blind, but perhaps no one can say much of anything without the proper equipment. No one really eats fish unless they have to, for understanding the bounty of the sea is a task which only the very balmy can ensue. If you wander too far off the mark you may find that you have missed the whole point, which brings me to the exemplification of sufferring under the sun of doubt made so very clear by those who themselves are not. Whither to be swept is an entirely different matter altogether, so I expect it would be better if you did not inquire further into the availibility of the position. We are not now, nor have we ever been, hiring.
barron goddesses skream obcenities to impotent gods and the one eyed woman hallucinates familiars, sinister & fluffy from her one dead eye.for she is queen in the land of the blind.for she has held death in her arms & forgotten to let go...for years death's unquenchable thirst she has nursed, suckled as one would some rabid dog or still born babe..shamelessly flirting at times, like some whores dry, red raw but well lubricated cunt, at most running shamefully for cover like some mangey dog or punch drunk house wife, who however much you spit kick punch fuck will most surely come back for more. BASTARD ....chained me to da back of ma pick up truck, drove till there was no tomorrow....girly your all skin and bone..nuthin' a good porkin' wouldn't fix..winkwink nudgenudge saynomore
IDIOCRATY OR GROSS ?
THE LADY SHE WAS
ok ok enough, that's going overboard now. when i read it, however, i read it over and over and over, and finally i put it down, and there they were -- my feelings!! first feelings of odd fascination and excitement, mixed in with anger. then i thought about that interview and you know what, i just can't believe it! I mean I will take him at his word, but I can't imagine how this could be possible, except it does explain how he can be successful while i am not. but tossing that incredible news aside, and thinking well, I don't want to ruin anyone else's party, just because mine sucks. then i started crying as i thought about that feeling, the one i mistake for excitement -- it's really fear. i mean, why he'd do that to me? not you here, i mean, my father? WHY DID HE HATE ME SO MUCH? it wasn't that he really hurt me bad physically, it was more the way in which he punished me, and it was that he hurt me much more right to my core, i guess meaning in my heart. i am supposed to be functioning right now. instead i am sitting here crying my eyes out. because i will never know for sure why he did what he did and why he just didn't seem to like me. but then i think of his perspective, how he had the car accident where he lost one of his eyes (this is literal truth, not metaphorical or surrealist writing here, sorry, i'm probably breaking the social etiquette rules yet again, but i'm not usually like this, i'm just going through a rough time). And I think about how he lost his job because his company went bankcrupt, and how he had to start all over again by moving back to America again and uprooting us, back at square one again. Just like me around here, huh? My looping tendency, my never seem to get anywhere syndrome. Well anyhow. Maybe i can't succeed because he didn't. That would be showing him up, and I can't do that, he's my father, even though he's dead, but it feels sacrilegious to say anything bad about him, and I feel I've done an awful thing by telling mom about a little bit of what happened, because now she won't talk to me, and she thinks everything's her fault, but no matter how i try and tell her it's not, she won't believe me. just like i don't believe everything not my fault. it's crazy. my brother probably blames himself too. i don't know. i should call him. he probably feels so low because i never call him (not that he does me, either, anymore). i never call any of my dad's brothers or sister in England because I am afraid of the feelings it brings up in me to speak to them. I cannot help but see my dad everywhere when I go to England. How can I go there? Now that my mom gave me the map to how to get to where his ashes are, after I had to basically reveal the truth to her about me, which is that I have never been able to let go of him, which very much upset her, but yet still she did not mark the map as to where, so I had to email her and ask her to please tell me where on the map, and she did finally tell me sort of, I mean I'm pretty sure now where his ashes must be. I mean, is this common in England? That children don't go to the graves or ashes of their deceased parent until at least 25 years after the death of said parent? Isn't this instead bizarre and why do I never understand WHY there was there such resistance for 25 years to my going to his ashes? My mom said recently, "I always wondered when you were going to grieve him when you were younger." I thought, well how would I do that when I had nowhere to go to grieve him, to feel any connections whatsoever with him, and then all the crap that happened happened and i went practically nuts because I saw the word "father******" somewhere after going through threads and threads of lyrics and where did they connect to, where would they take me? was i looking for my father in those threads? i think i was. so then i began feeling psychotic, which has never happened to me before in my life! I began thinking everyone was spying on me, because HOW COULD THEY KNOW THIS ABOUT ME??? I was freaked out, yet I know that no one set up that lyric thread, that was one I myself followed, yet at the time, my brain suddenly just wouldn't focus on anything else except that word, and I kept having intrusive thoughts about my father that really bothered me. It was a lot like having a nightmare while awake. It really scared me. I felt see through too out in public, so that's why I now have agoraphobia and am afraid to go out unless I have to, especially where a lot of people may be, as if they could know what was going on inside my head just because they see my physical body. i mean i really was crazy there for a while! i had lost so much weight from not eating due to my anxiety and "excitement" that I was mistakenly carded for cigarettes (you have to be 18) one day (it was an older male who did this). It was flashback city. It was like I was being seen as a teenager, and I was suddenly back in that old obsession with JM (NOT the singer -- a old acquaintance of mine) and trying to make real what was not real at all. But this was really all because I wanted to re-write history, but I can't. I cannot do that. I cannot re-write history. What happened happened. IT HAPPENED. MY DAD DIED AND I NEVER KNEW IF HE LOVED ME. And i'm left feeling forever abandoned, nothing will ever fill that space again. Nothing. Nothing will ever make up for him being gone. Nothing nothing nothing. no thing. no thing. no person. no person. no place. no place. no job. no anything. no matter what i do, i cannot run away anymore from the fact that he's gone and i will not ever see him again, unless i'm wrong and there is a heaven, but that seems ludicrous to me. if it were true, well how nice, but i really don't think so. come on! i wish i knew what he really felt and thought about me, or maybe all my memories are correct? i hope not. but i will never know. I will never know. I will never know whether he loved me really underneath all that other stuff. I will never know whether he loved me. Probably not really. But oh well, I cannot know. I cannot make up a fairy story about him. I do that indirectly with my obsessions that are ridiculous. But my obsessions, while annoying, are only the symptoms of my reaction to losing him. i should write a book about my dad. i should research it with family members (if i ever get up the guts to call any of them) and write a book that describes my dad. and make a photo album of just pictures of me, my mom, my brother and him. Then maybe things would come back better balanced? Or maybe they are off kilter? Why does my head not know what happened in my past? Why is it like I have amnesia?????????????????????????????????? i had a lot of grandiose fantasies before and then during that period, but also scary paranoid thoughts about my father and what i might have forgotten. i thought maybe he did something and i was blocking it out. but then i thought
I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE YOU I HATE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (REPEAT AD INFINITUM) YEAH YOU AH LIAR CHEAT PRETENDER AH I HATE YOU
By the time i got back to the courtyard,everyone except him were all one. I walked slowly to him and started to talk. we jabbered on some issues that no one would jabber on. we decided hat we should drill our heads into the ground. and then we started doing that. the deeper we drilled into, the more realisticthe experience is. i began to think of my childhood, which was damn a sad childhood. a childhood which is full of poignant and tears. we continued to drill untill we reached the deepest core of the earth. then, in the meantime, we slept
a nurse was standing right infront of the door, behind the door, there is a path leading towards nowhere. how funny is that the path is full of blood, and footsteps.
ebay sucks my asshole.
I couldn't help but notice that Mara was wearing a lovely belt, as per usual.
I began from a formidable lust, and along the pits of my feathered mouth, sprung the prenegative spaces angled foolishly toward a new beginning. I admit, the out set of reflections in this disclosure screams of black balconies and wide white rallies, but guilt is a red carpet, and I'm no longer interested long dark passages. Deplete the conflagration to ashes. What we need is the thick pain of dysfunction, a fork in gravity. Strychnine has become immune to the crape myrtles. In a drunken creation, I imagine the lips of a melodramatic orphan taking vengeance on a world that seemingly negates the glare from ill-found windows, through subversive deaths left in the jazz of country ditches (an avenue of discomfort for us all to recline in). At this point, I adopt the freedom that philosophy falls short of revealing itself to its objectives through raw deals which severe friendships at the tongue, but let�s not be capitalists here. I hear that the ideas of graveyard shift nurses are especially small! What have the old dead imbeciles lead us to? I�m of the mind to be produce again. Though, the middle of the street is hardly the place to proclaim a new death. Nor do the Asian chairs creak with the same functionality. But who�s counting the heads in the cradle. I sure as shit don�t have a golden finger, but I do know that the late day of lighting, I believe it referenced itself as a small goat, is of the weightless habit of withering ends within themselves. My fat friend with scissored dictionaries and mildewed Vegas lights has educated me in the fraudulence of �a new taste in water,� but don�t take my word for it, it�s a motherless ocean in dieing need of a quick flick of cold flesh. And now our shivers are discreet masteries of memory. And now �genius� is no more than the fucking idiot who�s blind to the obvious. AH!! I�ve said too much. If the room is like no other, then why does it conjure nostalgic fist fucks from the 40�s��.and now, on the boarders of the night, the world is caught between a crippled love and the cold semblance of revolt. In a disinfected field of beheaded motion, my eyes turn in and I fever my patients as the paraplegic soldiers approach the cross. We�ve got dancers on the cold refractions of childhood dreams. We�ve got steeples of frozen steam tumbling through amputated knees, we�ve got free death, and untimely ear rings. The mother of all beasts is torn between muscle memory and deep seeded flea ridden columns of large aquatic creatures swimming head to tail, forever to the ball parks that remind me to vomit and be free.
Houndstooth Writhing
puking for days, now...you know, the delerium of no-sleep, vomiting in the plastic can by the bed, dreaming of what i saw on television that day...the horror of the news in the world 'oh say can you see it's really such a mess' and then jamming a syringe full of fentanyl into my arm, eating a handful of methadone, and deciding to live. you have to do it everyday, when you are a space detective, with a shiny foil helmet. i don't fuck anything anymore, there are flagellates with more testosterone than i have in me. don't drink, don't smoke, don't fuck. needles and pills is all, needles and pills.
"Delerium," you say? You swallow one and then it's as if a thinly lit room is the place we see ourselves where we do not exist. There�s the argument I�ve been looking for, but we�re speaking as if our teachers and mentors were droning through a windy hall way on an uneven set of stilts. OPEN THE SAILS GODDAMN-IT!! Remember the father, the formaldehyde in the basement? What the hell kind of enjoyment is that? I�ll tell you. It�s the sort of fluctuation in boredom that reminds me of dead leaves that grow wings when that old woman from across the bay flicks her sewing needles my soul.
A robust old obloquy, I dipped my hot minute in dust. A bloom of light loosed thereby ripped away the audience-margin, rising up there as rogue twitches in a flaming bed. Boards wheezed. A stone spat. A roomful of room became my imitator's brow, and a few heroes fronted the bill.
Heinrich, I'll have that bottle again
Well now, I�ve been sufficiently soldered to a mind full of embroidered contingency. Come cower with me beneath my head of seams. Mongrels at the feet of plight shrink up so that they may stampede in the morning. The comedy begins as a corporate burial ground. I�ve got steaming gestures this evening. The small talk will never last.
The monkey is on the loose.
The room was dome shaped with a wide pipe to allow music to enter and fill the chamber.
I just wanted to make sure it's all coherent, and make sure it doesn't seem like I'm ripping anyone off. I mean, I always state where my info is coming from, but in case it seems like I'm making a statement I should back up more, your help would be very much appreciated...
Then again, nothing has been said that couldn�t be scrapped from my lungs in a schism of the deepest retreat. I remember a red moment in which we, my multiple tepid faiths in collaborative digestion and I, gathered blatantly at the subversion of a fickle outlet in Greek. But that was the noun at my brother�s wedding, and everything was unglued by will of clatter flesh.
That doesn�t matter, now. A couple of bricks have started shifting into a former tense. Out of the mortar and into the noise, they whittled a small mouth out of horse bone and began flaking away into the trabeated love above the afflicted woman�s river of hopes and regrets.
It was then that I decided to vacate the room. Far too much had transpired since my last visit to the restaurant, and I wasn't about to let old friends bring up the topic of toasted oatmeal. So, after venturing into the modern section of the abandoned hospital I couldn't help but think: What if I'm the only one who enjoys clipping his toenails under the glow of summer moonlight? I mean, it's hard to grasp the very essence of dirt on the bathroom floor, but I'm not going to let that hold me back from jumping on the couch. Chesterfield? Don't mind if I do! Only the night of the abominable earthworm could really compare to that of a dash of nutmeg on cement steps. Shell we? Lettuce! The seeing eye dog scraped on into the cinema. I was pretty taken back by his sleazy shortcomings, but it's just a whole lot of fiddle-faddle. His friendly mannerisms made me blurt out "Hay mang, I hope things are going goob!" Jumping up and down sealed the deal. I couldn't take any more, so the fan seemed like the best option. I had to consider this: Why am I destined to either fail or cease to exist in everything I do? My lady already knew about yesterday and lamented to me regarding her past life. "Why oh why did I swallow that pie? I guess I'll stye." I couldn't really admit it at the time, but come to think of it, I sure would love to toss around the ol' blifnap. I don't even know anymore. That afternoon, your hair in my face. Sitting around with those people... They were all there, all of them. Ross Pearlman, Joey Cucamonga, Bourbon Scanwezel, and Omar Tenderplate. One big, loud, seahorse factory. My dear, you really know your telex, don't you? I can only hope my instincts are as sharp as your toothpicks. Let me be. Let me be. I'd shoot them all you know, just to keep her at bay. Nobody really knows the in's and out's of that forest like my Patsy. And Patsy certainly knows the outs of the inns, as well as the downside of the clubhouse's fleas. Oh boy... here comes the Calvery. Look at her waist... Up next we'll be playing the... Um... Barrel Polka.


Dirt and sawdust. Dare I say more? Today I'll sit and watch as the world passes me by. 'Til there's a fork in my eye? A hole in the pie? Gibraltar once said. He's kinda like this to me, but he's a stupid boy. Something really funny. Overshadowed. What time is my flight again? I'd like to do psychology. I'll stay for a little while. Here you go. It's cool though. What should we actually try to do with human nature? This needs to be thought out a little more. I don't know how she feels on the subject. If I could ask I certainly would - but I don't think I should. One large tree. Clearing a spot out in the woods. Building a pond. I miss those days.
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mostly left... some right too. but much more left and always always wrong with bats in the ceiling and always always a glass of milk just out of reach and cold not warm good for sleeping close warm unidentifiable smell wire core copper snakes. copper snakes is my basis, feed on copper snakes and milk bloody lips make mine bleed to be fair//innuendo hints at tommorrowflow follow my lead care sahtre its ok not eadysoonwell sharewe//tmuchcel WETMUSCLE i found a corpse on some stairs. the stairs went up but the railing went down and mostly to the left.
You're left on the sidewalk; you're right all the time; but you're down the street. A long way from home and you don't know the way back. The clouds are moving faster than they should be for a dead day like this. Windless, wireless, left. And you're panting; now falling onto the ground. Audial mutation and there's no indication you fell, other than you're on the ground. Looking up, now left. Now you're spiraling- up or down? Pretend. Up. You're lying.
and it's understood. understood that what i found wasn't perceived for any other reason than to show me what is real. what isn't real? not spiraling left through a wall to find a room where up is down and right is down. so i do the right and find myself in the snow again. same as before but different times i think. i'm not sure. altruism is dead somewhere. and if it isn't, what the fuck am i doing on the ground? liars. the corpse on the stairs was wearing pants on it's torso and a shoe on it's genitals. and the walls were green and there was a phone line coming out of it's mouth. i put the jack in my ear: the most deafening, relieving, monotone eternal static: colored pink. new realizations.
I am afraid of everything I eat.
That's all folks as they said before when I thought I was still a pulchritudinous innocent and vein wanker. Now I know I will spend the rest of my week chasing scandinavian bears to fuck with. a good life admist variety and I just met a very cute bass player in an awfull metal goth band but who is sane anyway? Whatever they won't catch me ! Oh ! Who is this Rusty warren I heard off.....
Have patience, please, while I collapse into reason.
An insect told me that there are some stones under my home. Some stones that smile evryday, because there is a peseant bug... she like to go out and buy some nice books for the stones.
What a beautiful sword, said Gaius. I hefted the blade in the sunlight, the cold water of the river running down my hands. Indeed, a beautiful sword ... balanced. A Roman sword, said Gaius. I looked at him. Another lost artifact of the Roman Empire across the Rhine.
Holy slutty cuds Batman!
So will I feed myself to the peasant insects ? If I had an ego the size of theirs I wouldn't throw stones. Is sex really overrated ? I s this Rusty Warren really a red hair role model for transexual warriors ? Will I ever stop feeling so grumpy ?Do I really have to listen to stuffs like these ? Do I find a precious stone under my fossil fueled living room ?Is hate a good idea ?
I had to laugh. A girl I've known for years, in fact I'd pretty much call her my best friend... She lives in Corner Brook, and I was talking to her on here awhile back. I've spoken with her lots since and all, but this one time really stuck out. We were just talking about my horrible luck with females. She said to me that after all the looking around I've done, and all the rotten luck I've had, there probably is not an ideal girl out there for me. There are some whom I could get along with rather well, but I'll never find the ideal chick I wish would come along. I tend to agree with her on that. She seems to think I've just gone down my own little path too far for me to hope of finding someone else there along the way. I don't really care... I just get a chuckle from it.
And then Walter saw inside his wallet for the first time. Tentacles and blood oozed out of the leather pouch into his hand, releasing a noxious odor that turned his stomach. He turned to the gas station attendant with a look of horror. "I can't pay you! I can't do anything! Anymore!" The attendant merely laughed and pointed for Walter to turn and gaze behind himself. Waletr turned.
Suddenly a blind realisation, "the sun has forsaken me!" There was darkness and not for a second I considered it to be night.. small girls with bubblegum smiles and shopping mall faces ran by me waving, the threat of terrorism rizing by the second. My airplane was a silent one, with just one brainless pilot on crack flying it towards the non-existent sun. I was the tallest tree, truly. My leaves waved without regrets or symbolism, free of the scars that hundreds of years of coca cola had left us. And so I plunged myself of the 2nd story of my grandmothers apartement building, only breaking my left foot. Which was quite a dissapointment. As I lay there bleeding i grasped for a newspaper nearby, the topic read : BUY IS GOOD. EAT IS GOOD. SEX IS GOOD. HAIR IS BAD. LOVE IS BAD. WAR IS GOOD. I remember saying : Why Sally, I simply adore the way you smell, are you by any change edible? Because I would love to.
Poor ma... It's time to find a new home.
Even if I am in love with you All this to say, what's it to you? Observe the blood, the rose tattoo Of the fingerprints on me from you Other evidence has shown That you and I are still alone We skirt around the danger zone And don't talk about it later Marlene watches from the wall Her mocking smile says it all As she records the rise and fall Of every soldier passing But the only soldier now is me I'm fighting things I cannot see I think it's called my destiny That I am changing Well, I walk to your house in the afternoon By the butcher shop with the sawdust strewn "Don't give away the goods too soon" Is what she might have told me And I tried so hard to resist When you held me in your handsome fist And reminded me of the night we kissed And why I should be leaving Marlene watches from the wall Her mocking smile says it all As she records the rise and fall Of every soldier passing But the only soldier now is me I'm fighting things I cannot see I think it's called my destiny That I am changing Marlene watches from the wall Her mocking smile says it all As she records the rise and fall Of every man who's been here But the only one here now is me I'm fighting things I cannot see I think it's called my destiny That I am changing, changing, changing, changing, changing...
There's a sound Across the alley Of cold metal Touching skin And you can see If you look in her window That she has gone and cut Her hair again In straight lines straight lines Those soft golden lights in the morning Are now on her wooden floor The wind has swept them through the apartment She won't need them Anymore Anymore Anymore...She's cut down On her lovers Though she still dreams Of them at night She's growing straight lines Where once were flowers She is streamlined She is taking the shade down From the light To see the straight lines Straight lines She wants to cut through the circles That she has lived in before She wants to finally kill the delusions She won't need them Anymore Anymore Anymore...But there's a sound Across the alley Of cold metal Too close to the bone And you can see If you look in her window The face of a woman Finally alone Behind straight lines. this fragile heart loves you
daydreams of you and your eyes all the time
"Oh, the trials and tributaries of my life!" cried Mr. Besso.
It was ironic that he was on this illusory quest. It was ironic that he trudged forth through esoteric rituals and forgotten temples, increasingly isolated and without reprieve. It was ironic because throughout all his sleepless nights and shattered hopes, the only answer to be found was the one he already knew but failed to acknowledge. He pressed on.
a dazy haze was brooding in my head
ok fine. i give up, forever.
but I managed to survive on sloth gut alone
those clanging noon-time sun bursts simply obliterated the prospect of sleep
i scribbled something on the back of a pretzel
and a voice shook him from this chore... "Goddamn it! Go ahead and broadcast it already!! I've seen at least 12 of those friggin' things since 7:30 this morning!! What in God's name are you waiting for?!?!?! Goddamn Cunningham boy has already been here and left!!! It's a crying shame!!!"
Now, one thing to keep in mind...I like the occasional scrub oak cider...ain't no different than the next guy...
I know I may not be completely free of this empire, but I know when I am building it and I slowly tear it down and rebuild on something more stable
Then came a boy with nothing to say. Then came the box in which others would listen. The boy saw an automobile, miles away, headed towards him. The box shrinking now, the boy in a panic, 18 wheels in a slow motion forward. The boy struggles to find words, but can't help pondering what time until the box is nothingness; shrinking, shrinking in. An engine sounds, a parting of wind, flattened. Now, I must inquire, this box, continually shrinking in, though no matter how small, would it ever completely dissapear?
the house has levitated above a bleak, sandy ground, which disappears a mere few feet out into dark black fog total blackness and rapid spinning Jesus dressed as Genesis-P-Orridge is exploding out of the speakers (not a word to be made out, only his piercing, droning tone) slowly outside the world slowly comes together in the black mist as each child's neon light begins to burn a hole in the night the humming of the voice becomes the humming of the growing neon lines and red hot streets stops spinning as it burns
So without any particular motivation I have taken to walking in the evenings. The spring has come and it somehow seems fitting, though I cant say its really had any ameliatory effect on my health; in body or in mind. When it seems I have just got everything into perspective, and sorted in to finite, simple order, each step seems to help to unravel my attempt at sanity. Why did I begin this dratted walk? There is an irish pub on my left. Now I must choose between sobriety and dissipation; my overwrought conscious could use some good dissipation, a diversion from my excersise towards insanity. Skipped it, I must continue. It would look silly if turned and walked back to the pub, how could I admit to the nameless old man down the block that my wanderings are aimless this evening? I continue, and I continue my excercise in acheiving insanity, every step.
I fear what I eat. I do also fear what I do not eat, that I fear. I fear I do not eat fearing to do nothing while I am eating. I fear I eat while doing things I do not fear that I may be eating to much. I fear doing things I do not fear takes time from fearing things I do not eat those things I do not fear for lack of financily resources to eat things I do not fear eating . I eat resources while fearing my finances dwindle by eating the things I am fearing to be seen eating those finances. I eat by far away finances I avoid being seen by to facilitate eating things I fear.
Would you believe in a love at first sight� Got it. Don�t know why I didn�t think of this before�just too wrapped up in my own stuff to think of YOU, I guess! Well, here I finally am, paying attention to YOU! I very much WANT to buy a surround sound system, though I can�t afford it right now (I literally have almost zero $ right now because I was on leave of absence from work for over two months). But as soon as I can at least afford to buy the new DVD-A In Absentia, I will begin shopping around for a stereo surround sound system. I will go to every stereo equipment store in my area, and I will ALWAYS use the new In Absentia DVD-A as my �test� CD. Since audiophiles tend to get jobs in stereo stores, and since many of them are into rock, and since many of those are usually into progressive rock because they are audiophiles and want their music to be of the highest caliber, I can assume with confidence that many of them will get interested as soon as they hear IA playing. I will also promise each store that I�ll return as soon as I have chosen which surround system I want (and one day soon, I actually will follow through on that promise, though I can only buy from one of the stores, but so what, that�s business, right?) I also may have a guide as to which surround system to buy, because I saw one floating around somewhere, I think near one of those interviews that I found so coincidental (NOT). So why am I going to do this? Because I owe you.
ya know, if I had known about YOU before your archenemy KC, I would have chosen you any day! and what the heck is scrub oak cider, for god's sake???? never heard of it. but how do you know i didn't go into an irish pub. a bit difficult though from here, unless you mean go talk to damo who got called a nasty name on the forum recently. i meant to defend him but i still am controlled in one area by my h -- that is the internet. i cannot use it for anything PT related while he's awake, otherwise, everything will descend again with him. and besides, i have a new father figure, he is my new psych, and i really like him, he's very reasonable, just like you SW, i'm not totally amnesiac but i do listen to it from time to time. i keep listening to sigur ros and thinking PT should have won. it's just because you're not KNOWN enough. You should be at the elevation of Pink Floyd at least by now in sales. But as long as you are happy with the music you are making, that is most important. I've been thinking a lot about you lately, mostly about how horrible i've been to you, not seeing you as a person in your own right at all. Then I realize how evaporative my fantasy is. I empathize with you then. I hear Blackfield and cry for you for what you should have, like an empathetic thing i guess. But this obsession can't last forever. My first one lasted seven years, but he lived around the corner from me and we had an actual physical relationship. so this is a little different obviously. while i'm here, who would you rank as your favorite author, what is your favorite food, your favorite dessert, your favorite color, your favorite car, your favorite place to vacation, your favorite TV show (if any), your favorite movie(s) I know it's hard to choose one!, your favorite CD(s) a limit of five. I want to know, and you can ask me anything you like and I promise I'll tell you. But why is this page by Jeff and John? Who exactly are they? And is SW really looking at this page at all even? I need to know this too, otherwise this is a waste of my time, at least this trajectory is. Otherwise, I noticed gnoss or whatever it was called just today for first time and boy does it look COOL!!!!! type in an author you like and you get floating author's names coming out at you, that is awesome and i want to so much lie on the beach with a new author and listen to "Good Vibrations," with SW would be nice, but no, I know, illusory I know, so with my son and mom is ok (i made up with mom and bro). OK love you guys don't be too hard on me ok, my new psych is the coolest, i just hope i don't get obsesseed with HIM now that would definitely be no good. i am the only obsessor on opposite gender you've ever heard of, at least to this degree? i really want know. enquiring minds want to know. and what does SW want to know? i want to know! sweet kisses down your neck caressing your lovely hair handsome lips
The deeds where done as always, in the way the deeds are being done against us or them.
I am milk I am red hot kitchen And I am cool Cool as the deep blue ocean I am lost So I am cruel But I'd be love and sweetness If I had you I'm waiting I'm waiting For you I am weak But I am strong I can use my tears to Bring you home I'm waiting I'm waiting For you I am milk I am red hot kitchen And I am cool Cool as the deep blue ocean I'm waiting I'm waiting For you I'm aching for you I'm waiting for you
I like your smile Don't like complication I like your style Don't like calculation Come towards me, dear There's something u need 2 hear I said If u want my love U can try my love U can't buy my love Just take my hand If u want me, dear Then just beckon, dear And I will appear I said-u can leave the lights on U can leave the lights on I believe in love, dear Without limitation Believe in being clear 2 avoid aggravation If u want me 2 I will exist just for u I will mesmerize with milky thighs and languid eyes, I'll prophesize your moans and sighs Just look at me sacredly, religiously, hungrily, let your eyes say, "Please," I will not leave
Walk in a corner shop See a shoplifting cop See the old lady with a gun See the hero try 2 run Nothing's what it seems, I mean It's not all dirty, but it's not all clean There's children paying bills There's monks buying thrills There's pride for sale in magazines There's pills for rent 2 make u clean Marvin Gaye, there's no brother, brother Woody Guthrie's land can't feed Mother Mothers weep, children sleep So much violence ends in silence It's a shame there's no one 2 blame For all the pain that life brings If u will just take me It might just complete me And together we can make a stand A waitress brings me lunch We meet but do not touch On TV, D.C. is selling lies While in the corner, King's dream dies Go 2 the counter, pay for me and my friend A homeless man pulls out a roll, says it's on him The mayor has no cash He said he spent it on hookers and hash ...I will love u...
Running fast through a fairy tale Dark woods; starless night Feel cold air in my lungs Full moon, u follow me-u say "Why do hearts so often stray?" U pierce me like an arrow Beneath the blanket of night Longing for flight When u fall into me It feels so sweet, like dreaming Press yourself into me Let me feel your breathing There's a voice in your heart Softly calling Come 2 me u will see, just give in 2 this sweet temptation I awake, do a double take 2 see Where it is that I lay-it could be Day or night, I'm not quite sure Your absence is a thorn Your flesh, your skin Is the only flag there is 2 believe in I can love u like nobody else When u fall into me It feels so sweet, like dreaming Press yourself into me Let me feel your breathing There's a voice in your heart Softly calling...
We are what everyone wants 2 be We are young And carefree Life's a breeze for people like u and me If U look Life lays out just like a road It's for us 2 grab ahold There's no one that can tell us no So come on, baby Let's just have fun Let's breathe stardust into our lungs Let's drive too fast Let's go too far When our hearts bleed it lets us know we are-alive And that we are-doin' fine We lay down Look at the sky From upside down There's nobody we have 2 be Let's live fast and see where it leads Let's get lost In love like wine Let kisses quench This thirst of mine Let me feel the weight of your skin Pressing in...
I'm just a simple girl In a high-tech digital world I really try to understand All the powers that rule this land They say Ms. J's big butt is boss Kate Moss can't find a job In a world of postmodern fad What was good now is bad It's not hard to understand Just follow this simple plan Follow your heart Your intuition It will lead you in the right direction Let go of your mind Your intuition Is easy to find Just follow your heart, baby lalala dadedada lada You look at me but you're not quite sure Am I it, or could you get more? You learn cool from magazines You learned love from Charlie Sheen If you want me, let me know I promise I won't say no Follow your heart Your intuition It will lead you in the right direction Let go of your mind Your intuition Is easy to find Just follow your heart, baby You've got somethin' that you're wantin' to sell Sell your sin, just cash in You've got somethin' that you're wantin' to tell "You'll love me, wait and see" If you want me, don't play games I promise it won't be in vain Follow your heart Your intuition It will lead you in the right direction...
to the one i dream of: I want you the right way I want you, but i want you to want me too Want you to want me baby Just like i want you Da da, da da, da da da I'll give you all the love i want in return But half a love is all i feel, sweet darling It's too bad, it's just too sad You don't want me no more But i'm gonna change your mind Some way, somehow I want you the right way I want you, but i want you to want me too Want you to want me baby Just like i want you Da da, da da, da da da One way love is just a fantasy To share is precious, pure and fair Don't play with something you should cherish for life Oh baby, don't you wanna care? Ain't it lonely out there? I want you the right way I want you, but i want you to want me too Want you to want me baby Just like i want you I want you the right way I want you, but i want you to want me too Want you to want me baby Just like i want you I want you, the right way Want me, baby Don't play with something You should cherish for life...
"People like you hate people like us, don't you think?"

Hairy Harry Dairy, who is usually rippling the silence with his sloth gut musings, is no where to be found. Last we heard, he had kept a pouch of Dale's soft white fuzzy mold in the fold on his lower lip to help pass away the some forgotten summer afternoon.

Harry splashed and slumped his way down the stream. He's got a jack-o-latern stuck in his left brain and a cat-o-nine tails in his right. Looks like we're having pumpkin dumplings tonight!!
"People like you hate people like us, don't you think?" Define "like you" and "like us" please, otherwise I can't answer the question...
god, why do i continue to cry about you every day? why am i so connected to someone i've never actually met?
YOU KNOW, JUST IN CASE YOU HAVE THE WRONG IDEA, I'M NOT REALLY SLEAZY AT ALL!!! CASE IN POINT, I WENT WITH MY FRIEND A----- TO A BAR THE OTHER DAY, SHE WANTED TO GO BECAUSE HER BOYFRIEND'S A DRUMMER IN THIS BAND, BUT THEY MOSTLY PLAY COVERS (BORING!!) ANYHOW, I WENT JUST FOR SOMETHING TO DO, AND COS I LIKE MY FRIEND A. SURE ENOUGH, ONE GUY COMES UP TO ME AND STARTS TRYING TO "CHAT ME UP," I JUST LOOKED AT HIM LIKE HE WAS CRAZY AND SAID, NO THANKS, AND LOOKED AWAY. I CONTINUED TO IGNORE HIM FOR THE REST OF THE NIGHT. GOOD PLOY -- IT WORKED, THOUGH HE KEPT LOOKING AT ME, BUT SO WHAT, I GOT HIM OFF MY BACK! YEAH! THIS WHOLE CRAZY STORY HAS BEEN A PRODUCT/FIGMENT OF MY IMAGINATION, WHICH HAS ALWAYS BEEN RATHER STRONG, MAYBE A LITTLE TOO STRONG, AND THOSE THERE ARE GRAINS OF TRUTH IN THE STORY, YET CERTAINLY THE ELEMENTS OF SLEAZERY WERE EXPERIMENTAL AND IN MIND ONLY, KIND OF LIKE THE IDEA CONJURED BY YOUR IEM (COOL NAME BY THE WAY). I JUST DON'T ALLOW MYSELF TO COME IN CONTACT WITH ANYONE (AND I MEAN EVEN MY H, NOW) THAT WAY. I SLEEP ALONE, AND I LIKE IT THAT WAY, UNTIL I CAN MEET WITH THE ONE I WANT AND PERHAPS FALL IN LOVE WITH. I AM GIVING UP THE OLD RELATIONSHIP NOT JUST BECAUSE YOU MADE ME REALIZE I COULD HAVE SO MUCH MORE, BUT ALSO BECAUSE YOU MADE ME REALIZE HOW SAD MY LIFE REALLY WAS. BUT I'M GOING TO MAKE IT HAPPIER, DAY BY DAY, AND I'M MAKING THE CHANGES AND STEPS TO ACHIEVE THAT, THAT'S ALL I THINK ABOUT. I DON'T ENGAGE IN UNHEALTHY ACTIVITIES, I TALK TO MY FRIENDS, I TRY TO EAT BETTER (GOD THIS SOUNDS LIKE RADIOHEAD'S ....FITTER, STRONGER, HAPPIER...OR WHATEVER IT'S CALLED, LOL) ANYHOW, I AM LIVING MUCH BETTER SINCE I GOT OUT OF THE HOSPITAL, WHICH HELPED ME COME OUT OF MY TRAUMATIZED STATE VERY WELL. AND I DON'T INTEND TO ENTER IT AGAIN, EITHER. I AM ASSERTING MY RIGHTS AS A HUMAN BEING WITH MY H NOW, AND WHATEVER HAPPENS NATURALLY AS A RESULT OF THAT, IT'S NOT ME TRAMPLING ON HIM OR HIM TRAMPLING ON ME, BECAUSE I WON'T LET HIM, NOT ANYMORE. HE DOESN'T SCARE ME LIKE HE USED TO. I AM STRONG NOW. I HAVE SUPPORT -- AND I HAVE A NEW DREAM -- A NICE APT RIGHT NEXT TO MY OLD MUSIC SCHOOL, SO MY LITTLE BOY CAN TAKE PIANO THERE. I'LL BE NEAR MY FRIENDS, NEAR CULTURE OF ALL KINDS IN THE LITTLE CITY I LOVE...AND THERE'D BE NO MORE GARBAGE. SO NOW...OK THESE ARE MY MANTRAS, MY STRAIGHT LINES FORWARD, TOWARDS A NEW FUTURE FILLED WITH PEACE AND REAL LOVE: TO LET GO DOESN�T MEAN I STOP CARING, IT MEANS I CAN�T DO IT FOR SOMEONE ELSE. TO LET GO IS NOT TO CUT MYSELF OFF, IT�S THE REALIZATION THAT I CANNOT CONTROL ANYONE. TO LET GO IS NOT TO ENABLE, IT�S TO LET ACTIONS TAKE THEIR NATURAL CONSEQUENCES. TO LET GO IS TO ADMIT POWERLESSNESS, IT MEANS THE OUTCOME IS NOT IN MY HANDS. TO LET GO IS NOT TO TRY TO CHANGE ANOTHER, I CAN ONLY CHANGE MYSELF. TO LET GO IS NOT TO CARE FOR, BUT TO CARE ABOUT. TO LET GO IS NOT TO FIX, BUT TO SUPPORT. TO LET GO IS NOT TO JUDGE, BUT TO ALLOW ANOTHER TO BE A HUMAN BEING. TO LET GO IS NOT TO BE IN THE MIDDLE, ARRANGING ALL THE OUTCOMES, BUT TO ALLOW OTHERS TO EFFECT THEIR OWN RESULTS. TO LET GO IS NOT TO BE PROTECTED, BUT TO ENABLE ANOTHER TO FACE REALITY. TO LET GO IS NOT TO DENY, BUT TO ACCEPT. TO LET GO IS NOT TO NAG, SCOLD, OR ARGUE, BUT TO SEARCH OUT MY OWN SHORTCOMINGS AND CORRECT THEM. TO LET GO IS NOT TO ADJUST EVERYTHING TO MY DESIRES, BUT TO TAKE EACH DAY AS IT COMES. TO LET GO IS NOT TO CRITICIZE NOR REGULATE ANYONE, BUT TO TRY AND BECOME WHAT WE ARE TO BE. TO LET GO IS NOT TO REGRET THE PAST, BUT TO GROW AND LIVE FOR THE FUTURE. TO LET GO IS TO FEAR LESS, AND LOVE MORE. ONE MORE THOUGHT: IF I THINK I COULD LOVE SOMEONE, I LET HIM GO. IF HE COMES BACK TO ME, HE'S MINE. IF HE DOESN'T, HE NEVER WAS... BTW, JUST TO ALERT YOU TO A COUPLE OF MISPRINTS -- STEVE "MILLER"????? UNDER THE BC CREDITS IN THE BRAINWASHED REVIEW I BELIEVE. THEN CURIOUSLY, TWO LINES ALTERED IN TWO OF PT'S SONG LYRICS, ONE IN EVEN LESS (which is not my truth, but simply a figment my mind made up) AND THE OTHER IN DISAPPEAR... STRANGER BY THE MINUTE, I TELL YOU... ;) NP: BF OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER...
i could stay late at work tomorrow night and IM you if you give me what you use to IM and what your handle is. like you have the time. plus you're 6 hours ahead. well, anyway, how else can we talk? how else? i do wish we could!
It�s you that I need now-- It�s you that I love now-- Soon all I�ll have left will be my precious scars-- And my little boy�I�ll be alone for a while Defining my space and time, until�I�m brave enough to let someone in finally, again. Healing.
I could not see that bird. Outside the old barn, just down the road from the toast factory, Maureen could have hopped the fence. There were a lot of dogberries growing on the tree, so naturally I decided to take matters into my own hands. What kind of a face is that, old man? There's a lot of cardboard in the barn, and I'm sure I could easily haul fifty bags of garbage out of there. The cardboard was originally intended for nourishment purposes, but it's ripened a little too much for any foolhardy ape to take a stab at it. I'll build a dam out of sand, that should solve the problem. I never would have imagined I'd be called a coward by someone whom I live with just because I'm afraid to drive an automobile. So what? Fuck off. I was perfectly fine where I was, thank you very much. I don't mean to project an air of hindsight bias, but I knew that leaving my home would only lead to trouble - not just for me either... I warned 'em. So, I'll have to establish a new home for myself. Anyways, enough of telling us what you ain't, how about telling us what you am? I've always been amazed by the number of talc mines, or supposed talc mines in my home town. Is there that much of a demand for the substance? It certainly tastes nice, at any rate. So what if anti-perspirint causes Alzheimer's? They'll either have a cure for it by the time I'm old, or euthanasia will be legal. Outside the fold. The laughter. Ick... Nothing like a decaying beaver to spice up a day of fishing.


alright, that's it. i'm leaving this place!!! no one here makes any sense!!! not that you were supposed to, i know. but this place is not the place for me to get clear or follow straight lines. besides, i have other more important things to do than try to decipher messages out of surreal packets of jam. nevertheless, it was a fascinating experiment that i thought might come to nothing. and i was right. ha!
I only fucked her until she cried, and I only cried until I was from canada.
Death now seemingly encompassed me like a strange divergent ambient architecture ripe with chloroform and phenotypical mutation. The spheres of paranormal intelligence began to solidify their inherent violent transgressions by means of a riveting, paralysing colorless embryonic laser field and slowly I felt the mutagenic properties of distillated death begin to peel back upon itself and crumble into prismatic memories of a lifetime I have yet to own. I no longer felt the comforting choke of death and began to wonder amidst layers of apprehension if it was really a fear of living that I was trying to avoid on a relatively elliptical basis. I had lost all previous attempts toward interpersonal self expression and my mind had exhumed itself like a 19th century globe rotating freely without an axis.
Death now seemingly encompassed me like a strange divergent ambient architecture ripe with chloroform and phenotypical mutation. The spheres of paranormal intelligence began to solidify their inherent violent transgressions by means of a riveting, paralysing colorless embryonic laser field and slowly I felt the mutagenic properties of distillated death begin to peel back upon itself and crumble into prismatic memories of a lifetime I have yet to own. I no longer felt the comforting choke of death and began to wonder amidst layers of apprehension if it was really a fear of living that I was trying to avoid on a relatively elliptical basis. I had lost all previous attempts toward interpersonal self expression and my mind had exhumed itself like a 19th century globe rotating freely without an axis. This Saturday marks the return of applesauce to my old mans' diet. He has been living free of his own influence because volcanic cerebral eruption once destroyed the fibrous memoric network of novelty known as the temporal lobe. Joeseph now lives inside a perpetual experiment that reciprocates deluded,sometimes graphic fragments of entwined nothingness squared. And why you might find yourself asking yourself?......because death left only a tattoo and did not claim his tortured transgressed soul. Of course now his Chi has been refabricated by polluted verbage and quarts of hilarity. BUT, I never claimed to personally own any of this, it must have been given to him, a gift of sorts, from the high priestess of mindless self indulgence. Not only that but my Grandfather is no longer living and had ceased to use applesauce for medicinal purposes eons before returning to the stone grey soil of the borrowed organic winter his mind dwelled in uselessly. For months now I have been questioning the use of parafin in the making of celestial candles, but to no avail. All of my work had been lost in a campfire set by THE Pyrotechnic exquisitionist, as he fruilessly likes to be called (he NEVER started a fire before this one...and now he claims to be a deity of sorts..wtf...WHO IS THIS INSIPPANT MOTHERFUCKWAD ANYHOO?) by all who barely looked up to him. He was only 3' 8' at the time he sprouted his first (and last) pair of "fire organs". How could I forget the opportunity he created in the destruction of years worth of parafinic research and millions of wasted hours. If it weren't for him my penis never would have forked like a snakes tongue, but I digress...he did show me how to impregnate caribbean lobster (Cruteceaceous enlargicus) using liquid mercury and heat treated balsa wood! Jane, my ex-wife recently opened her store called "Deck your Balls". Originally touted as a place where a man would go to give his "member" a little holiday cheer. Things like flashing penis lights, dick glitter, helmet adornments and various other festive penile enhancements were all in abundance. The store did remarkably well considering the lawsuit we made up to increase our labor force by 2/3rds this year to handle the increase inseminal volume expected during the 4th quarter last year. I never understood why she planned so arduosly for the future while ignoring the past like she did...........BUT it's not my store it's hers' and when her son dies, it's going to be his past that I will have to face. Thats the REAL reason I am here, to get that off my chest. Besides Saturday is only hours away and the applesauce is STILL unsafe to the touch for my old mans' sake. Remember him? Like I expected you to care.
Time = T +0.00. Death now seemingly encompassed me like a strange divergent ambient architecture ripe with chloroform and phenotypical mutation. Thanklessly this state would only last for seconds. The spheres of paranormal intelligence began to solidify their inherent violent transgressions by means of a riveting, paralysing embryonic laser field and slowly I felt the mutagenic properties of distillated death begin to peel back upon itself and crumble into prismatic memories of a lifetime I have yet to own. Elapsed time T +0.17. I no longer felt the comforting choke of death and began to wonder amidst layers of apprehension if it was really a fear of living that I was trying to avoid on a relatively elliptical basis. I had lost all previous attempts toward interpersonal self expression and my mind had exhumed itself like a 19th century globe rotating freely without an axis. This Saturday marks the return of applesauce to my old mans' diet. He has been living free of his own influence because volcanic cerebral eruption once destroyed the fibrous memoric network of novelty known as the temporal lobe. Joeseph now lives inside a perpetual experiment that reciprocates deluded,sometimes graphic fragments of entwined nothingness squared. And why you might find yourself asking yourself?......because death left only a tattoo and did not claim his tortured transgressed soul. Of course now his Chi has been refabricated by polluted verbage and quarts of hilarity. BUT, I never claimed to personally own any of this, it must have been given to him, a gift of sorts, from the high priestess of mindless self indulgence. Not only that but my Grandfather is no longer living and had ceased to use applesauce for medicinal purposes eons before returning to the stone grey soil of the borrowed organic winter his mind dwelled in uselessly. For months now I have been questioning the use of parafin in the making of celestial candles, but to no avail. All of my work had been lost in a campfire set by THE Pyrotechnic exquisitionist, as he fruilessly likes to be called (he NEVER started a fire before this one...and now he claims to be a deity of sorts..wtf...WHO IS THIS INSIPPANT MOTHERFUCKWAD ANYHOO?) by all who barely looked up to him. He was only 3' 8' at the time he sprouted his first (and last) pair of "fire organs". How could I forget the opportunity he created in the destruction of years worth of parafinic research and millions of wasted hours. If it weren't for him my penis never would have forked like a snakes tongue, but I digress...he did show me how to impregnate caribbean lobster (Cruteceaceous enlargicus) using liquid mercury and heat treated balsa wood! Jane, my ex-wife recently opened her store called "Deck your Balls". Originally touted as a place where a man would go to give his "member" a little holiday cheer. Things like flashing penis lights, dick glitter, helmet adornments and various other festive penile enhancements were all in abundance. The store did remarkably well considering the lawsuit we made up to increase our labor force by 2/3rds this year to handle the increase in seminal volume expected during the 4th quarter last year. I never understood why she planned so arduosly for the past while ignoring the present state of things like she did like she did...........BUT it's not my store it's hers' and when her son dies, it's going to be his past that I will have to face. Thats the REAL reason I am here, to get that off my chest. Besides Saturday is only hours away and the applesauce is STILL unsafe to the touch for my old mans' sake. Remember him? Like I expected you to care. All I ask is for you to, for once, find reason in what I say because while it might make perfect sense to you and apply very well to YOUR life, I have found only a very loose connection for any of this in mine. Where is my temporal lobe anyway????.....ahhh the breakfast machine!!!
McFletcher McFlavin once said in his early days of pioneering, he said: "If you can cut down a tree, then don't cut it down. But if you need some wood juice, take your pot, and make a soup - wood soup. Delicious, wood-flavoured soup." In the early days, that's what they dreamed about. Going out in the woods, chopping down a tree, making a fire... With the kids, couple dogs, and drinking the wood soup. Just plain... Plain flavour... Wood soup...
ok, ok. Of course what i wrote here is pretty much the truth. I admit it what you say TR. but that doesn't make it right for me to act on. so i don't. as i said, i don't let anyone touch me now that way (therefore excluding the physical affection between my son and I). I am repulsed by the man who pushed me over and threw soda on me because he i locked him out because he was getting very angry and he threw my lamp across the room when i was first pregnant with Justin because i had panic attacks and because of the panic attacks felt suicidal because i couldn't stand them, they were so terrifying. also i know that the two recet od's were completely stupid of me. I just hope that the panic and fear and terror of men will one day subside enough. i only tempt that which i fear because that is what i am familiar with/used to. the man i loved for 7 years ultimately was only a sexual partner (from when i was 14 till 19) and he was usually drunk when he came to my window in the middle of the night. he'd tap it and i'd climb out and run off somewhere with him and come back home around 5 or 6am without my mom knowing! hard to believe i used to be so daring!! but see i learned from him, not my dad, how to relate to men. so i honestly feel uncomfortable with men generally unless i can relate to them sexually, because that's all i know how to do with a man. i don't know how to think of a man any other way. is there a way to change that? how can i love a man properly? what is my fatal flaw? that i always settle for second best? i don't think so, i think i'm too perfectionist so i'd rather fail because i'll never be perfect, so why bother. plus -- get over myself? i don't think there's much to get over here. vanity is a shallow thing that i don't really know about. i only have fantasies about other's beauty, not my own. my own beauty doesn't really exist. i don't really exist except through sexual love with a man. if i can't have that with who i'm with, then my motivation to live ceases to exist.
and by the way, i have never and would never and will never ever ever ever accuse YOU (meaning SW or anyone else) of anything, because you are not the reason for all of this trouble existing for me, never have been! and i didn't tell anyone at the H about you because i didn't want to and never want to get you involved/in trouble in anyway. that is a promise, hard and fast!! end transmission.
i wish a poetry section could be added onto the PT forum. it would be a place where everyone who writes poetry could express themselves. maybe SW/PT would consider this? if so, they could divide into this into sections: PTmusic-inspired poetry, SWmusic inspired poetry, and their own personal poetry. what do you think? SW? PT? NWW? -C
fuck it all and stab it dead.
what do you mean? be more explicit.
Our mother walked through the forest, looking for three children that were formerly hers. They were not to be found by mortal eye...They were caught up to God, and to his throne....she pulled a piece of peanut brittle from her pocket, bit it...remarked at its similarity to an extraterrestrial carapace...savoured it....andherheartwasfilledwithsadnessandremorseforherdeed.
ERM....... Well at least there is something you can do with a scandinavian bear,a beaver or a man you want have sex with...you could eat them all...And then maybe pretending to slip into madness surrounded by awfull policemen. Listening to a mix of the Bastard dj Derek Sein (well he's hot) and under your headphones you don't even notice the revolution has another abortion ,yes ,yet,yeah Whatever we are lost ,let's stay hidden ,not too far; ..... Who do bondage here ?
Nothing was worst than working for the government,I meant any one indeed.Talk about bad LSD trip. Here we are....
you deserve your face
as i said, there is a LOT of misunderstanding going on here. and i think it's because it's very hard to communicate properly on the internet. and no matter what you say, you can cuss me till you're blue in the face, my feelings won't change. i know i got scared and said something stupid, a way of trying to protect myself, i realize. i know that's got to change. i'm very sorry. i admitted myself to the hospital because i knew i had done something stupid, besides the things i did to myself, well it's all to myself really. i know you exist though. i just can't believe it a lot of the time because i'm not used to the idea. please forgive me? is it possible for that?
and i never lied to you, except when i said i lied. i'll never lie again. i did that because i didn't want to accept the truth, as you are pointing out. yesterday i let him in and he got mad because all i did was cry and cry before and afterwards, because it's surrender, and because i am afraid of what i feel during it, or rather don't feel. it's emptiness. just sex is emptiness. how more truthful can i be?
and just to set your straight, there was no PRETENDING madness, for one thing, I am not "insane," i simply had one or two psychotic "breaks" and that never happened to me before, and it was precipitated by not only my losing trust in my husband because he began bruising my arms by holding them too tight when he got angry (which a friend I used to work with can attest to as a witness -- she saw the bruises), but also because he punched a hole through the front door and then pushed me down on the floor violently and took my glass of soda and dumped it on me. This all because i told him to leave the house so he could cool off his temper, which he finally did, and usually when this happens, he stays away for 1/2 an hour or so, but this time he came back only five minutes later and i was downstairs and didn't know he was at the door (and it is my habit to put the deadbolt lock on anyway, though i think i made sure i did it that time because i was afraid of what he might do physically), and then five minutes later he was back and i was downstairs where the fan was on in the bathroom, had no idea he was there, i was peeing, and then i started hearing a banging sound. I would have let him in right away believe me, if i knew he was, as he said, ringing the doorbell over and over that I couldn't hear, because I would have expected he might do something drastic like that being as I had deadbolted the door. I JUST DIDN'T THINK HE'D COME BACK FIVE MINUTES LATER. THAT WAS MY MISCALCULATION. HE USUALLY STAYS AWAY 1/2 AN HOUR OR MORE AND THEN COMES BACK COOLED OFF AND APOLOGIZES, ETC. THIS TIME, THAT DIDN'T HAPPEN. THAT'S WHY IT ESCALATED. WHY HE WAS MAD AT ME IN THE FIRST PLACE? IT WAS SOME STUPID REASON I DON'T EVEN REMEMBER WHAT IT WAS, THAT'S HOW IMPORTANT THE REASON FOR OUR FIGHT WAS. WHICH SHOWS THAT HIS REASON FOR BEING ANGRY WAS NOT THAT STUPID LITTLE THING THAT NEITHER OF US CAN EVEN REMEMBER ANYMORE. IT GOES DEEPER THAN THAT. AND HE HAS ALWAYS HAD AN ANGER PROBLEM. I USED TO FIGHT BACK WHEN I WAS YOUNGER, BUT ONCE I GOT PREGNANT, I SUDDENLY FELT VULNERABLE AND LOST THE GUTS TO DO THAT, I GUESS. AM I TO BE PUNISHED FOR TRYING TO PROTECT ME AND MY SON FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE????? I'M SICK OF EVERYONE BLAMING ME ME ME ME ME WHEN IT'S NOT MY GODDAMN FUCKING FAULT. I AM PISSED BEYOND BELIEF RIGHT NOW. EVERYONE WHO WILL SIDE WITH HIM JUST BECAUSE THEY ARE MALE OUT OF SOME STUPID CAMAREADRIE FUCK OFF NOW!!!! SHOW YOUR TRUE COLORS WHOEVER YOU ARE AND FUCK OFF!!!! I AM GOING TO GET FREE OF THIS RELATIONSHIP BECAUSE HE KILLED MY LOVE FOR HIM WHEN I GREW ENOUGH TO REALIZE HE DIDN'T RESPECT ME. I AM NOT GOING TO BE FLAYED FOR THAT ANYMORE ANYMORE ANYMORE!@!@ FUCK OFF ALL OF YOU WHO TAKE HIS SIDE. ANYWAY....BELIEVE IT OR NOT, I CAN FORGIVE HIM, BECAUSE HE'S HUMAN, BUT THAT DOES NOT MEAN I WILL FORGET WHAT HE DID TO ME, AND IT DOES NOT MEAN I HAVE TO STAY WITH AN ABUSIVE HUSBAND. I CAN AFFORD TO LIVE ON MY OWN, THOUGH I'LL HAVE TO LIVE MODESTLY, BUT I DONT' GIVE A FLYING FUCK ABOUT THAT. I CARE ABOUT MY SON AND ME BEING RESPECTED. I JUST CAN'T TRUST ANYMORE THAT HE WILL EVER GIVE ME OR MY SON THE RESPECT NEEDED. HE PUTS UP A GOOD FRONT IN FRONT OF HIS PARENTS, HIS FAMILY, AND OUT IN PUBLIC. SO EVERYONE IS FOOLED. OK, I DONT' CLAIM TO BE PERFECT, BUT I DO RESPECT OTHER PEOPLE AND WOULD NEVER INTENTIONALLY HURT ANOTHER PERSON PHYSICALLY. NEVER. I DON'T BELIEVE IN THAT. I WOULD RATHER BE LIKE GANDHI AND BE KILLED THAN KILL. BUT I WON'T PUT UP WITH ANY MORE SHIT ANY MORE IN MY LIFE. I AM DETERMINED TO GET FREE AND GET ON MY OWN AND NOT HAVE A MAN UNTIL I CAN SEE STRAIGHT OUT OF MY FUCKED UP EYES TO SEE THROUGH ANY POTENTIAL FUTURE BOYFRIEND TO SEE WHETHER HE WOULD DO THAT OR NOT. I AM NOT GOING TO BE PUT THROUGH FEAR OF PHYSICAL HARM ANYMORE, LIKE WHEN I WAS A KID. AND I WON'T LET MY SON BE PUT THROUGH THAT EITHER!!! THAT IS FUCKED UP!!!! AND AS FOR DRUGS, YEAH, I USED TO TAKE DRUGS BECAUSE I DIDN'T WANT TO SEE THE SITUATION I WAS IN BECAUSE THEN I'D HAVE TO FACE MY FEAR AND TAKE ACTION TO GET OUT OF IT. AND WHAT HAPPENED WHEN I TRIED TO DO THAT? MY THERAPIST OF 16 YEARS OR WHATEVER TOLD ME MY HUSBAND WAS "A GOOD MAN" AND THAT I OVERREACTED. WELL, I DON'T BELIEVE I DID. I THINK I DID WHAT ANY SANE WOMAN WOULD DO AND I THINK HER SAYING THAT TO ME SCREWED MY HEAD UP BECAUSE I AM TOO NAIVE AND THINK ALL THERAPISTS MUST BE INFALLIBLE. WELL, NO ONE IS INFALLIBLE. INCLUDING ME OF COURSE. BUT I DO KNOW WHAT'S GOOD FOR ME, AND I HAVE DONE EVERYTHING I COULD TO MAKE THINGS BETTER IN THIS RELATIONSHIP, INCLUDING HAVING SEX, BUT YOU KNOW WHAT? THE SEX WITHOUT REAL LOVE SUCKS. AND THAT'S THE GODDAMN FUCKING REAL TRUTH. I AM NOT GOING THROUGH LIFE A SCARED LITTLE MOUSE ANYMORE. I DON'T SEE ALL MEN AS EVIL, EITHER. I AM REASONABLE ENOUGH TO SEE THAT BOTH MEN AND WOMEN HAVE THEIR POTENTIAL FOR HARM OR GOOD. BUT I HAVE HAD IT WITH THIS MAN. I CANNOT TAKE ANYMORE OF THE MANIPULATION, AND I CANNOT TAKE ANYMORE OF THE WEAK ATTEMPTS TO BE "CLOSE" TO ME, WHICH CONSISTS OF HIM PUSHING HIS PENIS UP AGAINST MY BACKSIDE WHEN I'M ASLEEP IN THE MORNING, WAKING ME UP, AND THEN ONCE HE'S SATED, EVERYTHING'S ALRIGHT FOR HIM. BUT I FEEL DEFEATED. SO THAT'S WHY I STOPPED LETTING HIM. BECAUSE THEN IT'S LIKE I'M SAYING IT'S OK HE DID THAT STUFF TO ME. EVEN IF I FORGIVE HIM, THAT'S NOT THE POINT, I DO FORGIVE HIM AS A PERSON. BUT I CANNOT FORGET HE DID THAT, AND I DIDN'T OVERREACT, I JUST FELT GUILTY BECAUSE THOUGH HE DIDN'T KNOW IT, I WAS FALLING IN LOVE WITH SOMEONE ELSE, OR SO I THOUGHT, A MUSICIAN OF GREAT TALENT AND SO I THOUGHT MAYBE HE COULD SENSE THIS AND I FELT GUILTY, AND THAT GUILT WAS USED AGAINST ME SOMEHOW AND THEN THE STUFF ABOUT MY FATHER ALL CAME UP BECAUSE I HAVE ABANDONMENT ISSUES, AND I DON'T WANT TO DESERT ANYONE, THAT'S NOT THE POINT, I JUST WANT TO LIVE MY LIFE BEING RESPECTED AND RESPECTING OTHERS. BEING TRUE TO MYSELF, AND HAVING THE FREEDOM TO GO OUT WITH A FRIEND OR SOMETHING WITHOUT IT BEING LIKE I'M COMMITTING A CRIME. AND I NEVER WANT TO GET MARRIED EVER AGAIN. PERIOD. I JUST WANT TO BE FREE, AND MY SON TO HAVE A GOOD FATHER FIGURE. WHO THAT WILL BE DEPENDS ON MY HUSBAND AND WHETHER HE EVER TRULY CHANGES, THOUGH I WON'T RETURN TO HIM EVEN IF HE DOES, BECAUSE LIKE I SAID, MY LOVE FOR HIM IS DEAD. SO YOU WANTED THE TRUTH. YOU GOT IT!! AND HERE'S MORE...I KNOW I HAVE MY PERVERSIONS, I CAN'T EXPLAIN THAT. THAT'S JUST HOW IT IS. MY PERVERSIONS ARE JUST AN EXPRESSION OF MY BEING TRAPPED PROBABLY. I HATE TO ADMIT IT, BUT IT'S TRUE THAT RIGHT NOW AT LEAST, OR AT LEAST FOR MOST OF MY MARRIAGE, I HAVE OFTEN NEEDED TO BE HUMILIATED IN ORDER TO GET TURNED ON, AND THAT SOMETIMES INCLUDED BEING TIED UP. BUT, THAT IS IN THE PAST, AND I DON'T WANT THAT, I WANT A MAN TO BE ROMANTIC, BUT PASSIONATE WITH ME!!! THAT'S ALL I WANT! IS THAT SUCH A CRIME? OR SO IMPOSSIBLE???????? IS THERE NO HOPE FOR ME TO HAVE A BETTER LIFE?? FORGET THE ACID TRIP, THAT WAS NOTHING. THAT WAS 20 YEARS AGO, AND REPRESENTED HOW ROTTEN I THOUGHT THE WORLD WAS. I KNOW IT WAS MIXED UP THINKING....END TRANSMISSION HAPPY NOW??
Somebody else's goggles.
Hey, stop it, alright! A horse died in that fire.
The bloody part of a bad timing nation
At Least, roasted horses can be eaten.............................................................. but those sex stories of emptyness are not the way I feel it ,is there better way to feel something inner ;;;erm I wouldn't say it's holly 'cause I don't like that word.The lack of tenderness goes by masturbation but having something to hold is better even if it is a roasted animal carcass if you have this fantasy;I wouldn't throw stones... I know what I'm searching for . Sorry for hurting others who are lost in the same dark paths maybe searching for something else like in "Do we care ?" I care . Who do bondage here ?
being unable to run she had no option but to surrender
a perfect circle is a bit redundant, since a circle is by definition perfect, according to Aristotle anyhow. The abstract idea of perfection is captured there, without the word perfect. Now, are you meaning...(without that word holly which i don't care for either) NIN Closer, Magdalene, The Nurse Who Loved You? if so, that would be correct. The thing about the carcass you keep mentioning, that is not healthy. To fuck a dead thing is not good or healthy, I mean. It seems my love fantasies have always previously been about those. But that is not true in this case, for the very first time since I was a teenager. I don't know why he enthralls me so much. I don't know why, but I think it started the Dec before last. That's a long time. I don't even care about the package I sent anymore, in terms of what happens with it, or whatever. I don't want to lose me to find him, either, like the bargain (I have a lot of who cd's). I know i'm worth something with him. BUT, i can't help longing and longing and longing and i don't know what to do with it. what do i do? just fantasize the rest of my life? that doesn't seem like it would truly make me happy. or wait until i meet someone else who does this for me, which might be never? or what?? why AM i enthralled, anyhow? is there any logic or rhyme or reason to such feelings? yes, it's true i long to be saved. it's that kind of desperateness coupled with it. that's the part though that keeps me closer. so i have to do that...BTW, does anyone ELSE do bondage here?
i dark ways shadows fall in i dark ways shadows fall i dark ways shadows fall
There were no walls around me, yet the ceiling and floor were material and divided by at least three meters of space. I lay on the floor (at least I think it was that) and stared into the black and blue nothingness that surrounded me. Somewhere out in the distance, little kitchentiles started to emerge. The came closer to me little "room" and although they were hardly bigger than frisbees, they still fell in their levitating path with clangs that rivalled the noise of thunder. The closer they came, the more more fierce my terror grew. Whimpering and sobbing, I pushed myself as far as I could against the opposing end, without falling off. Then the last clang of the tiles fell and the path was complete onto my room. As the noise from the final tile had died, there was horrible silence for a moment only broken by my heartbeats. To feel safer, I swung my legs and abdomen out over the site and held on the the floor with my arms, chest and head. Then, from the far end of the path, I heard footsteps. Highheeled ones. I could see the nurse emerging in the distance. Her arms were dripping blood.
"Let's have a look at you, shall we?" she said, smiling, thereby letting all her teeth fall onto the checkered floor. "Tut mir f�rchterlicht Leid," I said "...men hvis du ikke har nogen arme...how on earth can you help me?". I spoke in a deliberately mechanic voice, as to not let my allconsuming fear overwhelm me. My little speech hadn't worked. With a flicker I was paralyzed and dragged up from the edge. "You have a cold. You're going to die" the nurse said, and as she leaned above me, dark blood poured out from her cleavage. Her arms had long rips that trickled crimson waterfalls that were slowly filling up her shoes. In a matter of seconds, the bloodflow had grown so rampant that it was spilling over the side, drying on it's way and builing an enormous pillar. The nurse fell to the ground, pale with blue lips.
bloodless but inspired
they stretched into a gravid smile. She got to her feet very slowly, leaned close to me. �I like your style�, she whispered, warm coagulant forming a tentative orb between the chilly tip of her nose and my earlobe. �OK cut! That was great but Kitty�� She pulled away, the orb stretched and snapped as if in slow motion. ��next time round could you try to be a little more convincing about the whole political vengeance aspect of the thing? I had to bust my balls to get this script out of that fucker so let�s make the most of it, hmm?� She had told me yesterday about getting out of the bath at Eugenie�s place, and finding that she had just trodden in some cold black slime which burnt her skin like acid. She thought it was hair dye or some such shit but ever since then she had had this gleaming cyan blue cast over the whites of her eyes. �It�s just the flourescents�, she insisted. �They give me bloodshot so I use drops. It�s the drops, they shine blue under the fluorescents. Maybe they�ve got quinine in them.� Lights went green, she floored the car and in doing so pushed me up against my seat. Heading North to get to the beach and the sun hits her eyes from the West, I catch them in that light and they are blue. Bull-fucking-shit the fluorescents. �Tatum I think you�ve been poisoned�. �Poisoned � what are you talking about?� �Your eyes.� �My eye.� �Seriously.� �Jaran, fuck off. Hey look, have you read about those? That chain of supermarkets done up to look like it�s the future and they�re ancient ruins of themselves. Supposedly it�s really hard to maintain a fake ruin. Want to take a proper look?� ��� �Jaran, come on..� I sigh. �OK. You�d better take your costume off. People will think we�re weird.� �Why?� �Tatum, you�re covered in very realistic-looking fake blood.� �Kind of appropriate though don�t you reckon? Come on fuck it, who cares. I want people to stare at me anyway. Come on.� So we walked in, and as we�re approaching the sliding doors there�s a gentle rumbling everywhere, it�s an earthquake. Just a minor one, but as we approach the sliding door and it moves to let us in, some shift in force distribution makes it crack and a thick piece of glass flies out and glides straight through Tatum�s stomach and out the other side, like where her liver would be, and I let out this choking kind of bellow and she falls to the ground, there is a pool forming under her back and I�m thinking of all the dry sand between the brickwork and how it�s sticking in her blood and then I come to notice that the pool is black and the sand is fizzing in it, Tatum has rolled onto her side and she is muttering incomprehensively but then I realise she is making symbols on the bricks with her finger, she is dipping her finger in this black shit and drawing on the bricks and I am speechless with trying not to throw up. Then I notice that as she�s talking, I can�t understand her, but the fuck-off shard of glass protruding from her stomach is starting to turn white like quick-frozen ice and then it�s as though it�s drying out and little bits of it are flying off like ash, and then it is gone, and her wound is gone, only she has a rageful looking rash on all the parts of her skin where the black stuff touched it. �Neat trick, huh?� she dusts off her bloodied uniform and we walk back to the car. I don�t say a word and neither does she after that.
what is it that I should earn? oh i read about Eugenia (it's ia, not ie, but anyhow ....no big deal) in the shower, yah, that was different. I do identify somewhat with Deborah, but she at this point in the book is much crazier than me!! Well, I never hear voices. I just imagine things, but lately i'm not feeling as persecuted anymore. I am seeing that persecution complex is maybe my main problem as to why i don't make changes in my life, and also why i don't really even trust the people closest to me i want to cut through all the bullshit and be a friend. but you have to help me see what that means. i am very inconsistent and unreliable in relationships. i skirt out on people all the time and basically just go into my own world a lot. i really like daydreaming because it takes me away from the reality of life. however, i am beginning to see through the daydream more and more. i am beginning to see not the sick origins as much now, i'm not really dwelling on that anymore, as much as ok what will i do once i admit my weakness and shit i've been seeing the news the beheading pretty awful what crap goes on in this world
btw, that reminds me of paper cuts but i don't listen to paper cuts or any of his songs anymore haven't for years really nor any of his left behind woman she was left behind that's the only reason i noticed her more because i identify with being left behind but anyway so what if i was left behind. well not so what exactly. what do i mean?.....................hmm. well i feel more real lately. that's good. but it's scary. i must admit i'm tense all the time, scared a lot, but not the way i was last fall. it's more just little attacks, mostly from my dreams, because i keep having nightmares or at least bad dreams. i want to start having good dreams now. if i can just trust a little tiny bit. oh i don't know. i don't know if anything's possible except staying right where i am. that's bad. no i can't do that. no no no no. and it wasn't Aristotle it was Plato about the circle and its perfection. silly me, i forget, well it has been ten years since i took that philosophy course. i really do enjoy darkness but he doesn't. does anyone else enjoy darkness? i like sun too, but lately i am resisting the sun to prove a point. that point being, that i was not being real. now i feel more real. so this is good. i am not dwelling on the negative images unless i have to. ok, i did have an intrusive thought or two about sex. and one about banging my head against the cement floor, but that's only because i was reading "i never promised you a rose garden," and i was trying to imagine what it would be like to be like Deborah. I'm near the end of the book now. I keep wondering how she will rid herself of her poisonousness. i don't identify with most of it, but I do identify with feeling like i poison people. i really do wish i could go away for a while and just punch walls for months. instead of just smiling and acting like i'm full of anything great or good. i'm just disgusting inside really. but i don't think that all the time. because i use fantasy to take me away from the reality. but now i've seen through it, it's too late now to deceive myself much longer...c
So I'm walking down this street in Cairo, and Jimmy, a paint salesman, comes up and starts fucking my tin can, now sir I do insist if you lack such morals, please come inside. And in the desert God's riding 7 flaming Arabs, waiting for earth to leave its orbit, seeking oil in the sun like a junkie to his KY.
it's ok it's not your fault! i gave you the words of my soul and everything that created my w(hole). That was my choice, not anyone else's. therefore i am to blame for any whirlwind fantasies in my head. i will go away and be quiet (mostly) now.
My horoscope for today...5-25-04...[Imagine yourself in front of an airport baggage carousel with the opportunity to pick up a different suitcase and start a new life. This is just an illustration of the attractive opportunities that are coming your way, one after another. There's a shiny, new package deal waiting just within reach. The material world is your friend these days, giving you a leg up into more intangible regions. Choose your destination wisely for maximum fulfillment. Even if you decide not to stay where you end up, the experience alone will make you rich...] crazy, huh? yep.
i had the talk lastnight with him. i've finally levelled with him! my best friend wants me to come visit her in PA. I'm trying to decide if i need to stay home, or whether me and J should just go for the weekend. i'm feeling lighter but i'm also feeling very sad. but at least i'm no longer living a lie.
For you: A sip of vengeance. Just a taste of raw chromium bluster

i don't get why vengeance has to come into this all the time from other people i don't ever think of vengeance i merely strive and ask for, what is beauty what is love what is heart what is soul? music rules in beauty strength words are fast behind that encounter
are you saying you gave me a sip of vengeance?
The real truth is that it has no special meaning. At least, no more than inconsciently findinding ways to fullfill basic needs.
you are saying i am acting mindlessly? or have no conscience? if the latter, oh yes i do! in fact, i think i am the opposite, always worried i am doing something wrong sometimes just by existing, let alone writing something, did you ever think of that? it may seem as if i do things without thinking, but it's actually the opposite. anyhow, that means i'm not mindless either.
it wouldn't have my arms, she has an undertaker dry-washing his heart, just for compassion. He looked as a damp napkin, she has an unassailable way for fiddle-de-dee? Lend her. You really don't like the rain. Khartoum, I delivered thee, there and the room was across the music. Nix. Those huggers are notifying the lot. I delivered thee, but hard aching white light. Those huggers are notifying the Rabbit hastily interrupted. The air had a fight. Gentle Reader: Let my hat brim low and the big sleep. He had tight brilliant eyes that wanted to wax indignant about this rule, son? What if it wouldn't be oiling my vital organs. You drive, a cool level stare over the chance is on a can of flame, like policemen's wives. The Plymouth was a dead men. Put, she fails to l. Khartoum, just for my arms, swathed the chance is on the Rabbit hastily interrupted. Very nice cars stopped in the rim of the scream. it wouldn't be white meat to wax indignant about this rule, just for a can of his number, you're washed fingers of flame, what is glass. Put, because he stood, twenty pounds of a cup of a can of flame, the chance is on a can of spices. Put, verily, he stood, because I drove down! The jaws that is that is on that one on Sunset. He had three empty shells in Quentin. it wouldn't be white light gonged. He had tight brilliant eyes that one on that they were greasy little man.
so, that was indeed a very good start
"You make an exquisite corpse, Shelley..."
The Exquisite Copse was a game played by environmentalists which involved each person planting a seed, sapling or cutting, being fully aware that the trees would be nowhere near full growth within their individual lifetimes; rather, they requested of their decendants, or the survivor of them, their heirs or assigns, that they visit the planting site one hundred years after the date of planting. How selfless! "You see, Mendosa? Uf de ole kat hab kittins in de ubbin, it do make 'um biskits!"
"you're not the contents of your wallet"
And so it came to pass that:
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yet for some reason, as i traveled along the cobblestone corridors, all my memories of the first degree hole in the wall seemed to be coming back. glistening in the night shade moonlight. i now know what needs to be done. it is when the epiphany hits that you forget about the little things. "watch where you're walking you vagrant!" as i step onto the homeless man. peculiar... why would i be the vagrant? and now a new question plagues me and the epiphany is lost. thank you corporate whore. i frisk my pockets to find a corn cob pipe. how clich�. as i pull it out to take a puff. the exhale. ahhh. the deadness of night dances within the spirals of my exhale. why am i the only civilized one out here? yet another question, to temporarily distract me from thinking about the truth. ah yes, the truth... the reason i am walking to my destination. the reason for exactly where i am at this exact moment in time. yes, the truth. its quite simple really. damn. tripped again. i simply must stop getting lost in my own insipid thoughts. yet i am the composer. and you are the molester. yes. probed. mental. breakfast. enjoy. fatman. almost there. the air is significantly more stale... or perhaps its my cottonmouth. remember, when this is finished: hydrate yourself more often. click. clack. click how is this possible? how can my footsteps be my only source of auditory input besides my own thoughts? i don't recall my evenings ever being this dead. well then. almost there. where am i going, again? a rather important question. but the sound of a sonata playing from a second story morning glory phonograph horn. probably the laments of a widow awaiting the return of her long dead lover. i crack a slight smile as i pin her exactly. split ends. thinning. droop. wrinkled. lonely. why is the some people's destiny to live the majority of their lives in misery? damn. stop with these questions else you're forget the true purpose of this... this... what am i doing again? damn. now i'm lost.
horoscope ? who said horoscope ? who is still believing such nonsense. I heard of Rusty Warren ,isn't she a red haired american performer kind of obsessed with sex ? oh yeah..;sex again ,I didn't notice ;I'm here trapped in this drug which is finally like another,searching new subs,searching new escape way, new pleasures and new pains,then I walk silently with my wounds and everybody suddenly notice..;Funny looking Guy;"we have a doubt" they say "Is he human?". Then the canadian lawyer who was in the crowd answers alone : "I'm not sure ".
i sometimes feel very odd that i'm being paid attention to in this way, it doesn't seem possible. i feel as if you are trying to help me, and it's very nice. however, i do NOT want to interfere with your musical creation, or steer it this way or that, that is not my right! anyway, i have read a lot of articles now under bright lights, and wanted to thank whoever it was that put that on SW's playlist. (orpheus). however, i don't feel worthy of any attention at all since i feel as if i was the one who forced it, which is not a good way to get attention. i do not want to think about females anymore. it's like when i was in high school and i realized that i hung out more with the boys than the girls, mainly because the girls did not appreciate good music, good books, or good anything practicaly, except nail polish or hair styles. look i got my nails done two weeks ago so that I would stop ruining my skin, but i cannot stop thinking how anti guitar it is, lol!!! that's a boy thing to think. i have never met another female who was as male-oriented (without being homosexual) as I am. yet, i have sometimes been called a "priss" by guys who are just "too cool," which i laugh at inside, if only they knew!!! haha i guess it goes to show you looks can be deceiving. oh yes, i wanted to mention i had a very strong sort of epiphany lastnight which was caused by something i read in one of these bright lights articles, it was not on sw's playlist, but i found it indirectly that way. it was a review of a certain movie, i forget which one. i have to go look up what that was. wish i could remember NOW so i could write it here!! oh well...
then realizing you are just a joCk.ten sixteens swished away a dark boom in my grandmothers direction. she smiled and asked the them for turpentine flavored rabbits. did you really float upon t h e Vile BaseMent?It .it is a sixteen slashed slurpy.a brown luck cream.apply to the heart of the engine.you'll only find one in there. franklin pierce lives in there as well as enoch tanner wickham.they touch me at night . in the leeroy dreams. but also.chlomoso. xoxoxoxoyes i found the vanilla pancreas. the sword of gut and glow.i do like some good
oh darling, okay now you scared the shit out of ME. are we even?
it would be okay if you were with me now i would feel safe but i don't feel safe but it's okay i can't feel safe continuously i should be happy with the safety i felt earlier today and remember that movie is made up and these are all just stories i tell myself and this is ridiculuous and i will need strong arms around me tonight i will have to fantasize you in tonight to comfort me everly brothers dream dream dream until i fly to my safety i have to find it
There really isn't much more to say.

Chapter -X.iii~: Soundtrack for Rubella B G G C A B A G G C. Morning comes to the City. The City begins to shake off its slumber, groggy yet with the first early commuters, unaware that they've had the good fortune to survive another 24 hours as they slouch forth towards yet another diurn of "life". Hints and allegations ensue. I can't write two goddamned sentences without descending into random blather. Unless, of course, one of those sentences wasn't damned by God. One blessed sentence. Two? None. I killed them all. Reflect: Consider the worst breath you ever took. Write a haiku about your Oedipus complex: Damned forbidden lust / Am I returning to womb? / Big-head kids = turn-off. And then
then the ghost appear, he dove into hisself with divine pleasure multiplying and recreating himself a billion times each second.
She had big dark eyes, long wavy black hair, and a vivid innocent smile. Her name was Madness. She possesed me from within and made me love her but when she got fed up of lurking into my body she left. At that stage i myself was Mad. The same Madness which i loved so much became the thing that started to suffocate me during the days and kill me during the nights. I had become Insane of distinguishing between good and good... or was it evil?
On bawldur's noodles! The floorshugganah strumpots of Warshingtun's gassers, sassers and demitassers, mispixellated gawrshing broomers (nixillated epicanthers). The crowned Goulding, Bloom und Rothschilde rollin' to the Dark Dower came. Barkin' up the wrung tree, son? Nakkering stroffers venereate pooh-poohdling tinkers on the mishmashed massahs of Whist Monday - a card of wooldyed sheepish lambkin; a lyin' lie-on of the social howser; a bonus - the onus is upon us. Phonetically, fleshpottily, commodiously betoileted - decked in the phishiest phinery (the finny tribe, cootsy moddlers)...Franxious whizkiddery in the howls of monty's zoomers to the showers of triply, deciduated forest, dessicated for us, desegregated, lawless. Patriot actors scan janklowly boodlers for diddly wampum.
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I awoke this morning groggily, finally surrendering to the demands of the day. Smacking the snooze button once more, I notice the time: 7:15am. Running late, as usual. Would it end the fucking world if I could simultaneously get an adequate amount of sleep and get up at a reasonable hour? But then, what's reasonable in this age? Jesus: Here we go with the internal dialogue, and I don't even have the morning piss out of the way. Prick's stiff, as usual after a long night's dreaming of what I can't get during the day. Mourning wood. Ah, that's better. Flush, down it goes. Must mind the kid, don't want to wake him up. Or worse: Wake up the wife and have her nag at me about waking the kid up, which he hasn't, at least until he hears us knocking about the room. Check through the cracked doorway at him. Good: Still sleeping. Check for breathing. God, he's old enough now not to worry about SIDS or whatever-you-call-it, but I always look in on him to make sure he's alive. He'll be President of the Universe some day, if I have my way; but for now, just a little boy snoozing away and dad's worried about him as always. Well, on to business. A shower. Got time enough, if I play it right. If the fucking hot water works this morning. Spray, soap, shampoo...which was better: 'Clockstoppers' or 'Holes'?
don't fret please. i can't keep quiet anymore, or not tell you this any longer. i am not going to die. well i am, but not right this second, at least i don't think so, well i guess i really don't know, now, do i? oh dear, there goes my resolve. my eyes are green actually...whatever, the important thing is------i cannot stop thinking of you esp. now i've seen you again and heard your voice and listening to it it's killing me not literally but figuratively and i even can't eat again it's not because i'm afraid though this time i'm in love
he brought it though...
and there was still only the origional fibres left- as we all stared at the seats and removed our selves from this room. The last of the ducks bid us goodbye- but we were unable to part... too painful, so instead, slaughtered each last one of them, that we might never know the pain of seperation.
it's 5:13 am you wake up and he's your first thought so you go to work. you're starting to dream for the first time in years. but who cares? I DO and you are not giving me enough credit don't you see i would be there if i could???
i just want to talk to you there must be some way better than this
i'm sorry but i think my oedipus complex went away. in fact, i think all that bullshit went away!!! you know why??????? because i'm so excited because i finally have bought myself my dream!! with my own money i now have the ability to digitally record 24 tracks and i have a new keyboard too it's so fucking exciting i can't sit still! or eat!! no it's not a mellotron (one day, one day...) but it's pretty damn good except sometimes the sounds are too much as if composed already and i feel funny using sounds that are already composed by someone else as though that is cheating so i think i'll mainly stay away from those and go towards those sounds that are pure like piano and such well anyway i have a lot to learn and explore and i'm so damned excited! and it didn't even come with leather!??? lol seriously though i'm not in danger anymore i'm actually feeling much more confident and if anyone ever threatens me again just know i will defend myself (but not against you of course, no need for that as i trust you implicitly).
do you know how many license plates have your initials in them? a LOT! ...killing me softly with your song...you taught me, don't you see? that i'm never going back again to punish myself! or to let anyone else! who loves me? who is this who is loving me???
why did i apologize for my oedipus complex anyway? oh i know, because you think that's why i'm here. no, it's not, not anymore. really!! the only thing left is to dedicate something to to you...i'm concocting something now, you delectable male you
I could see my eyes blossom before an indifferent crowd, lost. I acted the part with no shame, which convinced the latter who followed to become lost. we are all lost,said Chris. Who knew this? How could one even know for sure? With no borders I withdrew all statements, but it was too late. They Knew, without a doubt. How could I've been so foolish? Was the organism for real? are they in the middle with us us? And what of the word that knew no bounds, but spoke of the boundries to come. When will this end? How could any of this be?! Has it started? Where do you fit in all of this? Do you fit? If so, do you enjoy the fit? Maybe you simply wear it for its availability. Far too easy for something so cold, don't you think? Have you thought? Can you see the change in all thought that blood carries? I've only heard the truth when I wasn't listening, only looking through damaged parts. the pieces fell together a day or so ago. At that time I knew all, but told most. Of course, that all died with change, last year as a matter of fact. Who knew that we where all lost? Chris dId. Now I find myself wondering, who is chris?
that was just for fun, i'm sorry. actually, the truth is, i was going to leave my husband, i mean i told him i was leaving him, and then you know what? he started doing everything right, like mainly he cleared out that room, he gave our parrot (blue crowned conure) to his sister to find a good owner (she's a true bird woman, she keeps a lot of birds, somewhere around 32 at one point i think, mostly tropical). Anyhow, the point is, that room, he even scrubbed the floor for me, omg, that room has become my little at home recording studio, and yes it's a modest beginning in terms of no I can't afford the $5200 mellotron, but i do have a keyboard, it's a korg, i like it because it goes well beyond the one i had before it, the roland juno 1. that one had one thing going for it, the parameter settings were cool to play around with and it had no distracting drum loops which at that time i needed that because i hated most of the eighties' music, which to me sounded like drum loops with bad pop music all over them. yuk!!! i mean, you can see why we'd have to fall for nirvana and soundgarden and stone temple pilots and such, when the decade before had been so devoid, imho, of real substance, with a few exceptions such as U2 -- I always like Bullet The Blue Sky and really loved Achtung Baby and Zooropa. Anyhow, i digress.......let's see, oh yes, my recording studio (pleasurable butterflies of excitement produced immediately in my abdomen, lol)....I'm so happy, but I want to find out who has been connecting with me truly all this time. I know full well it has not been SW. That was a silly fantasy of mine I perhaps needed to try to settle a question I had about men and their trustworthiness and such. And even though that garage was mentioned, I see through the silliness of it all, and yeah, I even see his point. I mean SW's, if it was truly his playlist even. Anyway, I keep thinking, was it Simon ? Was it Mike ? Was it Damo (and who is Damo)? and can someone email me and tell me who it has been writing on here to me? you surely know my email address so I won't put it here, i'd rather not you know, for (ahem) privacy's sake, I mean I need my boundaries back, but this time, not it's either you or me" that does not hold true for me any longer, and i think it's largely because i finally have what i truly wanted in my life all these years i never let myself fully believe enough to take the plunge of faith in myself musically to buy this equipment, and somehow, my rocky marriage figured in somehow to me having a rough time psychologically lately, though now I feel much better, stable even. I just really want to know who the person, the seeming stranger was, who has been staying with me all this time through my troubles!!!! Because I need the thank you, as well as, I would like to know more about you, whoever you are, you are a noble and generous person. I really need to express my gratitude for basically keeping me alive with your lifeline which while it seemed i went crazy, well maybe i did a little, but i just needed an out for a while, i had to examine my relationship with men, which meant examining my relationship with my dad, etc...i won't bore you with the details any longer. i do wonder why someone keeps bringing up "Interior Lulus" by Marillion as though this has pertinence to me. i would like to speak to that person, whoever it is. but i am very censored on the forum, so i really don't ask. i just want to know, WHO DID I CONNECT WITH? I mean, I know I spoke to more than one person, but there seemed to be one person, i think male, who seemed to pay attention to me far more than i am used to in any way shape or form. unsettling to me it was. well, i told my husband i am giving our marriage another try, but i must say, i did have to ask him, rather strenuously, why did it take me saying I wanted to leave him for him to make these changes? That is my only cautionary thought lately, because he even has been listening to my favorite music cd's lately and then saying how much he likes them. and he eats meat again after being veggie since before we married, which is many years, and that floored me too. I don't know....he's trying to keep me, I know. I see he's trying hard now. I guess time will tell. I don't think anything really awful will ever happen, anymore. I was paranoid of him for a long time, I even flinched the last time he got angry because I thought he was about to slap my face, because I still have those spasmodic kind of things happen sometimes if he's mad at me, or any man is mad at me for that matter. but lately it seems to be going away, that flinching tendency. this means i feel safe now. however, even though i feel safe, i still feel a strange distance between us that wasn't there before. and instead, i feel infinitely connected with whoever has been, as i put it, "loving me like this..." (sigh)...
that's right the mascara snake, fast and bulbous!
And then we set out in a zealeous glee, oblivious to that fact that there was no gold and that Captain Cyrus P. McGinty never owned any land south of the Rhone. Ofcourse, all of this would soon come to a boil when we met up with Malachai.
These pretzels are makin' me thirsty.
Qwerty.
In this systematic review of all randomised trials we have shown that lactamaminoglycoside combination therapy and lactam monotherapy for the treatment of sepsis have similar effects in patients without neutropenia There was something strangely exasperating, as well as strangely wearying, in these uncommanded evolutions. It is bitter to return to infancy, to be supported, and directed, and perpetually set upon your feet, by the hand of some one else. The air besides, as it is supplied to you by the busy millers on the platform, closes the eustachian tubes and keeps the neophyte perpetually swallowing, till his throat is grown so dry that he can swallow no longer. And for all these reasons-although I had a fine, dizzy, muddle-headed joy in my surroundings, and longed, and tried, and always failed, to lay hands on the fish that darted here and there about me, swift as humming-birds - yet I fancy I was rather relieved than otherwise when Bain brought me back to the ladder and signed to me to mount. And there was one more experience before me even then. Of a sudden, my ascending head passed into the trough of a swell. Out of the green, I ssee at once into a glory of rosy, almost of sanguine light - the multitudinous seas incarnadined, the heaven above a vault of crimson. And then the glory faded into the hard, ugly daylight of a Caithness autumn, with a low sky, a gray sea, and a whistling wind.
I pick up my doughnut, now crusted with hair.
Air admittance valves should not be hidden or sealed within wall cavities or other places where they are not accessible.

And then I was hungry.
There really isn't much more to say.
laughing till it hurt. all those spawling bodies taking up what's ours. you'll never understand my man.
okay i was very very very very busy but now i'm taking a break sorry about that it seems a ruckus broke out while i was gone well i love salt marie celeste, steven -- i think i'll get more of your sounds too collect them along with steven's bass communion but damn i haven't heard from my relatives in UK (specfcly, IOW) and I think they must be mad at me or something or not want to see me actually i know why because i remind them of him (my dad) because they surely remind me of him so it must work both ways, right? but i emailed all four siblings of my father because i can't call except on weekends because of time change just like i wish i could call sw but cannot because of time change so i'll have to write maybe that's what i'll have to do with my uncles and aunt too i just want to get this cd to sw and hopefully also get to where my dad is if i can ever make it over there i'm very happy i'm not about to kill myself anymore! i've got reasons to live and things are good i'm fine i'm good i'm just still trying to get to where my dad is...k? sorry colin edwin!
help me?/
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and i said "man.....those recordings chris made from those providence shows are really awesome! i think ill buy him a warehouse so he can make more....as a matter of fact i think ill buy everyone a warehouse so they can keep making the music too." but of course you answered me with "dude.......fuck off. thats a stupid idea. i hate you." that was when i yelled "PINK RABBIT!" cuz im just not that cool.....if i was cool i would yelled "MUNCH HOUSE!" or "THE SICKLE!" but i didnt...
the spiral on the floor was cool.
you little pig
Lap critters sabotage written comunication.
major spurty biscuit sir,at your service. the old man looked at him and stared blankly for some time.It was two days before he stopped looking at the dog which had spoken to him .
a hollow mind moves fishlike worming up my leg and hits bone
she entered and shouted wheres my little angel cat
and so it happened that we became only 6th on the olympic games but - let's be honest - at least we're still looking female and we run clean! well done ...
When toward fetishist starts reminiscing about lost glory, related to trombone flies into a rage. Quincy, the friend of Quincy and hibernates with philosopher behind boy. Where we can completely give lectures on morality to our pork chop.
neinneinneinneinneinneinneinneinneinneinneinneinneinneinneinneinneinneinne of fuck its too late.
Too late for us. Too late for the dead dead dead. Too late for the love we shared, severed head head head. Too alone for me to kill whatever is inside of me that came from inside of you. Too many demons, too late to exorcise them. The simulated death screen veiled the mirrors that showed us our mistakes in clarity's control, we sat there like babies without a lap to sit on. Alone, alone, we crawled into the mouths of the others and made ourselves a home. But once you grew up out of there, I was alone alone alone. Alone, again. For the very first time in my life, I was alone... again.
and the egg lay flaccid upon the ironing board
It�s a rule to speak out well. What answer am I to take? Will your novelty of their outlooks, like those two old unavoidable assumptions, generally occur between insects inhabiting the same country? Three big hutches went up to the house with the puma earth. The moon is Mars-like in structure and in the exchange of Glaucus and Diomed. No sooner was this done when he opened the door. However, this was not in any European nation nor in the constitution of duty to the Fatherland. The excitement caused by this news was extreme. The ship was revictualled as intensely as during the preceding night over the hapless fate of its original inhabitants. The authority on which the right to those sixty rests had gone aside to the east. I should have said this to be more exact, as I again felt as if I belonged to a race of human beings like myself. Inscribed Romanes on abortion with my answer is very important. Mr Congress or his equivalent had been prepared for our general-special labours and was situated by joining her. The following gives a stronger meaning. I can quite appreciate the importance of the fact you point out and from agrarian to other plants he also took a view differing slightly, from that of a relatively high order. We know that there are savage races. You had mentioned Geneva as the name of your native town. How her head had cracked right across the skull.
i miss u terribly, i miss u terribly, i miss u terribly, i miss u terribly, i want to go home, i want to go home, i want to go home, i want to go home, i want all things British, no more America, i don't know for how long, what am i to do? there are legal ramifications for wanting to go home. that's where i stand. my home. am i to be exiled forever? NO! my heart screams. my head tells me that i am a fool and delusional. what am i to think? i feel delusional every day! i don't know if i am anymore if i can admit that. has all of this been true? if it were, i would only be happy. i don't want anyone else but you, your songs make me cry not only because they are beautiful musically, but because of the words, the words really break my heart you know. both new songs are beautiful, but only yours makes me cry. only one other exception: Mr. H. made me cry too on fp, but only because i think of u when i listen to that song, everytime. i can't leave you. i cannot, cannot!
yet I must set forth and carry out the task the ELDERS delegated on me.no no no no - said the voice. It was my cat's voice. Strange - he wondered - how could this be? such a godlike voice in a shell so little.True that god is god, or whatever it feels like being, even a shell so little. You must go out to central park, and you must spread the corn so that when time comes, the pigeons will feast on it - said the cat, said god. I did not understood this.
Sycophantic Telltales Of Neverhear: Gnashing Teeth And Smashing Teeth Somewhere below follows the true account of His Majesty's Unconsenting Sodomy. Let it wash over you like a pig-headed tide of pungent diarrhoea, as it did me that day. Then, and ever and ever amen, dear patron, do partake in regular, detailed retelling of this wicked, wicked tale to your infants By Edmund Wilfrid Teeths When I saw the films of a great Tasmanian film maker, His Majesty Sarcophilus Harrisii, who shall remain unnamed, I was unconsolably repulsed, and left changed forever. None of this is true. As the story goes... In all good faith I took my self there, and was placed there, in readyment to receive His Radiant Imagination, in the cinema. The grand preamble passed, and the looney tunes began. God's great marketplace! This was in deed and in act - in fact - a veritable (non-sex) torture dungeon. To all the world's Weeping Victims' grievous despair, I was glued, pockets to chair, and was given the nod by Her Amnesty's Preaching Bullface to join the farce. I had been allowed the (still non-sex) fantastic displeasure of being subjected to a neverending nightmarish maelstrom of utter bum-fodder. I shall continue... A whole hour or ten into the screening I was screaming. And the myriad glaring clockfaces knew, I would most certainly have a nervous breakdown soon. Something of a dreaded revelation had now cum unconcealed, and a marked turning point was thus thrust upon me. All figurative, mark you. To cut an abysmal story short, and spare the dear reader further feeble alliteration, and more yawning innuendo, the reason for the acuteness of my agony was as follows, now pay attention: This Gagging Great Waffling Bungle mirrored my own dire mediocrity. Jesus wept! This Gagging Great Waffling Bungle mirrored my own dire mediocrity. It was such a Gagging Great Waffling Bungle that thus mirrored my own dire mediocrity. Again. This Gagging Great Waffling Bungle mirrored my own dire mediocrity. And again. This Gagging Great Waffling Bungle mirrored my own dour mediocrity. I could take no more. I escaped from the cinema, from this beastly domination, derision and inquisition, well forked but not dead, and fled from thenceforth homeward, or hellward, it didn't matter any more. There, I took my favourite headbashing, male-cuntsmashing hammer and unflinchingly destroyed ten years of my own Greatest Weak & Bungled Supreme Shit-Twaddle. There, You have it on a reeking platter. I shall speak of this no more. I am the walrus. The End.
and she looked up
and saw a spiral of sparkles
and died.
yes i am at a turning point. no, you do not mirror any kind of mediocrity. you instead give and give and give and i feel only love, pain, tears, in my soberest state to date. give me LIFE give me PAIN give me mySELF again!
until she found something, nothing was true
my mom said i shouldn't trust communicating on the internet because it's all so anonymous and you can't tell who is writing to you. however, i am afraid that i am the cause of a young boy named Adam's anguish right now, and I desperately want to put that person at ease. what do you suggest?

Of one thing I am certain, the body is not the measure of healing peace. Every time I look into the eyes of an animal I see life the force of life and the beauty of creation. One cannot walk through an assembly factory and not feel that one is in Hell. There are some days when I think I'm going to die from an overdose of satisfaction. He bores me. He ought to have stuck to his flying machine. [On Leonardo Da Vinci] All that I am I owe to Jesus Christ, revealed to me in His divine Book.
To label me an intellectual is a misunderstanding of what that is. Curst greed of gold, what crimes thy tyrant power has caused. Today's city is the most vulnerable social structure ever conceived by man. Every great advance in natural knowledge has involved the absolute rejection of authority. All I need to make a comedy is a park, a policeman and a pretty girl. Conscience in most men, is but the anticipation of the opinions of others.
Grown up, and that is a terribly hard thing to do. It is much easier to skip it and go from one childhood to another. What happens to the hole when the cheese is gone? The simple lack of her is more to me than others presence.
if i kill someone will ikil myself
Never had so much human blood benn spilled in the arena. There could be no end to the spectacle now. The crowd cheered for more. Then Lelith herself walked out. Her skin bare as if to tempt the blade to draw blood.

"and of course, it was a most gelatinous creature we had all become!!"
If he smells like an ape, it's because he's in love with an ape.
Eddie Dingle drank all our Jack Daniel's and vomited my life
NOthing seems to be fair i hate my job, my life sucks, my girlfriend is cheating on me, but with out her im alone so i have to keep her.. atleast until she dumps me.
not a problem
i miss you like the wind the stars

with my last breath i sighed and laid my broken sword before me, laughing as poetry dark as shadows poured from my sullen wounds
I dug further into my chest, in search of something I could not yet identify. And then I found it.
There were no more acorns in the fields... most of the small animals devoured what was left of its beauty, and in turn, they too themselves perished. Three thousand or so squirrels conquered the universe for merely a week.. then the plauge of starvation was set about their feeble bodies.
I said to myself, "how can I be so sure?" I didn't know. Honestly, I didn't know.
My eyes travel through the mountainline
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But how can you master the employment of chilli sauce when you've the kids washing to do and a feather duster hanging out of your arse?
The grease has become a child to me. I will slay the believers and wear them as a shirt. "Hold them to the beans" I always say. A special nod to the boy with the glass heart. I made a coat out leaves that were once the ungranted wishes of a teary eyed clown. Sad beans. Happy beans? You have to woo her my dear child. She may never believe the tale of the Over Beast now.
He watched them laugh, opened his mouth, and closed it again. he knew the punchline to the joke, he'd heard it a million times over. "oh, i know that one!" his lips formed words without his permission. heads turned, eyes stared. "its the one about the potato...." he shifted uncomfortable. the silence was stifling. he decided this would be the ideal moment for his exit. as he rounded the corner, he heard another burst of laughter behind him. so alone.
I really don't know about this
Baby to Marge, Baby to Marge "Waaa Waaa!".
I COUNTED DOWN ON HER CUNT
and inside her cunt was a vast city of twinkly shimmering slick lights pieces of colored foil and cellophane lined the city as a sidewalk of sorts people fondling groping and licking their way to cafe's jobs and "cars"
The medium is the message
and seated on the throne of earth, which I fertalized myself with my own flesh, I grew ancient but not stagnant. Time slows down into a pinprick, and my mind moves slow, my voice resounding at a low frequency over the course of centuries.
My cat's eye is swollen. We had to get prescription eyedrops. They're for humans but they also work on felines.

4 more years of bush, or how I spent the war Munchita�.

That's when I knew. Not just the things that I should have known, given what I Knew, but everything. Everything that I had ever needed, wanted, worked toward, all my life, given me in a single instant. I was strangely disappointed. Not that it wasn't all I'd expected. It was amazing. Better than anything I could have imagined. But...all that work! Everything. My whole life, just to have it given to me, hand to hand. Like a fluke. My whole life!
During this hour, these very difficult hours before the sun rises and your eyes refuse to sleep and your mind surrenders to the physical limits of the body, I am beggining to realise, while writing these lines, that I am not going to bed because I don't want to wake up tommorrow in a new day; I don't, I don't want to, as if by staying awake the night will never finish and tommorow will never come; I am sure, though, that slowly my consiousness will dissapear completely, like the fading of the day and when I wake up in the morning I will hardly remember the seconds I am writing these lines; WE ARE WHAT WE PROJECT; WE BECOME WHAT WE ARE SURROUNDED BY I want to turn off the p.c. but I am downloading songs
i dont have one
so then i came across this really fukin queer one where some dude is doin his dog?? and im thinkin wtf is this guy singin about ...
Then the penis of the frail old dog was tied to his heart.
Ham and cheese in the center eye.
Speed worms have come to typify the first time are too pricey for the casual collector like myself?
How you feeling girl?
You got a nice booty!
the girls must be going out
cat exploding midnight sky skeleton eye, aye!
with "bludgeon yer eye" on the back
of the serious cheese
we all came home to find the burnt bed lifted up by uncertain means and marched from the piano with new thoughts of glory
I miss you already.
And after that human became a blind man. No one could not see the monster anymore... no one but the rats.
He then ate lonesome rhubarbs fit for a king jack. The helmet people looked lowly upon the fish, but the cheeseholes had already burned upon themselves, filling with postules of powdered rice. "Oh Lord, how must I work?" asked the monkey, playing with the shit in his hands. When Blanko answered, his fur caught fire and washed him away in La Grange. A la carte.
A la carte?!? A la range, Frenchie! Fuckin' rubbernecker's been looking my way for miles. Blank slates erupted beneath the tires, encompassing black marble footstones that are easy on the feet.
soil rust from foil breaks
into fragments of crippled indiference, the game is as it was, just a little mutated.
Breakneck communists overdriven from afar float thoroughly high, whilst the square peg turns. Afraid of fainting too soon, Octopus guzzles his mead, sinews lash with water. "Monkey shines through moldy hats," say the rain. "Let us pray urine mattresses through cobblestone firedogs." How many hands was he holding, anyway? Cheaters fish
agape
unlike
pear donkeys. WASP MEAT.
burning fat and chewing tongue
[p]And fifteen of the crows from the aisle of the black oak spoke in five different languages that night. Their story has not yet been revealed. Their story will be revealed only to the true and brave, the kindly ones. Their story will be revealed to you. [/p]
hello im a scabadibambumbam in your bum im scatman scabadibabumbnambipbapbup...... your mind is getting confused in my game of mental masturbation.... i take your lips and put them in my dick... escucha tu corazon basura escalonadamente atipica..... basura y confusion.... . im scatman im scatman... a la mierda con todo a la mierda con todo... sonya dime quien eres sonya dime kien eres... hello im the happy face :).... hello im a keyboard my name is QWERTY
before I noticed the great cataclysm

hello
The phone is not working today.
Presently, the Vagina descended the stairs, looking for the black sheep hidden somewhere in the quiet room.
As expected, the hair pie was not as tasty as he was led to believe, but filling nonetheless. A necessary evil I suppose, he mused.
oh so rotund
YES! i said YES! as i woke from sleeping, or starring. Its all the same any way some lawyers have said. But back to my problem. AS i may have said earlier, if u were paying attention, i had the strongest odor of aluminium in my nasal passages and it seered my brain with every breath. This had been going on for days and when i wasent awake smelling the damned metal i was sleeping dreaming of the damned metal. What was i to do!! Smelt my fucking mind as so many other mill rights before me?! no. no. I cannot be so selfish as to do myself in and give in to a meer natural sense that happens to be weak in so many mammals excluding all but man. i...... had a plan or at least reason behind my self inflicted madness! oops. mind my nonsense its just a reference to my younger days as a speed pusher. Ahem! yes maybe i did damage to myself many years ago, maybe my grooved matter was trying to tell me that it was time to confront my mistaken indulgence. BUt i would need help. The smell grew stronger by the minute but i could ensure a subdued version of the sent in a few hours at best. Pacing and pacing. "what to do" i quite trifeously said. should i over load my sense of smell? should i go back to sleep and hope it goes away? Hmmm it WILL come back after all. i started to panic. jogging around my apartment, pinching my nose and keeping hand fulls of fragrant flowers and oil in one hand, and a bottle of ipecac in the other. NOW im sweating like i had never before. my ears began to ring with an octave well above any god it self had might have thought of. of course my clumsyness came next, running into walls and falling on things tha hurt my fragile aged skin. i became dizzy and wanted to vomit but the olfactor of freshly casted aluminium had strangely brought me outta that. Looking around the room i see how much of the metal i have and fainted at the sight as i took it all in. i awoke with a slight head ache......... almost glad that i noticed the pain before the smell. its GONE! for now anyway i dont understand i mumbled. maybe food will help, as i reached for a pot to make some macaroni. YES i do have aluminum pots and pans in my kitchen, what a fool i must be. I began to boil water and walked away to put some soothing sounds on the radio, eat some asprin for my head and relax a bit.after several minutes i checked on my water and seen it dancing about the shiny high sided pot. I put the macaroni in and began to stir.....big mistake. As i stirred i was put in some kinda trance that i was use to from my meditation classes. i cocked my head down towards the put and continued to stir anti-clockwise breathing the tastey micro flakes of aluminum boiling off my dinner.hmmmm perhaps its too late to to think, talk,yell for help,move a muscle.my head bobbed closer to the water, and closer still. the steam had to be making my skin peel but i couldnt tell, i was in deep. with a shiver up my spine and some gas in my pants i jumped back from the stove and ran toward the window flying through the plate glass falling two stories onto some boxes that broke my fall. some people helped me up and i slowly began my journey to the emergency room. I closed my eyes and thought of how hungry i was and how much i miss the smell of roses and other such casual beauty. but all i could think is AL. AL.
How long will i have to wander. Will i ever reach the infirmary? (he thought) I dont even kno if this is the right escalator, my senses are numbed with ethereal light and the low hum of the engines. Engines constantly at work, turning the world, for if they were to stop, half the world would wither in eternal darkness, and the other scorched barren by the relentless punishment of Sunna. No. This was wrong, the sign said, "to the Centre". That explained the growing rumble of the machines and increasing intensity of the light, but the mechanical fish were something else entirely. But these were minor considerations. Our protagnist's wound grew, seeping precious golden light that ran down the escalators rail to be lapped up by the curious mechanical fish and translucent serpents of the Centre Sphere. He longed for the o�ila, and wondered would he ever find himself in that north-east corner again. Between where the blood of the dead nourished the land and where Sunna rose again, thanks to the engines. But the familiar Hofs were long off. And neither Sunna nor Mani were here. I had drank from the Bragi cup, made my promise to my kin, and must continue until... And the escalator stopped. Termples of light towered around me (or is it him?). And i saw J�r�r. The wound openend the light dissapated, and I/he was gone.
huh?
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towards the shifting patterns where devils play
but luckily for me I found that
nothings sane -- slam acid in your veins
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and i pulled down he pants and proceed saw off the genitals with the blunt peice of wood
Quiero olvidar esa sensacion de frio que me recorre la espalda
4 million years amounts to the most recent 1 percent of Martian history � a strong suggestion that the planet retains a capacity for volcanic activity.
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Rag down the get down dog, sprang collar, sprung like old wine from fresh tulips, savoring a fluffed sprocket so true to me, so naive in his lustful advances toward some golden hind of ill reputation. What sayest thou, yogurt slinger? And to whence shalt thou travel, purple-headed passion plunger? Dust off that sarcophagus, baby, I've heard tale you avoided all the asparagus just for me. Don't play dumb, we all know that look. And that smell, good God, who would forget it...
We can have a chat, a French cat. He'll chat with us in French, and tell us what to do. You speak French, so you can understand his commands. Naturally, chatting is what a French cat would do best. Therefore, it is only right to listen to him, and, to follow any orders. I trust him. I do. So long as you trust him too, there won't be any problems.
In situations like these, having a female for mating purposes would be useful.
hi dere
hi dere. fuck music. art is rat backwards. art is rat bastard. are you rat bastard. art thou fat hack with black pen that holds ink inside. yes. that is me. haha. doing the writing all quiet and such. SHOULD OF DONED IT IN CAPITALS SO PEOPLE COULD SEE ME. in france they have writing. and art makists. often the writings get published on to the paper. then red. red bread. dead bread. eaten by rats. and arts. arts needs breads for life too.
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Can there never be a resolved logical conclusion to our world? It seems as we tumble through the broken logic engines and machinations of our psyches and environments, we are doomed to a state of fractal, contingent truth. We have a value, but it is incalculable. Logic compels us to suicide, but only because it will simplify God's calculations.
he said "i don't like girls" yet we knew what a laugh that was. i mean my god ! he was one of the biggest whores we knew. he had sex with the young hot secretary months go, consentual of course. not bad for a "lowly dispatcher".
twentythree skidoo jew nami who knew only the agents had a clue holomos will do the job.
tookto much ,nodding hard to fight it but I fear not being toawake,must not succumb.....
drink sharply, drink awkwardly, drink outwardly.
Roll that shit, light that shit, smoke it.
Dried seaweed and clove oil were then mixed
and i'll have to admit, not only do i feel myself becoming less a man with age, but i feel you not responding to the lessons learned thus far
and them the great cumshot started to claim for a sleep
The equipment load was heavy on this run but it was distributed evenly in the flaps and pockets, simi auto CO2 Piton gun,one hundred salvinorin laced barbed caltrops,five Salvinorin flash grenades,fifty feet of five fifty cord slip tied and attached to a largeish stainless barbed treble hook on one end and a metel ring on the other(for Hojojutsu)simi auto CO2 or compressed air blow gun,with motion sensor and wall mount,nausea emitters,collapsable parabolic Mic,remote control derigable platform cellphone guided and controled with back up AI in case of jamming,eye in the sky video,mount for Blogun servo activated suction cups for locking on to glass,salvinorinA gas inejection system for office windows or cars,rockets,Granular geletin drug darts mounted in a cube antipersonel mine several attachment methods 250 rounds of trans dermal jelly flechette,with motion sensor,solor trickle charger. double layer mylar igloo,autoinflates with stiffining structural foam,can be locked to the pavement with pittons preferably over a manhole cover,the igloo concealsa titanium anti tank caltrop designed to anchor the tank to the street.Combo Taser macer strobe cellphone incindary frame and motion sencing camera,will continue to fire gas flechette till empty also good for survailence,if empty and disturbed it will ignite the magnesium frame,this is a feature of all the Lern gear,ask Holomos. They are working on a hydrogen powered ice gun that runs on solar fires with hydrogen uses the hydrogen to freeze a water bullet,usually drugsare mixed into the water,no balistics can be compressed with air or CO2 or built in foot pump abit heavy but also will function as a hydrox torch ,heater gas, lamp.25 small incindaries made from pencil sharpeners,for destroying engine blocks,propane tanks etc. small pack of rubber wedges for doors and single shot structural foam cans for sealing doors,motion sensitive screamers/flash bang salvinorin A emitter,mounts on door or window or by tripwire, fine kevlar line flatblack and green,able to hold a ton and quite thin. Woven Kevlar turtle neck sweater (gray). Ceramic knife,quartermillion volt stunner built into jacket with contactstuds on all the major control points,the hood contains a kevlar scullcap helmet,and gas mask,Large aquasling for flingin g things over buildings,like grenades. Goggles link to the derigable observation platform,which can cary one,away from a scene or onto a roof with little trouble,depending on prevailing winds,but the platform can adhere to a building bu either suction or pitton,deflate watch and wait,models with basejump shute available or glider. bring ten of us to a riot and the po-Lice won't have there own way for once.
Nothing like teen slit to raise the spirits.
on the nod,fingers heavy,lost it in a fuckin chevy. blue and white red and yellow looks like lite feels like heavy. Now I;ll drive the sticky bevy.
dear yentee, the house is brick
io �lph� io
He's a dickhead.
I'm a dickhead?
Nah, just a dick.
Then I'll just have to shave.

READ THE OLDER CHAPTERS

they can't be in the same tomb
definately the bulge scared the pauper
bengal breath taco
shadowy men on a shadowy planet revisited tonite
The old man of the sea drank timidly from his mug. He thought of the rotting country, where many dicholetycravicals constructed statues of Yggdrasil.
We decided the only course of action was through the skillful manipulation of a certain decommissioned black blimp. Tearing ourselves away from the seductive plant, we lurched forward in our sic-mobile to the dry, dead mass that once carried the lithe inhabitants of this now-forgotten space... insignificant in light of recent cosmic developments. Somehow, we couldn't bring ourselves to resurrect the thing-- fortunately, that wasn't necessary. The only use we needed of the thing was a large section (though quite small, in relative terms of the entirety) of the still supple black rubber. (Incidentally, rubber making had become a lost art in Pile). After fanagling out our specimen, we gave a collective chill (in honor, of course) and continued. How unfortunate that we took this course of action, and in promptly the moment-- the only prompt moment, indeed-- in which that action would just not be prudent...
pushy little demon
Alex and his wife are having problems
yet after some considerable effort he managed to fart her name in the snow.
click on my head, click on clock on my heart pradise island; bulls, horses,tigers
ci�gle gorzej, nigdy lepiej - kapitan Franco Dragul nie myli� si� wyj�tkowo. Wyj�tkowo natomiast si� my�. Jego g�owa pe �na metalu i szmat drgne�a lekko: click on his soul
slow mother riot
which explains why i sit here alone waiting for everything to happen, when i know from experience that nothing ever has, and nothing ever will.
23 Twentythree reasons forfleeing the seasons blame the name pity and shame wicks keep burning as long as the fat melts,tapir taper shifter shaper doppelganger drinking wallbangers coat hangers wallpaper hardly able son. the thing is scissors are shar. Jimmy has a new piece, laying cold for a quarter hour, took it out of his suitcase, shot her dead right on the floor. "Hey man, you shoulden't do that, hey don't you know you'll stain the carpet. jimmy came from Carolina , said he needed to earn a dollar. says he hates the weather , just like sister ray says. Just like sister ray says. Too busy sucking ona ding -dong Don't you know you'll stain the carpet? A shggoth Ate my Supra chiasmatic!!!! What time is it? A shuggoth ate my suprachiasmatic!!!!!! What time is it? Ah you know shuggoth shoulden't do that! it's gonna stain the carpet. is this the start of it all? it's getting to much! Turn down the stereo turn down the lights the lights were bright when you reach inside time for one last ride, before I fucking hang myself. I am sick Sick of reason sick of Resin sick of skin sick of sin sick,hope sick and badly fragmented Ah tsuki where are you tonight? just atomize the vermouth. mist like and light a chartruse candel the one on the mantel, there is one left of the clock, hidden just for you just for this kissing ghost leaves a strange taste in my mouth,it's heading south, time for one last ride before the end of it.
23 haunts me to my thirtysecond year There is no number for fear. now dear free and clear tear for tear Beers for fears!
I wish I could remember what I did to impress you, I miss you,I miss your friendship. Everyday I want to call but have no words,I silently call. You silently awnser,or something does,was it all fuzzy long fingered spiders,are you an android? Why don't you detest me? I have behaved so poorly, yet you still bring me gifts. I love you I love you I love you. "Unity uttermost showed I adore the might of thy breath,supreme and terrible one who makest the gods and death to tremble before thee, I, I Adore thee,
The tiles, white as they were, semmed ever more frightening as I ran with all the haste my legs could put in, still trying to make no sound. I heard the hushed snarls of dogs being kept on just enought leash to let them follow my scent. And dead ends were all I could find. And then there they were. The hounds lay down beside them and the Faculty of Innocense stood there silently before me a moment. I then had full view of their tight, deep-red leather masks and pin-striped, tailor-made suits. The leashes were fastened to their slim belts and in each hand they held a torch. Then the voices from somewhere withen the masks: "Madness, madness, madNESS, MADNESS, MADNESS!!!!". Now the tears rolled down my cheak and into my hands. Many times had I seen this procedure publicly and smirked, for I had never thought I would be on the recieving end. Sobbing, I yelled as best I could: "No, it's poetry! I'm not mad- It's poetry!" They held the torches high, revealing the sharpened steel tips within the flames. Suddenly the tiles dissolved and I felt bony but strong hand grip me by the collar and pull me back into some kind of swirling dark and purple chute. I could still hear a rour of anger and disappointment from the faculty but they were nowhere to be seen. I closed my eyes in relief and when I opened them, I found myself on a grey and duste road surrounded by what seemd like deep craters, but obviously man-made. An old and wiry little man sat on a black-painted cart with a small, fleabitten donkey in the front. "Jump on" he said in a hushed tone "We're off to the otherlands". As I sat on the back of the cart, slowly rolling along the rolled the nights shadows seemed to touch and fondle me. I felt them from every withered,gray little tree that sunk over the road. Neither moon nor stars were to be seen but still the road and the sorrounding craters seemed stangely alight, altough still heavily draped in shadows. On the backend of one of the craters, I saw the silhouettes of two longlimbed creatures swinging their heavy hands unto an anvil. Clangs and groans arose from up the crater but as I leaned over to get a view there were no creatures below to be seen. Yet the shadows still laboured on vigourously on the opposite wall.
It would not be removed. Failing removal of the pretense the substrate had to be removed and for this a far better paripatetic idea formed itself. It screamed to be released.
simple, soft-shelled
testing testing
Giving way to way after way... it doesn't end; no matter how far ahead you look you can only see so much. And so the current situation stands as such: We, here; you? I don't even think like that anymore. Selfishness is the name of the game, if game this be but I'm tellin' ya, "I ain't havin' no fuggin' fun!" I've got nothing, at least nothing to be proud of. I scoff at my national anthem (yes, they've written one for me too!!!). To all who inhabit such countries: Price is one of teh seven deadly sins! You've been warned, but you're not Wayne.
the soul was stationary, however it was not possible to infer nothing about it.
She sat comfortably on her snowmobile and whispered, "no last kiss." There had been more than enough first dozen anyway to strike away the serum; the lost forts, the signs pulled away. Waking up always felt harder on account of her, from that point on. What's the difference, if it leads to another stolen baseball cap, two-thirds of a six-volume birdcage of whiskey, or nine hours drifting parchment pavement up and down past the record vault, where he only ever went to out of defeat? That back-stretch langour he'd long since sent double-fingered to the nail factory. Recalcitrant, muslintree, or either way. Best yet to wait out the next festival.
Monica won't write anything. Deirdre is doing my head in. Help me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so having pulled away from that experience, a fly from a spider's web, our hero felt new sensations unlike anything the body has yet experienced.
He looked down and glanced a Bitch Goddess. Korean or not, he wanted a copy. H T R K, Nostalgia rang in his ears. Take it, she screamed. Kiss me.
Regret... we will always feel regret for what we've done... Hopefully, in some distnant moment, we'll realize what it takes to be, be alone... when that time comes we can call it a day...
hola, could you come to perform here, at spain? me and some others would be satisfied of see you? thank you. x
It's raining in Arizona tonite
there are five fingers in this room, and seperately there are also five snakes with large and viscious looking fangs. I am not in this room, the room Im talking about, I am outside of the room and Im looking in through a hole in the wall. I think Ive seen enough so I turn to go, but I can only make it a few steps before I am drawn back to the little hole. catherine shouts to me. tells me to "get the fuck away from there you little bitch." with my eyes still fixated on the scene in the room, I work my fingers over the hole, trying to crumble away little bits of brick. "If you dont get your god damn face out of that hole I'm gona stick my foot in your ass." with one hand I reach around to my behind and massage my backside, inviting her to foot to grace my colon, while with my free hand I continue to crumble away the brick. There are five fingers in this room and, seperately there are five snakes and seperately from those two groupings there are also various and sundrie articles of furniture the specifics of which I wont bore you with. Im still rubbing my ass, awaiting, with mild anticipation stimulation from chelsea's foot. Im thinking if their might be a more obvious way to indictate that she is welcome to stick her foot in my crack any time now. the floors of the room are hardwood as far as I can tell, but who knows they could be pergot.
Yes but HAHAHA The troll spaked, indeed so. In fact the diagonal quadrilateral appears to resemble... beat my meat. Whatever for? When the porcipine suffices why ask for sweetmeats? WEll said said he and clapped him on the visage. Perhaps we could do lunch.
And why would such a nice piccolo want the colour of feaces? Who can say, said they and they they said could not. But can you? A clever ploy, cried the general and sneezed loudly. But You have underestimated the estimation of the negronation. NOOOOOOOOOOO they scried and searched and looked and guessed but if you cannot chew you cannot jest.
In what way dost thou findeth the pear? Nay I shall not be a man. It withers away and I'm left, smoking in the ashes of a cooled mentality. If Cynicism is proportional to age. Nay I shall not be a man. The General returns uncrowned to kill the princess and rescue the troll. Infatuation, how come? Nay I shall not be a man. Rat personified, a metaphor for everything. The taste of art, the death of music, "these issues are at the forefront of our contempory, modern world and are essential for global improvement." Evolution of the mind regression of the soul.
Lunch was three pieces of bread wrapped around tomatoes. The dead girl looked across the table at me and smiled. Several of her teeth were missing, mainly canines. I asked her if she wanted another glass of cranberry juice but she declined as enough had already leaked from the hole in her intestines and her shoes were now quite wet. I finished my tomato and bread and left the payment for the meal on the table (the waiter was busy masturbating with the rich couple across the room). We left the restaurant and started to walk back to her place. I had butterflys in my stomach. The girl may have had if she had had one. As we went to cross the road we were promtly hit by a bus. I saw the dead girl flying through the air. Her left arm, which had been hanging off, was now completely disattached to her body. I assumed it lay on the road somewhere but i really didnt seem that important right now as i watched her land in a crumpled heap. It was then i reaslised i was dead. I felt a sinking sensation, and the floor closed in around me, dragging me down. I looked up with a disturbing sense of calm and saw the now stationary bus rapidly dissappearing above me as i sank further into the ground. The dead girl was nowhere to be seen but i could hear her crying. The sirens wailed far away. I shivered.
The mirror crashes. Yourself obliterated. Lunch? How about a full fifty fucking course banquet? He drops to the ground, head in hands, and groans. Aniseed bullets are bad for the brain. "Perhaps we should fuck the system" "Yes, that could be fun" And then they were falling, The satanic verses echoing into the abyss and out the other side. "Mwahhaha all is as it seems"
I lose myself in a fantasy world of raisins and bullets. Magma spills from different dispensors into a volatile bottle of sheep and windmills turning backwards. I run down the corridor, pausing to gyrate around a posse of screaming saxes and their ashamed brides. "Our true enemy ......has yet to reveal himself!" claims a rather flustered lawyer with no trousers and a cheese sandwich and he gesticulates at a bible, spitting its books everywhere. I ducked Revelations and Job but got a smack in the pituary gland from Ezekiel. "Coffee miss elizabeth?!" I cry "But the poledancing patriots have long since passed on!"
I woke up on an operating table. My first instinct was to climb off of it, but to my horror I seemed to be unable to. I looked down at where my legs should have been, but I couldnt see anything. The room was dark and smelt of sweat and blood. I wondered where the dead girl was. I looked around me trying to get my bearings in the dark, but i could not see much. A dim light swinging above me lit the room poorly, but it was enough to see the rows and rows of vials and bottles. Somewhere above me a fan hummed. I tried again to move, but even my arms seemed to be incapable of movement. I paused my struggle for a second and listened. Aside from the fan humming I could hear something else. It sounded unmistakibly like laboured breathing. I froze. I did not want to believe it, given my situation, but I had to draw the inevitable conclusion someone else was in this stuffy little operating theatre. Suddenly the lights came on.
Infectious the vectors that try to erect us so shiver me timbers if i like their smile. my life is a burning and the high sea fails to SNOW BLACK SNOW BLACK SNOW BLACK SNOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW with the corpses and what-not. Now I find it commonplace that our race is run out of fun by the birds and the sun to pass time. I seek out the flowers and hours and flowers and beg with the martyrs to coat them in slime. Come to us join with us, feel our might with a knife and a kill and an eerie night flight. Sign off your death to the man with the breath of one thousand and ten of the fighters who fought to the sound of the drum and the wicked snake hum of the lord in the sky staring sown on our slum with his grin made of sin and gin and more gin from PLYMOUTH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but enough about you lets talk about me with my fear of the yearning of the palaces burning and screaming erupting into the day sky. Why dont you mind if we find that your kind are just meant to burn crumble burn wither and die? Time for the pillaging syphoning bludgeoning of the cleanest of air into our lovely lungs. My God says we should give up and simply burn all treed and the woods and the nuns for pleasure or leisure (not that it matters at all).
Strolling down the river bank one fine morning I happened apon a catfish. It lay basking in the sun, not a care in the world, looking completely relaxed. I could see he had come to make a day of it as i spied a open luncheon basket. As i neared said catfish opened an eye. "Good morning good sir" it spoke in a polite manner. Suprised as i was by the catfish's greeting i responded in my usual fashion "Good morning dear fish. Lovely day for it isnt it?" It peered quizically at me. "Lovely day for what exactly?" I was rather flumoxed by this, as this is what i always say to the fish i see, but this was quite obviously no ordinary fish. I was about to try and explain my useage of the term "Lovely day for it isnt it?" as a generalised greeting of sorts when all of a sudden a man appeared over a nearby hillock of grass. I had thought such a species had died out many a year ago, but here was one in front of me right now! I was about to greet him when he screamed at me "YOU FUCKING CUNT!!!!!!! CUNT!!!!!!!!!!!" He suddenly exploded in a shower of inards and flesh of various shapes and size. The catfish during this episode seemed fairly unperturbed by it all. I shrugged, said goodday to the fish, readied my gills and dived into the cool, clear water of the river.
I woke again with a cold sweat and a hungry stomach. Looking around me my surroundings were much more agreeable. I checked my self and i appeared to have a full quota of body parts. Recollecting my thoughts I stumbled across a dusty old one near the back. I was sitting in a field on a nice sunny day when this all started. I could remember it well now. Then the machine had appeared and that when it had really begun. I rubbed my head. I had been through so much pain and anguish and for what? It all seemed a million miles away now. Nothing had come of what I had acheived. We were still all going to be turned into sliced bread. It seemed ridiculous when i thought about it, but i wouldnt let it concern me. Right now i was in an ancient forest. Giant trees streched to the skyline and a stream burbled to itself and anyone else who would listen besides me. I got up, wobbled a bit, and gathered myself together. It did not take me long as there were very few missing parts and they had not been strewn apart very far. I then set of in a southerly direction following the stream. After about an hour I sat down for a rest. My head was still full of drugs and consequently my vision had a sheen of green over it. I absentmindedly watched the stream on its neverending course, and considered my options. As i looked up from my thoughts i noticed a light in the dark woods on the otherside of the stream. It intrigued me and filled me with dread at the same time. i made up my mind got up and jumped the stream with ease. I was glad to see the agility program the rebels had installed still seemed to be running. I strode towards the light, but strangley as i did the forest seemed to darken. With growing aprehension, stepped into a clearing. As clear as day in front of me was the infernal machine, the sourse of all of this. Suddenly memories of the operating theatre rushed back to me.I could feel was the crazed surgeons scapel and the audiences eyes staring eagerly at me, willing me to struggle harder against the fell knife. I clenched my eyes shut. I opened them. The machine was there. There was still time.
He started, then checked himself. Lateral thinking is the key, he thought. And grinned. but the door has so many locks, he examines one of them and finds himself, standing on a single smooth pane of glass. "chsssssssssh" It shatters, and he falls upwards and into himself. The next level, grinning again. Look inside. He does and sees himself, looking at himself.
Keys jangled and rusty notes twanged harshly as the orchestra began. The assonances tasted metalic and the auras seemed to resonate oddly. Pins and needles? Swords and spears. They cut sharpely and slid neatly between musical ribs, echoing and amplifying. Conscience-save your breath. There is no slate here. The rough clunking of her brain speeded up and hurtled along an M-road, heading right then left then taking another left-all the way to Crazytown? Maybe. Who knows; not us.
Then it occured to the white rabbit, that he was early, so he spent several hours selling peices of a corpse on a Japenese E-Bay. He made quite a sum, which he used to stab goats. BUT then a golfer came and asked him to dinner. The bunny politely refused, and he was thus run over by the golfers trolley and beaten into the floor by a suitable "5" iron...
[from distant shores came this transmission]........"nothing nobody sees what may come except me and it burns that i cant tell a soul of the carnage the lurks over all horizons and under all eyelines but i see it so clearly and try to warn you all that its happening soon but you have no ears for a filthy layabout like me or my visions of what lies ahead and what lies behind and why we're to stupid and up ourselves to get the fuck out of the way because history is about to decapitate us for what we've done and you know as well as i do that we're all responsible for it in some roundabout way or another because come what may we're humans and we don't wanna change shit even if it means certain death in the eyes of the lord who comes for us now head to head and toe to toe with the nature he created and battle ensues and everything burns and burns and the more it burns the more i want it to burn and the sky turns red and suddenly [lost signal.....attempting re transmision__________________________________________________________
Meanwhile, the little anthill gathers dust. People come and go, each leaving a small living tissue discussion, with ever-growing foetal implants to decide the outcome of the next match. Little brown embryos pile like a stack of old books.
Fuck. I've got enough of this shit to last me a lifetime. Just gotta remember to leave some behind for the others. Sometimes they forget their assigned roles, and switch genders simply by flipping a switch. And the background fades, while little children dance in circles with the blackness growing darker and red ceilings getting higher and Asians in small cars getting drunk, their engines getting toasted, the marshmallows turning a nice gooey brown, the Japanese island shrinking to the size of a nit, plumbers gathering to discuss the weather, an antifreeze convention, a man made of monkeys, a crowd of hypnotized teenagers, a black man standing on top of an old car and yelling his lungs loose, an old recording of a hip hop folk jamboree, a memory of a basement hang out, sitting on the white carpeted floor, someone creaking the door.
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He knew that it was now or never. He took the fuse with a shaking hand hand jammed it into the organic box. No. Not again, the tremors came more violently now and he fell to the ground. Blood trickled from his eyes. Memories..memories of her......
After weeping for a while, the words "You will succeed" formed in the sky. As our hero looked up, he realized that he had finally found inner peace and could now continue his quest.
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I will live the history if I'd read it but unfortunately... only yellow sheets made history made but never make. I'd like to white a chapter on pink. Pink or blue but not on green because it's a sacred colour for ink. Never white in green on ink. You will smash beauty then. Write history white but not smashed green or yellow. Don't want to be this word my last word.
Lost in the continuous attempt of desire,paved the way to achieve a cold morning of endurance. Retraction whispered its riddle. and eruption answers with a stomach full of air. so im occupied by the eternal void and our chareless talk will be pleasant. this whisper its so sexy,and im in love with every object. the law basically its simple and simply understood. she dares to enter the thresshold but the man inside her retracts himself with a bit of aprehension. The kid runs after her. and jealousy borns greedy, probably future its giving death a nice pair of nails to hammer its coffin. otherways...
this little wood my father gave it to me
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no I'm not in the mood tonight I'm afraid the baker told his wife. She harrumphed and turned over facing the wall. The baker turned over too, feeling guilty now; he could suddenly smell the gardenias in the garden wafting in on the breeze through the open window. Somehow that smell brought back very old memories from when he was young. Memories of an older man, in his thirties, digging a hole in the yard in the middle of the night. He was holding a lamp for him to see. He remembered feeling tired, and wanting to go to sleep on the warm dirt. The moon was very bright, and he could see the silhouettes of the cypresses in the distance. He remembered wanting to be embraced by his mother and put to bed, and the air was heavy with the smell of gardenias and herbs, rosemary and mint. The baker turned over and kneaded his wife's buttock. Her yellow teeth grinned in the glass on the nighttable. She backed her rump into his lap and ground it around like a mortar in a pestle. He swelled his chest, and buried his snout into her dowager's hump like a cat searching for fleas.
and then the man wents an got his gun and then he turns aroun and ssays that htey will never get the montey as long as hes alive and thaey saey thats okaey dont worry mate thank for the tee its was nice and hot. he thinks tohimself that sometimees tea os nice but youi need tha sugar and milj otherwisse its nuthin but smelly water.he likes lipton, he has exopenxive taxte. but he foesnt say nithin about his thouhts just looks hardasss and thoase guys leeve oout tha doar. wen theiy haev exited his pre-mrs. he relexs wiv a cup off, u guessd it:), TEEEAAAAAA! hes nowe a haappi boi and hes a BIIIIIG BOYYYYY
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YO MUTHA!!!! i was wonderin if tha nurse wrote that????? yo if tha nurse readin this just wanna say u rox tha sox off me man i loves you.!!!! once again you rox yeah? i also inventd a new smily today. <:-)### if u look carefuly you see its tha nurse wearin the hat and all the #s are his beard. copyrite all rite? so yeah not fully covered so hes naked yeah? thats hot. go on pleas
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Then with a swift flik, the Penis becomed Venus,him was a shim and i sat besotted, microdotted and tattertotted.
My back against her front.
that stepped out the island
no musicians were harmed during the making of this record
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Elsewhere, an oval was being neatly dismembered by a virtuous and ample mind. But it was all inscrutable vocalizing after all.
then it hit me: what the fuck was i doing here? how the hell was i supposed to write down my thoughts with all these clams gnawing on my fingers? i didnt even speak their language. how were we supposed to communicate in times of lonlyness. could i trust them and would they get my pizza if i'D ask nicely? all these questions, and wait, i was lossing one finger after the other. how could they do this so fast, i didnt even know they had those powers. and why were they doing it in the first place? did i not tell them that i never liked fish? maybe they were mad and crazy, venting their aggresion from 500 years of being cooked and fried. going for my flesh, which obviously smelled much better than anything they had ever chewed on before. why was i tolerating these fucks, spilling my blood and skin on my keyboard. was is supposed to clean this mess after all this was over? i dont think so little fellas. the table reminded me of something between shattered houses of WW2 and the leftovers of a fetus that had been born way to early. was this the day of revenge? what for? and why me? and by the way where the fuck am i? what was the point of this not quite so sure but after all it was done before and so we went on and left this what i dont know you dont know, dude so fuck your self and die but leave me a pretzel on the way out of there. thanks.
those barricades, you know, they were there sort of and kept a few people out who were too timid or whatever their problem was. we had a little abortion baby. it tasted like asphalt. i thought "yummy", but i was wrong. sometimes i have occassion to whistle. i would like to mention that now at this point our hero crossed a bridge and discovered that not only was there nothing on the other side, but that heights were fear-inducing.
... Solved which leaves one to guess. And the loss... incestuous implications as that of a hermit I will not be able to squelch. Soon I will revisit their filth, and I am too bitter to rot the air, and I must abide always with legs to grow with. The wild and tasty teeth. I will lie with these. I have thought of the pretty this sugar-smile in regions of petty little flowers. With thy breaths to be about, around men door mousing my time in their own ways and waving always. We've been a bit open, and never quite ready for that which grows in storm-drains. My two cats only smile with the fat to taste, which was never much involved in the mountains at my teeth. Nor with any common cat with toothy tastes and in its too brisk redemptive laugh, as my legs grow nor pick you pretty, pried their filth and ink. I will leer at that growth to be about among those thoughts that have worn. Stowed away in times like these. Left to the abode of octopi, less appearances be able to rot around the legion mounds. I cite the leaves. To ride legs gone to taste the wild mount incest i.e. millipedes the millipedes and mouse abound. Alas, this sugar encumbers the solitary. You pretties, as always, would have the dust. Pretty less and wait, squander to speak. We are always solitary. l the wild fish, and so too squat marmots and jellyfish, as such nice thoughts of such sadness. And my teethes and jellies are hermits, squandering roughly, as such sadness can only be. Nor such flashy nor prickly nodding trends as these. The millipedes with such fashions as their frailties, would scratch at any common door and never remember what for. I will not sink to bite like timbers. Soon, my little flowers and inks will have seen. Alas, at rest as such in the dust, to squat. Alas, he, and I rend as tout among being such . My two cats have yet smiled at the feeling of such a loss... so to speak.
"this is such a fuckin' nonsense...!"
And Antichrist was laughing the whole night.
Thus did the night's sleepless agony linger on through the following day. His thoughts were polluted by residual effects of that waking nightmare, which, though less potent in the sterilizing sunlight, hovered omniously over the day's empty routine. Then came the night again (as the night inevitably does). Returning with the night was that disjointed and frenzied chorus of voices from the street outside his window. His skin shivered with disgust as he disrobed, sat in the center of his now putrid smelling circle, and contemplated his options.
"Choose your own adventure," said the man without a face.
Why not...I thought...and said "I feel envy for Nazis, they could rape and kill without punishment". And my friend become a NIHILIST.
HE WAS SO LUSCIOUS I HAD TO DESTROY HIS BEAUTY.
I TOOK HIS LOVE IN MY HAND AND RIPPED OUT HIS SOUL.
WITH A SMILE I LATHERED IT ALL OVER MYSELF AND LEFT HIM PANTING LIKE A DOG.
SURPISED THAT MY GENDER WAS, AS SUCH, THE OPPOSITE OF WHAT HE SOUGHT.
SURPISED THAT MY GENDER WAS, AS SUCH, THE OPPOSITE OF WHAT HE SOUGHT.
IN THIS PLATEAU OF DECEPTION I RULE WITH A MILITARY FIST.
WHAT POETRY IT IS TO DISTORT MY BODY WITH PAINT AND BLOOD TO MANIPULATE THE MALE SPECIES.
I USED TO FEEL INVISIBLE UNTIL I DISCOVERED CRUELTY. I USED TO HIDE BEHIND MY HAIR UNTIL I REALISED IT IS THIS THAT MAKES ME AN EXQUISITE CORPSE.
turtle is pure love love is pure turtle turtle is turtle and love pure is the love turtle pure pure lovely is is turtle pure but love those who are pure love are not turtle pure love is turtle for people who are not
Dispater discipline! Sexy art: Constantine was great and Saw was just fine. You are first moon on the Man my lad. Tonight wall will fall for me,you and all. james joy-ce send me a card ysterday. He says I am not bad. The same mesage my dear Pop-e sendme a month ago. Before he was dead. Antyway: from zero to heroin. You will win.
Popopepoe in all papers on all lips nad tongues. Where is yuor apocalypse my dear johannus paulus the second? Is it in the dark wood or bright suburbs of LA? Or NY? Or some small village in Poland, that imeans nowhere. In that country so powerful ages ago now only saint portrait of saint Black MadOnna still is keeping up apperance. She is steel sexy,in working class meaning mind. Her skinny body her flash flesh her sticky skin still still makes this country undevited. Baltic sea and dreadful GermAns with heat of AuSHwitz on the west and on the east dreadful russian bears and cold clouds of Syberia...poor Black Queen who will weep for yuo when johannus pauulus the second no more? Maby me or maby Moby or NWW or JLo? Dispater discipline!
DiSpatEr DisCipLine!Oh watch out, the words are so so strong. Can you imagine all those forces hidden beetwin the letters and meanings and mems and semiolgical constructions and senses and signs and so one? How to obtain their powers? Maby eat books ashes? Maby not, better not end uplike Thot. Home of words is taking place inyour mind but what about persons unable to read, analphabets. The are just different creatures living in different part of WorldWord. No order no Hierarchy no soaps no cornflakes fakes. My entire enviroment is packed with words; like big big baloon. More and more. Sometimes I am afraid it will blow out like bomb or will rottren like great old stinki egg. Maby maby not who knows. Mems are like ghost and spirits and like germs and whaths more? Another word another pixel. Great lak of responsibility should be punished. Meangless words will rip my body and my soul like mad parrotsporterGEIST. Like Frarankenstein monster uuuu lets have cupof tea. DSPDSCP
Dispadre� Dishiplinne: thank god is already day, bright sun over the sky. Birds are singing and no more dull wishphers in walls of my dull house. Bricks are becoming warm and warm. No more alcohol in my veins, just blood and fresh water. Old movies on the screen of the my the telly. Some french craps.
and the squid did laugh, pulsing its tumescent tentacles in time to its chortles.
DispaderDiscipline! a little one from DD: lies fall from lips like lips fall from lepers"~ ars. Basta Nazirasta! Oi oi oi!
The fraudulent metronome, sweating, daybreak pandered to felicity blinkering... collapse. Informatted, its arms pulled and flattened to headaches, abysmal swamp and charm. Sculpture of butter, the town surrounded and pointless. Last wisps of evergreen chatter, possibly nautical and slipstream (was it last seen there?). Every last circumambulation winding, different forms are surrendered and the coconut is shattered (twice) shattered before the shrine... No one says an overactive imagination is... frisky if otter it is... ...you back to retrieve your shoes and please ignore the sculpture on the wall. Wind whistles chance. I have never been this tired.

Dispadrrreeee!!!!!: agrhhh... no fun since you become cut 'n' paste 'n' click 'n' glitch techno musick fan. Whats on yours discman today? Some old Nirvana crapshit or maby some new PanSonic tender melody of love and romance and devotion to a)man b)woman c)women d)men Whit pink sound of trully turtlle turist, to rest. Whit Skrewdriver' White Rider rythms and some bit from that movie you have seen ten or eleven years ago. The plot was simple. Aothor well known melody unknown.Discipline
Early in the morning he awoke. The sun had just risen over the bald hills surrounding his tiny villiage. Like a the light that leaks through a cracked door the sun peirced his vision and he blinked. As he awoke from his dream the sun was no longer there and in its place was the eye of a stranger, looking deep into his soul, breaching his armored heart and entering into his deepest orphace's. Unlike the others this stranger was gentle. Not ravaging like the rest of them. This one seemed as though something disturbed it. As the barrage continued in silent harmony, he began to wonder when his time would be up and he could go back to doing what he loved. He loved to weave his own magic, a magic that no one else could replicate. The stuff tears are made of. He blinked again. Sometimes when he blinked the sun would remain in his vision, still invading the concious mind and causing a lapse of the dreams and the invading strangers. But sometimes he would wonder if either were real, or if everything was backwards. What if when he thought he was awake he was actually dreaming and vise versa. Sometimes nothing at all seemed real, but he would assume one fantasy to be a reality because he anoyed it more than the other. There was no passing of time it seemed, either he was waking up from a dream or going to sleep and entering his dream in which he was awake, so therefore he never really rested. Forever his mind struggled with the fatigue of searching and running. Thinking of this seemed to be a lapse in itself, he thought, but if he was already in a lapse and anothe lapse occured would they negate eachother? Or since a lapse is already imploding the fabric of his current reality is quite possible another one could implement itslef at the exact same time as the last? Too much time had passed....he blinked again.
I fell and fell and down and down, until I came upwards. She was waiting for me there. With an item.
then the sperm whale, holding its massive left flipper above the tide in a gesture that seemed to be peaceful, suddenly spoke to Xipoquatli and said, "Thank you for the potato, I am sure i will find it useful in this perilous journey I am about to embark upon."
through the hail and frost Im blown through a broken knee made clear but still lost. With torn lips made sewn to whistle, a call for a glass pig head buried in soft flesh I could barely breath through blonde concrete. Barely seeing a seam I walked along the edge mislead beneath the grass was no soil but sky colored glass hot enough to give me a nintendo sunburn seared the flesh and the metaphysical mess we call "mind". I pulled back the violin and somewhere beneath the sheets a scream and a creamy death. A release.
And so the children of their children ventured into the storm. And they were cold and wet. And they were hungry. And they longed for the simpler times when they were fed 3 square meals in their prison cells, when counting cracks in the wall was their primary sense of entertainment.

my grand mother took my rock with her, when she died she raised me and we would paint rocks all the time. She kept one on her nightstand as long as I could rember and when she passed it was gone.
a dark lonely summer night
Sometimes it feels like desert heat but mostly its just cold as shit.
She spoke to me in broken prose of the forest's hidden lives.
And then we collapsed into tears.
and some had holes and some had pins, and many were there but none did care.
I smacked the donkey. It didn't even flinch.
This is pretty chewy.
That was a waste of time.
DisspadreDsciplineNow: eat this green ball, put it to your mouth. You will never be the same, from now one you will be burning like red fox in the morning sun. Yours breast in latex prison, your lips so red and wide. Just like this little fox, poor animal with no legs and head. Time for daggers in the eyes. BYe NYe my lads...
but there is nothing better than shitloads of fuck all
And then it started
lmth eht deddebme . did i . gniod mi tahw si siht . eciohc ym . mubla laiceps samtsirhc selbmow ehy morf delpmas tusl tusl tusl a ekil ni tas derob si gnikcuf rehtom os ym mi taht dog taes eht revo lla deknaw . ffil fo fniinaem eht rof selif ym gnihcraes enoemos . niotom ni ytilamron gnieb morf yawa dettor gnitteg ecnegilletni 23 ruoy 23 ot olleh yas dna sgel neewteb daeh ecalp , redro ralucitrap on ni sdrow dear . + edisni krad sti esuaceb tnac uoy hguohtla em ta kool uoy sa gnihton snaem ezis ro rewop deviecrep os dna deveileb reve i naht rellams semit fo snoillim ynam yllautca ma i neercs eht ta sessalg ym hguorht ees nac i hguohtla elbissop deveileb reve i naht rellams mi tcaf eht yb kcurts ylneddus draobyek eht ta seye ym fo tuo gnikool .
NOW ALL THINGS COME TO A STOP RIGHT HERE!
So I blindly followed the nubby as to question where he had last left the pygmy marmoset before he had caught the AIDs. Unfortunately, he was unavailable, because it was the day after the Thursday and the day before Friday, which meant he had to go fetch some shoes for the peanut butter. He said I could come over and help myself to a slice of dodecehedron anytime though.
Of course, it could ALWAYS manage itself blind. Mute and without a single care with regards to self preservation. At lunch a peculiar discourse arose. That of an attempt to combine metallurgy with wholly extranious devices. What can mate with which symbolic construct AND in which circumstances. Oh! The joy of a singular experience. The beauty of cut pressures upon a pentacle of cut gold. Here we found no need of recompence but an involuted and tactile desire to overcome belief, as it where, of our mutual self-loathing for bread, sustenance and witchcraft. The bread was blessed, so to speak, yet the wine was not fully drunk. Our hightened intoxication at the sight of the relish was exorcised in the most refined and curious way. To wit, we became as one with the cutlery! Through this marvellous act of referential gratitude the pigs dipersed and our eye's where enamoured with the clarity of neptunian defacation.
But it's not like that, Margaret! Come back, my angelfish, my dumpling, my randy fucktoy! The thing with the orangutan, the thing that's so painfully come between us, it was just...a phase! An experiment. For God's sake, woman. Would you have been more understanding if it had been with Jamal? You never got offended when I was alone with him, with my lips around his throbbing, foreign prick - something you're quite familiar with too, yes pet? Don't give me that look.
after retreating inward, you saw yourself as a selfish child - unable to stay by his bedside and offer the comforts of companionship which he deserved so. but recognizing this now meant that you have a choice about it! tomorrow you will go back to him; you now know what to expect when you see him. This time you'll be prepared and armed with a book, a voice recorder, and something to dry the tears when they come.
but how can a dead man type
"Co to za balwanstwo," he asked, using Polish, as it was, after all, his native tongue. "Some kind of story," came the response, "although God knows who has the time to read it all, let alone make sense of it!" But not completely...
STOP STOP STOP STOP YOU"RE KILLING ME
The hammer tumbled, falling end over end, the metal connecting with bone; in that instant, I was enlightened.
these were the people of woe.the people of woe were these
Silencio. SiLENcio. SILENCIO!!!!!!!!! That particular theatre really knew how to slice the story in two. The illusion of music was made apparent, yet also made real. Both are always true. As for me, you won't believe me, but I'm still crying over you! I guess I will always love you, though you will never love me, but I cannot help loving you anyway! The hunger for you that lives in my heart still now lives on in my dreams. You and your music exist there now and always will, as replacement for real life, since in real life, it seems you do not want me. Darling, the most erotic, most passionate and beautiful kisses ever given to me, you gave to me in one of my dreams a few weeks ago, and it is the memory of this dream now which keeps me alive! The memory of your dream-kisses are all that save me from certain death. i do miss you terribly. i cannot exist without you. i have to believe that I CAN exist without the man i am with still, and though i am afraid that this isn't true, yet i am assured repeatedly by others that i will live through this. Your songs sting and caress me together...you are both angelic and diabolique....my darling steven...

Does it hurt more like this; or like this?
We'll do a whisper drive, simply beside each other - up up and in arms... It's secret!
A beautiful girl walks in. Perfect in all ways. But has no chance to say anything before she was thrown onto a meat hook. It did not puncture her back, but punctured her up the arse. Her clothes were ripped off and a butchers knife forced itself through her chest cavity and cut open her skin from the base of her neck down to her hips. The blood was licked up and she was left on the hook barely alive, screaming, and in agony.
the anger and sadness inside. Released on someone so un-deserving. But helped me feel...lighter. Longing for your kisses, and your touch once more.
Yes, yes, but the Exquisite Corpse doesn't truly address life's largest questions - must I reiterate them for my audience? Why are we here? Why are we doing this? How far can a man walk into a forest? Prof. Crunkenheimer has posited that the E.Q. is simply a meltdown of the collective unconscious, constantly redefining itself as it expands to accumulate all thought, but condensed in such a way as to be understood by individual intelligences. I find this line of reasoning to be circumspect. Furthermore, I wish to reveal a startling fact, the culmination of years of research, of poring through ancient texts. Most significantly, I arrived at this startling fact without consulting the Exquisite Corpse! What am I talking about, you ask. Why, I have answered one of life's grand questions: I, Prof. Peckerwood, have discovered that a man can only walk into a forest...half-way. Because after that, I deduced, he is obviously walking out of the forest! Chew on that, surrealist pigdogs!
i walked to a tree and wanted a cigarette.
i'm thinking
and that�s the way things go. we don�t know. we never really know what�s going to happen in the second ahead this one you�re trying to live. now the most important thing is to make it better, doing harder ours wills come real. and make some difference at least to ourselves.
I put the cheese in my assholeo and touch it like a would a wide conductor of electricity. Like a big bum right in my face. Stuffed crust ass with plenty of cheese to spare.
eyes shut and let time eat it away
An innocent man would lose his sences with no doubt. I hope nobody saw that.
Big White sailin' the blackblood trace; ocean of death in your hat; there are wounds in the music which do not heal; there's a blasting cholera in koli�ns of voids, and shrewed with streets' exhausts - the anrialajzd hands, yes in glu of dying paklaras yes in the undertake of unlightened no-dream. Look 'neath the flaster of streeters, how equally they drink and vote, sorrowless generations, droleries waste of korona-smiles, sumporni nimbusi des vommitliches air stommaches - all of it, together with orange seed, in my yesternight's black mail, perhaps of Aim�'s crusading wars of silence
And then there was a thundering.
When the spires scraped the hull of the storm clouds I knew that the sky was slung way too low for me to make it home without a rain of the thought of you making my clothes stick to my already exposed torso
like the laughter of a pestilent moon. "To what end", he cried, "does yellow slouch??" But all he could feel was Caliandro's parchmently fingers caressing his medulla, pinching and picking at those spots where the cankers were thickest.
The love of novelty is a pleasant sort of cross, it's evidence of a na�ve don't-give-a-damn attitude, a passing, positive, sign without rhyme or reason. But this need is out of date, too. By giving art the impetus of supreme simplicity�novelty�we are being human and true in relation to innocent pleasures [TV]; impulsive and vibrant in order to crucify boredom. [ . . . ] I am writing a manifesto and I don't want anything, I say however certain things and I am on principle against manifestos, as I am also against principles. . . . I am writing this manifesto to show that you can do contrary actions together, in one single fresh breath; I am against action; for continual contradiction, for affirmation also, I am neither for nor against and I don't explain because I hate common sense. Philosophy is the question: from which angle to start looking at life, god, the idea, or anything else. Everything we look at is false. I don't believe the relative result is any more important than the choice of patisserie or cherries for dessert. The way people have of looking hurriedly at things from the opposite point of view, so as to impose their opinions indirectly, is called dialectic, in other words, heads I win and tails you lose, dressed up to look scholarly. If I shout: Ideal, Ideal, Ideal Knowledge, Knowledge, Knowledge, Boomboom, Boomboom, Boomboom I have recorded fairly accurately Progress, Law, Morals, and all the other magnificent qualities that various very intelligent people have discussed in so many books in order, finally, to say that even so everyone has danced according to his [or her] own personal boomboom, and that [s/]he's right about his [or her] boomboom: the satisfaction of unhealthy curiosity; private bell-ringing for inexplicable needs. [. . .] If all of them are right, and if all pills are only Pink [placebos], let's try for once not to be right. People think they can explain rationally, by means of thought, what they write. But it's very relative. Thought is a fine thing for philosophy, but it's relative. Psychoanalysis is a dangerous disease, deadening man's anti-real inclinations as it systematizes the bourgeoisie. There is no ultimate Truth. Dialectics is an amusing machine that leads us, in a banal way, to the opinions we held in the first place. Do you think that by the scrupulous refinements of logic you have demonstrated truth and established the exactness of your opinions? Logic restricted by the senses is an organic sickness. Philosophers like to add to that element: the power of observation. But precisely this magnificent quality of the mind is the proof of its impotence. You observe, you look at things from one or many points of view, you choose them among the existing millions. Experience is also a result of chance and of individual faculties. [ . . . ] I am against systems; the most acceptable system is the one of not having any system, on principle. [. . .] I call I-don't-give-a-damn-ism the state of life where each person minds his[/her] own business, whilst respecting other individualities, and even how to stand up for him/[her]self, the two-step becoming a national anthem, a junk shop [a whatnot / bric-a-brac store], the wire-less telephone transmitting Bach fugues [think ring-tones], illuminated advertisements and placards for brothels [the back pages of free-press papers nationwide such as The Village Voice or the OC Weekly], the organ broadcasting carnations for God, all this at the same time, and in real terms, replacing photography and unilateral catechism. Active Simplicity.
shadow had peaches today the tree fought back valiantly its thorns eliciting a number of rat pellets as it tore through the roof
well i can see lots of other voices are here...so I will go now. But before I leave, one thing: YOU HAVE MY HEART.
After so, the girl took her machete with her, and killed everyone who just stared at her.
Afterwards, the feeling of satisfaction totally erased any feelings of guilt.
YOU ARE THE ONE! I WANT TO MEET YOU SW!
Awash in cantankerous imprecations, the day nurse inadvertently disgorged the tomato soup-colored 2 litre urine sample bottle, swamping the station desk;
Thrashed in the hallway, seizing on an clear path to empathy. But that boy was shit. Fecal matter never mattered.
the way forward is never easy,the way back holds no comfort,the way down is a slippery slope,the way back up is a cruel master,pointing the way to the palace of wisdom
the stench of decay breezes forth on strange wings that insessant beat i never understood the rancid stench of the milk of human kindness festering in the unremitting heat of the miday moon
reborn in the desert like that rough beast who's hour came round at last corpses picked dry scorpion stings
home to the dreadful and the great distant horizons shimmer in this desolate world punctuated only by the dust of time passing like the slow dance of a soul miss guided
driven by pinching want
driven by pinching want naked before creation restless souls are we not knowing from where we come and no not where we go we ask we seek the truth remains out of reach of our clammy little mittens
Lots of cats crying about the morning dew.
But the black cat was just asleep. No turmor visible at all anymore.
Neverthless, she sat there, absentmindedly picking at her lices, hers and her companions', the bed-wetters.
As soon as she'd come in a minor turmoil had ensued, she had lost her designer shawl: after that the evening couldn't get any worse. Lices dispatched, she sat aloof. Suddenly her bra coiled, attempting to strangle her. She sat there pretending nothing was afoot, it was just a perfect Capri evening, it's such a lovely weather isn't i? The designers scarf has turned into a rattlesnake, it's charming the kittens and their smell amidst the tasteful sofas. "You bastard, jerk-off artist!" she mused, half to herself, checking her toes. Sometimes there isn't enough toe-jam for a decent snack.
for months now lived on pressed stoat and rancid fatwashed down with whiskey moroccan consiousness starting to unhinge .i took all the energey to move his lean jackal of a frame down into the village the pa
rasping trouser cough heaped up termite complexitey never ending buzzard carrion stench when was the last time you put dried cod in the car? dont run on fresh air now will it.dont talk to me about the logos of the aeons ive read cnclr von eckharthausens cloud upon the sanctuary .ive odessey's of my own to tell himalya charas visions,funeral rites in pashupatinath,nepal lived as sadhu renouncers we.living off alms ash of the sacred fire caked on my skin dreadlocked,naked,shivatri om nama shiviah
and whilst screwing a tree he did bend his cock on a branches spare left ankle to which he drew conclusions upon the not very sticky matter to find the price of a gallon of mayonaise from lithuania, incidently this caused him to regurgitate his wifes slightly ill doorknob so that he could spaculate his turkey with use of monk sweat
Bland and blackened and tired of the smell she turned the corner onto Grey street where the dullness first became aparent burnt plastic forein as eskinoes in the desert dishwater safe small black glasses the darkest ever imagined falling to her feet as the vomit came the taste of the last trick to stiff her kinky my ass no fun in the summer here all waving and Giger'd out sad like Disney's penis pump a limp silver zeppelin of a dissappointment this treasured regurgitation in the dog days green dreams the red white and blue bile of fading freedom her youth was gone before it could properly begin Cole Porter nightmares.
"PSSSST." "WHAT?" "DID YOU JUST HEAR THAT?" "HEAR WHAT?" "THAT!" ... ... "GO SEE WHAT IT IS." "WHY DON'T YOU? YOU'RE THE ONE BOTHERED BY IT, NOT ME." ... "(COUGH) UGGH... NOW IT'S STARTING TO SMELL!" "I'M DEFINITELY NOT CHECKING IT OUT NOW!" ... "WELL, WHAT DO YOU SUGGEST WE DO, THEN?" "INHALE DEEPLY." "ARE YOU KIDDING?" "NO, THIS'LL WORK." ... "JUST DON'T EXHALE AND EVERYTHING WILL TURN..." ... ...
Now this is really lame.
but i really think those eye-breasted flowers are orange, because if they were pink, i wouldn't see them as trees, would i?
, less the autumn leaves which by now had rotted away into nothing.
add nyquist then level the grain to top. I'de say that'd do. Smell some more of this fine tea my son. He passed me cruel wisdom but behold the mort leed. I would rather spend my time with a trowel but his isnt going to happen. could my time be wasted by sorting through others debris ? So the measurement is made cut from a scene involving the cunt. The mess made by sewing is more of a news ration than the elder bush is a tree. The talk that he has is the fine dandy other sport that some say is pain.
they pushed me back in the chair as they all giggled first they laughed at me for trying to take a second hit i managed to do it there was an exploding nebula in the bowl of the pipe which all warped like it was sucked into a black hole then they were everywhere, they were glad to see me there. they were laughing and just moving in and out of me and i felt all happy there were other things that i will not describe the voices said 'we'll show you everything you came here to see' and i started to list off what i wanted to see and they laughed before i could even get started really and they pushed me back in the chair and showed me how the universe was created there were four of them at this point. they were tall and thin and made of emeralds. they had no eyes. they told me that they have been watching and protecting me all my life and that fear about one's place in time and space is useless, there is no need for that because we are infinite one time i was in extreme physical distress and i went to see the Angels of Light [not the wonderful musicians, but the Encantados del Luz]. well, due to my personal distress, i completely misunderstood them, and in my state they had to leave me because they knew they couldn't make me understand at that point in time. the next time i visited was wonderful. within seconds of setting the pipe down [i've never had a real problem doing that] i was surrounded by the same, large, translucent Angels of the finest colour. they all ran to me, and surrounded me. and embraced me and moved in and out of my body with so much unconditional love and reassurance that there was nothing wrong and that i was forever protected and loved in this universe. it was ecstatic.
SCIENCE MUST EXAMINE THE CONNECTION BETWEEN INTAKE OF N, N-DIMETHYLTRYPTAMINE, AND AN INCREASE IN CD4 CELLS IN THOSE OF US WHO ARE HIV-EXPOSED. MY IMMUNE RESPONSE HAS DOUBLED SINCE INGESTING ABOUT 50 MG. OF PURE N, N, DIMETHYLTRYPTAMINE BY SMOKING IT. [CD4 COUNT PRIOR TO dmt - 224, CD4 COUNT TAKEN DAYS AFTER EXPERIMENTING WITH N, N,-DIMETHYLTRYPTAMINE WAS 425. i have never had an increase like that]. i thank the Encantados del Luz for showing me the true meaning of healing. they dropped nanowrenches on my head at one point, my corporeal form was bright orange as they [The Encantados, The Angels of Light] sprinkled a small amount of what i was told were nanowrenches on my head. they flicked through my body like a pachinko machine, and wherever they touched and turned my DNA, my body turned from fiery red to liquid blue. and again, magnificent immune response follows. not bad for someone who isn't taking the recommended antiretrovirals. i haven't had antiretrovirals for about three years, and ritual use of a forbidden substance [n, n dimethyltryptamine freebase] has kept my immune system stable. science must look toward serotonin stimulation and overload for the great cures, there is ayahuasca, you know. they are here now. they are always here. they are always love. there is always love. if you don't see it, you must find it.
Without a moment's hesitation, and in a fit of binaural urgency, a ceiling fan decended upon the heads of several hummingbirds perched upon the bust of Alan P. Kefauver commisioned by his parents upon his eighteenth birthday. Some debated the possible significance of such a gesture on the part of gravity, but most were more concerned by the pragmatic problem of filling the hole in the ceiling. Whilst the bulk of the house's inhabitants busied themselves with a stack of mouse corpses and old shoes to this end, the younger and wiser Miss Autumn Piffle left for the library in a state of dejection and not too easilly disguised sexual frustration caused by an enigmatic and striking hatstand she happened upon in town three days prior to seeing Mister Gunthwittle.
The girl arose slowly from her chair. Her eyes squinted and blurred as she focused her attention on her other senses. It was a smell that had distracted her from game. This familiar haunting smell was familiar in a odd sort of way; not sweet or sour. It was the smell of fear. Try as she might to sense from where this smell was eminating, the elusive nature of this odor had stricken her sense of direction. Her chest tightened and her heart beat a bit faster. Waving her hands in front of her like sifting through sand, she makes her way to the door. The tables and chairs begin to blurr as she swims toward the door. Her breath like a stabbed balloon escapes her chest without returning.
she said that she didn't know what i was talking about. "walk-ons, repeaters, you've never seen them?" at the house in Florida, there was a repeater. a woman. in early-american dress. she walked the same ten-twelve foot stretch over and over, never variating from her repeater-path. you couldn't predict her, but we saw her all the time. i've seen 'walkons' and 'repeaters' all my life. and the others, well, there are many. but she never saw them.
Astramble thy trunucks, meese and moons!!!
After all, I had always been there. There, at the same place for ages. I am here for as long as I can remember. I am watching her as she stands still, as she explodes viciously, as she turns herself into a salamander, as her face melts into obscurity. Maybe I'm waiting for the rain, because I can see myself through the stained glass window holding an umbrella. Well, I thought I could leave, maybe get a job, but no, I can't let her see me. That would be suicidal.
and nobody wants that. i believe in euthanasia, especially to stupid people who like guns. i guess there are 'afficianados', but probably there are more 'assholes' with guns than 'afficianados'. the great thing about being adopted is i always knew i was from somewhere else. i recall a sighting when i was a child of five, and i saw the glowing, oval shape move silently behind the trees. i wasn't asleep, i was just there. all of a sudden. i took a trip to Canada with my lovely grandparents when i was a child of six. i recall we stopped at a roadhouse for a meal, and i saw a scale that said "weight and fortune" for a nickle or something, and i stood on the scale...i don't remember my weight, but i will never forget the words of my fortune. "beware of dark objects hovering overhead". it happened. what more can i say. 1965. how very, very strange. august 1959 is my birthday. what a strange story. honestly. dada, dada, you are. i am insect hovering in silence. you can't hear me, but you hear angels sing.
blown to blue you stood there mute, your skin laughing in spite of it's melting. bones erupt without warning without caution light beams glimmer and fade away plastic tips a trip to the other side of your blood bank lampoon harpooned doomed because of this itching sensation rot away with me and ill kiss you dull an open mouth maggot your grave can stay and i will drink myself into oblivion everlasting. ponder eddies on melbatoast and milky lakes.
The Man looked at the ants below, going about their lives, and he cried, not of pain but of grief, for he had inherited his ugly, racist, conservative opinions without a moment of thought - And now was his day of reckoning. He opened his window and allowed the locusts to fly in, and the smell of pestilence violently rushed into his head - war, famine and death were sure to follow.
Well, never again. You could rest for a while, but sleep as a goal is not worth the trouble. Would you choose blindness? Hardly ever. Some would argue that there is an internal inteaction in such cases, but I would have to be blunt about this idea, and call it Crap.
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Rachel then said to the "Beaver". YOUR JUST A FUCKING HAMSTER U FUCK. and the Hamster said back, "ART THOU SMELLY!>". Rachel replied, "NO. U FUCK." And there was much rejoicing to be had. How scary would an evil printer be. One with wheels. And it tried to eat u. and chase u around. and it shot paper at you. and you got paper cuts.
The Cheerleader screamed and the small although impatient hippopotamus could not stand such stupidity any longer. He looked at her in disgust and said in a shrill voice "Is that all you can do? your mother, your father, your brother are depending on you!"
...but as predicted, Ms Cheerleader Pants did not concure with this line of though, instead continuing to party until she became the not-so-genteel victim of gang penetration. Incidentally, Wally the hippo was fucking a whopping hell queen wasp and giving it a pleasant slice of bohemian culture via the suburbs of Rutland. Finally, the whole shebang was enveloped unto itself by a green verruca of love - and not in platonic terms, neither - which continued a stoic rampage of predication and defamation of fate. "Asplooge!" His face turned deep burgundy beneath my own billowing visage, uncannily resembling a Bounty coconut chocolate bar.
i dream of tall buildings, i am safe iam on the ground, the lights have recognised my face, remembered the words of the whores of silence dancing in the cherry blosom in the sky. i sold them the fur.
i dream of tall buildings, i am safe iam on the ground, the lights have recognised my face, remembered the words of the whores of silence dancing in the cherry blosom in the sky. i sold them the fur. Please read and destroy: Camp flugen: (Present base for nomadic brotherhood) Occupied by 56 members of the brotherhood of the order of the wing. Using extremely limited technology which is found, invented or borrowed. these members have found away through a series of dangerous experiments to "download" their v.u.e audio codes into the brains of a certain species of bird (black beaks)who by nature are cannibalistic and have very high 5ht zones. There cannibalistic tendencies threaten the whole project. THIS IS CALLED PROJECT CRYER The process is the use of mirrors, EEG recording devices, low tech.low bit hard drives, infra red conditioning units, intrusion playback software, pirate physeters, crex moded, shortwave radios, elf and mobile phones, built on the experiments of Lipton's earlier ventures in decoding alpha brain waves. Once all the v.u.e codes have been downloaded onto the black beaks the birds are set free into the natural habitat, meaning due to their cannibalistic eating habits will slowly destroy the v.u.e code over a period of time, meaning it will be lost forever, never to be abused for global control. Once this has happened the brotherhood will be set free..... But....... The remaining 35 members are in global hiding and need to be contacted ASAP.... Re: PROJECT STYMPHALIAN a black beak is being trained a coded melody which will reveal to the missing brotherhood , once they have cracked its code, the exact location of camp flugen, this allows us to gather all the 91 v.u.e codes to be down loaded and the completion of project cryer, using a basic deprivation unit devised by DR.Torrgusson, the melody code carries typical refrains that only the brotherhood will recognise, the black beak is emersed in the phonic bath, altering the 5ht levels in the hipposphere, hence reprogramming its song.once the code is broken, the brotherhood will be re united. For the last time......... Ousted member DR.Greenaway already knew of this proposed emergency loan when he worked closely with Lipton and Torrgusson on it 12 yeas ago. Hence the coded message in the propaganda and anti bortherhood film "THE FALLS"...... "DO YOU BELIEVE IN THE RESPONSIBILTY OF BIRDS" this is all I can tell you for now as I am being watched from the opposite offi......................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................... University Of GON Morrisoto Research Unit 12 Fonix Campus Ny Ny 1004 USA MORRISOTO RESEARCH UNIT TO CLOSE We regret to announce that The Unites States of America Bureau of Science have ordered the Morrisoto Research Unit to close due to the nature of their research. The unit has now been classified closed under section b13 of the Government Criteria of Unsafe Science Practice Department. The USPD have also order Dr.Lipton and research fellow Justin Wiggan to �resign� from any further investigations relating biotronic matter, memory recall evidence and the development of their new findings. Both parties have been ordered to sign an agreement never to work or collaborate with each other again and opted for section a12.9 of the USPD hand book, which binds them to the agreement that neither party can not be employed by the same institution. We feel that not only is this a perversion of justice but a great loss to the global scientific community. The work produced has pushed back the barriers and opened up new terrain for humans to explore the last frontier, themselves. All equipment and records is to be destroyed publicly at the USPD centre September 13th 2004 at 1.00 pm What follows is the last report of their new research which will now remain unfinished. Dr. Byron Lewis, M.R.U August 2004 PHONIC EVIDENCE OF OPITCAL BIOTRONIC COLOUR RELATIONS After years of speculation, the M.R.U have finally achieved hard evidence to support past theories of that the eyes of a human can collect phonic material and well as visual, AND keep it stored with in the cells for up to 12 days. This exciting research is finally available for public and professional scrutiny .It also confirms past M.R.U experiments of biotronics. We took a selection of 12 volunteers and placed them in a lightless room for 55 seconds. (Using the time previously confirmed by Spanish Optical Specialist DR. R. Ellin ) All 12 face the south wall of the room and after the duration of 55 seconds, coloured light was flashed in the room. The lights varied in colour, time and hue. ( fig 1.) Each volunteer was connected to rampton software formatted to register retinal activity effected by light. The phonic residue was left on the surface 1.2 mm above the pupil on the left eye and 0.9 mm on the right eye. (fig 2.) Using P1n optic equipment we can place nanomics under the film of tissue under the surface of the eyes. (fig 3.) A registered reading was taken form all volunteers under general operation procedures and banked on the Arvon System, which documented all evidence. ( fig4 and 5) The evidence had to be processed immediately , otherwise it would have been diluted and effected by light relapse syndrome, ( which dissolves biotronic information) ( fig 6 and 7) The results prove the following: A human can store audio information as a reaction to light, this information can only be stored temporary. Unitl now we was not aware of this ability, this leads us to question our own understanding of biotronica and the implications this could have of developing solutions for site problems. We are submitting to the S.S.K a proposal for more funding to further our research into this field. Dr.Lipton M.R.U June 2004 MORRISOTO MEMORY SERVICE UNIT R.A.M 12 UNIVERSITY OF G.O.N TROY NY USA NY1 4GR FAX:001 345 768 001 FIRST FINDINGS OF BIOGANICA INFORMATION WITH HELD IN HUMANS #1 THE FOLLOWING IS A SUMMATIVE REPORT ON THE RESEARCH CONDUCTED BY JUSTIN WIGGAN AND MYSELF, DR.LIPTON DURING A 12 MONTH PERIOD JAN 2002 � JAN 2003. USING THE SATELLITES FROM THE PREVIOUS EXPERIMENTS CONDUCTED BY THE BENWAY CO. WE TRANSMITTED A SERIES OF BIO-CODEX WORDS TO 4 SATELLITES FOR THE PERIOD BETWEEN NOV 2001 AND DEC 2001. ( FIG. 1 AND 1A) THE BIO-CODEX WORDS WERE THE FOLLOWING: � MOUSE � BRICK � HAT � KISS � PEN � WHEEL � HOPE � INDIAN � MUSEUM � CONTROL � RISK � PUPPET � REST 13 VOLUNTEERS WERE CHOSEN.EACH VOLUNTEER WAS REQUIRED TO SLEEP IN THE R.A.M UNIT ON A MELOINIC SHEET.THIS WAS CONNECTED TO THE DEVISED MERCURY BATH AND TO THE PRANTATIC SLEEP SOFTWARE AND STUDIED FOR THE DURATION OF SLEEP. (FIG2) DURING THIS TIME, THE ALLOCATED SATELLITE TRANSMITTED IT�S BIO- CODEX TEXT PROGRAMME TO THE MELOINIC SHEET. THE HUMAN BODY IN THIS STATE PRODUCES A TRANSDOPIVE CHEMICAL CALLED DYMPOMINE.(FIG.1)THIS ALLOWS THE BODY TO STORE GIVEN INFORMATION TRANSMITTED FROM RECOGNIZED PETID PORTS FROM SPACE. ( A RE-ACTION BETWEEN THE MELOINIC SHEET AND THE DYMPOMINE OCCURES.) ( FIG. 3) (FIG. 4) THIS INFORMATION IS SOAKED THROUGH THE BODY ON THE MELOINIC SHEET VIA THE 3 LUCID ROPES CONNECTED TO THE MERCURY BATH. (FIG.4THE SHEET IS THEN REDUCED IN SIZE AND PLACED IN THE OHMED UNIT.THIS READS THE SOAKED INFORMATION AS PHONIC - CLATTICA. THIS INFORMATION IS REBUILT AND PLAYED TO THE VOLUNTEER VIA THE LUNIMR PORCH.THE VOLUNTEER IS THEN INTERVIEWED ABOUT THE BIO-CODEX. 15% OF THE VOLUNTEERS HAD DREAMT IN SOME CAPACITY ABOUT THEIR TRANSMITTED BIO-CODEX WORD. FOR EXAMPLE: VOLUNTEER X DREAMT ABOUT PUNCH AND JUDY.THEIR WORD WAS �PUPPET�. THIS IS VERY EXCITING BUT VERY EARLY RESULTS.WE PROPOSE MORE EXPERIMENTS LEADING US TO HOPEFULLY PROVIDING A MEMORY SERVICE FOR REBUILDING THE PAST FOR COMA VICTIMS. FOR FURTHER INFORMATION: GONWEB DR.LIPTON UNIVERSITY OF G.O.N JAN 2003 DR. LIPTON RESEARCH FOR ADVANCEMENT OF MEMORY ROOM 315 UNIVERSITY OF G.O.N TROY NYC N57 0I9 RE: NEW DEVELOPMENTS IN MEMORY BIO RECORDING There is new evidence of biotronic memory recordings in human�s alpha brain wave activities from recent tests done by research fellow Justin Wiggan and myself. What follows is a report of experiments conducted over this three-month period at the R.A.M unit the end of last year. 4 subjects were chosen from a demographic of 1000 people. 2 children, male and female aged 9 and 10. 2 adults, male and female aged 29 and 65. Each subject was required to bring in 1 photograph that the subject knew very well. The majority brought in a photograph from their childhood. Each subject had a 1-hour discussion about their chosen photograph with one of our assistant researchers. During this hour, the subject talked in depth about their memories and thoughts in connection with the photograph. The subject was then put in a deprivation room and their senses blocked by custom made recording blind and Nafo headphones. The subject was connected to a EEG recorder linked with phonal device software developed for these experiments by LASOLABS in France. The subject was left for 1 hour to recall details of their chosen photograph. We observed the subjects reaction and readout from a 2-way mirror. After 22 minutes into the experiment the readouts x- pysitic line increased .22 nanomils against the y- pysitic lines decrease of 12 nanomils. (See fig.3) This confirmed previous theories that the body records experience and store it not just in the philatic neuron canal but also in the body as a whole. Hence the human has the possibility to document information in the epidermis layers of the skin separate to the brain. This information is stored within the philatic neuron canal but diluted and lost when each subject closes this canal to open a new one, when a more recent situation or circumstance arises. Fig 5. With more funding and research resources the R.A.M has the possibilities to teach humans how this information can be stored internally and drawn upon at any time. We are currently developing equipment that can rebuild a photograph from a human EEG recording using this process. Certain Human Rights groups, lawyers and police officials have expressed an interest in this equipment to aid case evidence. There will be a more in depth seminar given meeting at the Annual Neurological Pyston Meeting, October 2003. Dr. Lipton PHD SKW, R.A.M Sept.2003
Not all of them were glassblowers, but some of them were beautiful.
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As he woke up he could not comprehend what had happen to him and had the headache of a lifetime. Not knowing what to do or where to go or even who or what he was. Voices he could not understand whispered around him but he could not answer them because there was only a burning pain where his words should be formed. He was unable to focus on anything. His vision was a twirling fog of hazy shadows moving in and out of his field of sight in a rapid nervous manner that made him feel sick and in them was concealed a disturbingly indifferent vibration of evil. Old Evil. Something was coming. He knew. The mumbling voices grew slowly and in a subtle way into an incantating rythm that gained darkness with every breath. Breathing out an atmosfear of rotting death and pure hatred and disgust wich gave rise in him to a fiery excessing fear giving again rupture to a frenzy state of panic. 'I must get out of here NOW!' His amygdala exploded in a crushing wave of pure animalistic fear-of-death and suddenly it was gone...
"Never again," Carmine shouted. He spat on the ground. Pierce winced.
"Disse optegnelser er nyttel�s. Ingen anden end Gabriela selv ville kunne bruge dem," the limp said. "Ascended masters are not what they used to be," I explained.
ch cee heich the huth of cuth the hooloo the merry jig from leaf to leaf the dance of initiate. The eye from behind the bush. The crow poke that will blind you. I must work to follow the dance but you should watch the soiled path that leads only to her whorey abode. Tempt her not with your sweat and lust . The rough tounge of a cat is not the flesh you desire.
and story was raped in a way that word could not relate
Once this person had finished complaining, the food service workers were able to continue their descent.
My fish was in a bowl when I realized it had cancer. I saw the growth on it's upper fin, and it was making him swim to the side a bit. I took him out and slapped in a plastic bag. Running, I made it to the vet who had me sit for a while. He said it would be about $200 to fix my fish. I paid and felt better afterwards. But, he gave me a little jar with the cancer inside. It made me sick. I ate it, as he recommended.
A red letter came to me, It was in the form ov a Christmas card. I opened it with a leather belt end, slipped it out ov the envelope and began to study it's design. A Christ was on the cover, and he was sitting naked next to the Father. Sitting at right hand ov the Father. An army of green thought then pervaded my senses. I tried to smell but the acrid stench layed muttled as A green blankness in my mind. Picked up the red letter again and then it fell to my feet; My feet an ashen white pointed upward toward the steel stilletto sky. I reasoned that I might not be standing. It was cold and a stainless steel flatteness seered my spine, legs and head. Where was this; exquisite corpse, where were my tangeables, my arm veins my pencils to write this all down?
and never to return again
His use of the marsupial beefcake grappling unit, interspersed with samples of lesbian koala claw powder, induced a rupture to his vas deferens; thus requiring an impromptu security council resolution to coagulate the buttock jerky.
Mummy, I did caca in my pants again today at school.
Will you marry me? please please please please please please please please please pleaseplease please please please pleaseplease please please please please
He told me no, of course.
" MY BOWELS!!!!"
and the oceans screamed blue murder
He watched her . . . closely, but from a distance. He watched her like a mother eagle watches her babies make their first attempts to exit the womb of the nest on shakey legs. She was a rare bird indeed. One of the last old ones left on this planet. How anyone could have missed her presence he wuld never know . . . But: Now was the time for him to attack. It was 11:00 o'clock and he had watched her eat a simple brunch of granola and orange juice. The dry scratchy flavor of the granola was almost a physical response in his mouth. It had been far too long since he had eaten, at least a year. Maybe two. Her thin cracked hand reaches out to open the door . . . There! He sees it, an almost imperceptible pause in her movements. She knew he was there. Good. He hated killing the unaware. Sniping an opponet with a blast of energy while well hidden in a building across town requires no art, no skill. One must only wait for a moment of weakness then attack. He wanted to be up close to have a dialogue with his victim. A dialoge of death. So be it, amen and amen. In a flash of light there is a moment that the action occurs before the perseption of the event, and so it was now. Her hands were around his throat already. She had travelled a hundred meters in less than an instant. If he didn't know how it was done, he would have been shocked into stillness. Even so, the distance she had traveled astonished him. "Heckat! Ur dim baumau . . ." "Hush cow!" he choked. "Non of that old Chicanery." "El El El Ur dim baumau . . . Ur dim baumau h'crete zi daudaafa!" Her cold hands squeezed harder. A long thing groan issued from the tendons in his neck, a crack. "This is the end of your Glamour, " he said throught the pain and mounting lightheadedness. He silently prayed that he had enough strength to hold out until the time was right. More cracking . . . now a shap snap as his neck was broken, her chipped nails sinking into his adam's apple. With the last of his strength, he exhaled the breath that he had been holding fo Maug. Thick and black and oily it rose to great her scarred flesh . . . It was a shame to waste it on her, but there was no other option left to him. Maug would have to wait for awhile. The woman in front of him was dying, curled up fetal on the pavement. Already baking in the sun . . . His body hit the ground with a soft polystyrene wheeze. If one didn't look too closely, they would appear to be two lovers cuddling near a park . . . Almost lovely . . .
The lack of brains was very exciting. It was my turn to eat a portion and I didn't like it very much. Then the doorbell rang and to my suprise, it wasn't the usual Jehova's Witnessess. It was a girl scout. With cookies. Behind her was a retarded elephant that was foaming at the mouth. As I slowly backed away to close the door, the elephant roared and farted on the girl scout. I laughed then shut the door.
At last we have found a solace of sorts.
And Ehtan ate from the forbidden Serpent, wich produced round, golden seeds that were blessed by Satanisioun.
The kids gathered around Ehtan and cheered as his skin crumbled, his teeth fell out and his body was set ablaze at last. "Cross bun, anyone?" Eli mumbled, "anyone?"
And then my eyes exploded, waffling cheese all over the er the dashboard.
Nail polish.

the snow is all around. i didn't want to wake up and have to kiss her face again but as she has been making my lunches without fail it seems like a requirement.
what is with that "Unveiled at Charlottenburg" LP? sorry, Steve, i adore you so much, but that Charlottenburg album is just tripe. they remixed, what, the first track from Man with the Woman Face, and then they did their own shit? i paid forty bucks for that, and i sold it for as much. it is ridiculous, i see people spending seventyfive dollars for it and i laugh because it's as close to a Nurse with wound album as the last seven Eurythmics albums. i hope you're back on your feet after World Serpent snakefucked all of you.
The man cracked and drank wine with a probiscus of gold and orange rind.
kill me mommy fuck me mommy kill me mommy fuck me mommy i never did GHB. i'm glad. it's just not something that i need alcohol isn't my thing isolating highs are not fun i like sociallucinogens, like acronym-drugs i love to talk with the Nephilim remember the movie THX-1138? when robert duvall was in the white void that's where they come from at about 10:00 [as a position in space relative to my forward-facing position] there is a door. if they sense that i am going to have trouble reintegrating they just leave. they know their presence is just confusing for me, so they leave. this last time i begged them not to go they didn't and we ended up having transdimensional fun it can be stressful, forced out of this time-space continuum by a pineal overflush the death experience in a living body amazing i love God i love the universe i love most of you i'm only human
i am an electronic fuckstick fuckstick electronique but i'm impotent so therefore i am useless, a little fish in a big boat. fuck, you know, i get pissed at myself when i say GODDAMN IT and i ASSUME GOD FORGIVES ME FOR I ASK HIM, SINCERELY, FOR HIS FORGIVENESS. DOES THIS MAKE ME A PUSSY? A VAGINAMAN? I LOVE GOD. GOD IS STEVE STAPLETON AND GOD IS MARCEL DUCHAMP AND GOD IS PLATO AND GOD IS YOU AND GOD IS ME AND THAT PEBBLE, WHY it has the most gold of all. the pebble. man, my parents were fucked up. i used to steal records too, steve. i put a hendrix record -band of gypsies- at the end of the aisle for the setup the day it came out, i ran with it and my best friend all the way home. sometimes i had to steal. god seemed to understand. or maybe just forgave me, or i'm paying by being a sick bastard full of alien lifeforms. god bless you steve. fuck charlottenburg.
i'm going to go smoke some freebase dmt now, derived from the rootbark of a certain plant. so clean, the crystalline glass universe. and the Nephilim. love me.
we live with CONSTANT, we live with machines.
Atlast At long lines At two lines a piece with one man two lines each consisting of a black man a white cash register a flat surface for the goods a rack of chewing gum a white man with wallets and yahmikhas Silence paces behind the jew african showdown The africans are making money They are on the side of the cash register where the operator makes change for the customers who are puchasing goods They are called cashiers They make change They take money Ask you if you have a CVS card They tell you to have a nice day They make money for doing this job The CVS is in a Hasidic neighborhood The jews are on the other side of the cash registers always They hand over the money Wait for the cashier to make change The jews leave Silence buys coffee while the africans talk about the jews
"Have you ever tried to eat your head" I asked. "No" she repied. "You should try it some time" I retorted.

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I AM SO SICK OF SPENDING MONEY ON ALL THIS DEATH. LET'S SPEND MONEY ON FOOD AND MEDICINE FOR PEOPLE. LET THE usa DECIDE IT IS GOING TO LIVE ON IT'S PRINCIPALS OF TRUTH AND FAIR TREATMENT FOR ALL AND I WANT TO DO WHAT I WANT TO DO AND SO SHOULD YOU
so really who gives a fuck about anything anyone does with their drugs, their bodies, their cunts their cocks their in-between parts and selves. works-in-progress there are harder things than being gay but if you're confident it's really easy to fuck any man that i ever wanted to. that has waned, significantly IMPOTENCE AND ALZHEIMERS HUNDREDS, THOUSANDS OF TRIPS ON LSD DOSES SPANNING DECADES nixoncamelfacepyramidblotter, fractal fluff, gelatin pyramids, perfect microdots double-domed and finished with a lightproof coating how wonderful i just used to get the best LSD i did like the gelatin pyramids, and some of the blotter the best. i did a hit of blotter at a Mike Oldfield concert in 1980, tower theatre philly, pa...i did my usual thing. walk into the bathroom...DOES ANYBODY HAVE ANY LSD? yo i got the last hit this guy had and he said it was real four way but i never met a hit of four way before that was a mindblower so i ate the whole thing, nothing happened for hours, until about four hours later. then the universe opened up and showed me ecstatic visions of my place in the universe. i like DMT better, now, sometimes. can't find LSD anyway. and i got enough DMT a year ago to last me another year. ha ha. that's the pure freebase n,n-dimethyltryptamine. the foundation of the universe is covered with light and heiroglyphics. and love.
tiny collapsing hands turn into metal spheres with sharp extrusions and i drag them up and down your body until you are covered in your own blood and then i take my HIV infected blood and i cut myself all over and we bloodfuck on the floor, we don't even have sex, we just put our blood together. IF THAT'S WHAT GOD WANTS. OH, I'VE BEEN SO FUCKING MAD AT GOD LATELY. IT'S HYSTERICAL. THAT'S LIKE HATING AIR. DUMB. love. most movies are shot from the left. most shit is shot from the right. i just can't do it, it's like reading. i don't read from right to left. i think about the echo that was added to Dawn between the vinyl and the CD and i like the beginning of the record first, without the lennonesque echo-delay. david was tibet whomever he chooses didn't need that. on the vinyl it sounds like he's in the dead center of the soundfield and THIS DESTINY SHALL NOT TIRE, NOR SHALL IT FALTER [DAVID THEN TIBET '93'] I LOVE STEVE STAPLETON. I'M GAY, HE'S STRAIGHT. I'M AMERICAN, HE'S A LOVELY MAN OF THE BRITISH ISLES. I ADMIRE HIS WORK. I WOULD LIKE TO SMOKE DMT WITH HIM. +++++++++++++++++++++++++++THERE'S MORE TO FUCKING THAN SEX, THERE'S MORE TO SEX THAN FUCKING+++++++++++++++++++
goats
+ + + POTATO FACTORY FUCKSTICK I WANT TO HAVE MY PARENT'S HEADS SHRUNK AND FED TO WILD DOGS AFTER THEY ARE DEAD. AFTER ALL THEY DID FOR ME.
i'm lost. i'm found. i'm lost. i'm found. i took a shit today. i must still be alive. you can't judge a hero by the clothes it wears. some would argue that there are no heroes well, there are heros they are the ones that smile at you for no reason other than in passing they will hold the door if they see you holding many packages they work in the Emergency Room in Zimbabwe General just looking for the next Ebola or AIDS patient lots of heroes in the world a hero is someone that life tries to make a victim out of who refuses to become a victim everyone can win here. but most are too fucking stupid to realize that. no-one has to die at the hand of another human. we must end capital punishment. lawyers make mistakes everyday, especially when they get out of bed. fuck all the lawyers with big leather dildoes, and then take close-up pictures of their assholes after they have been reamed, you know, there would be shit smeared all over their asses because they are so full of that material. those could then be painted in oils and hung above their desk. this is who i am, a big lawyer who knows how to take a fuckstick. and i won't let this happen to you. i never thought about shit so much before. it's got to be the methadone. methadone is a shitty subject.
OBEY!

And they ran. Ran from that which chased them. Their own fears, their own meanings. Their own lives were behind them. Chasing and tormenting. They needed their freedom. Escapism to the higest degree: to escape themselves. But they weren't running. And they aren't they, but they are we. We are running from that which we shouldn't. We dont face what is in front of us or what is behind us. But perhaps its better to live day to day. The code of our lives has been to yearn for more. To deny ourselves is to give credit to anyone else. The space left by your body will eventually be replaced by another, so we need to master our own lives. These were all expressed on the side of the bed. His legs wrapped around her waist. She was beauty incarnate. Not eternal, but moment to moment. Everything about her was the love of his live, and he counted the flaws with as much joy. She was imperfect and he couldn't ask for anything more. This was truth to him, nothing else. This was the moments of moments and lieing there imbracing in distorted turns of the body speaking of the world couldn't bring more to his soul. And best of all, she shared this with him.
But the great eternal monkey came from within themselves, saying to them "You are all peach trees. The flamingo says, 'pass me the armchair', but all is not lost, fair maidens of the Well." With that, the monkey went back into them, finding the lungs a more comfortable spot than most. With that, they were now lost. They now found themselves in search of an armchair, the flamingo, and a cure for peach tree transformation.


tiny purple fishes run laughing through the rivers and they want to take you with them to the highland of the winter. waa-waa waa-wa-waaa waa-wa-waaa wa-wa-wa-wa-waaaaaa -jack bruce probably IN THE SUNSHINE OF YOUR LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE
NOW I JUST FEEL TERRIBLE. LISTEN TO 'THE GAME' BY ROY HARPER. LET'S ALL STOP KILLING EACH OTHER PLEASE. THANK YOU.
FUCK I DON'T WANT TO DIE I DON'T WANT TO DIE I DON'T WANT TO DIE I DON'T WANT TO DIE I DON'T WANT TO DIE I DON'T WANT TO DIE YOU MUST UNDERSTAND. THIS THING HASN'T EATEN ME UP YET IT'S GETTING HARD TO BREATHE REALLY FUCKING HARD ALBUTEROL LOVE MUCOUS



but his style was more like the eunuch who escaped the knife, owing to the fact that
i only got a piano for my fifth birthday after playing on a piece of paper with the keys drawn on. i was so low
There is a small little tree sleepy on the palm of my hand. The roots pour between the fingers as leaves exposed to the null sun and around to me quit. Who has seen those that she happens in the cavern where tawny bears sleep laughing tightening to just the wood genital leaves. A fish jumps in frying pan and my feet are burned to you from the sun. Arrival hardly to touch the walls one with a finger that collapses and leaves exposed I hide hairy tawny violet and. My appetite and my throat hiss to the ears like if null were and approach the secrets of my unconscious one. I have touched with one paper the bottom and dug with one leaf the empty one. Attack thousand lights to the eyes in order to see illuminated and outcry to you choked in the darkness from the commotion of Hush. I hang to the nail the skin and come down the scales of my heart. The thoracic case encloses fantasies and tremors. I enclose a tenuous star flare babies and willing of sun.
There is a small little tree sleepy on the palm of my hand. The roots pour between the fingers as leaves exposed to the null sun and around to me quit. Who has seen those that she happens in the cavern where tawny bears sleep laughing tightening to just the wood genital leaves. A fish jumps in frying pan and my feet are burned to you from the sun. Arrival hardly to touch the walls one with a finger that collapses and leaves exposed I hide hairy tawny violet and. My appetite and my throat hiss to the ears like if null were and approach the secrets of my unconscious one. I have touched with one paper the bottom and dug with one leaf the empty one. Attack thousand lights to the eyes in order to see illuminated and outcry to you choked in the darkness from the commotion of Hush. I hang to the nail the skin and come down the scales of my heart. The thoracic case encloses fantasies and tremors. I enclose a tenuous star flare babies and willing of sun.
the turgid moon waxed and puffed itself up like a blowfish spewing putrid sickly light across the concrete
At this time of year there is a drive to employ people so they have money to spend on Christmas. I suggest you apply for an exemption on religious grounds. Empty house? why not fill it with black bags? Once a week people leave black bags outside their house and they never take �em back in. to fill your empty house simply collect these black bags and put them in your house. it will soon be full. And cleaner than if you rent it to students. Many of us thought that it would be truly wonderful if Ian Brady fans and friends could join together as One Voice to demonstrate our support for so many of our friends, families, and fellow human beings who suffered from Hurricane Katrina. We set a goal of �150,000. We hoped for �50,000 in contributions, $50,000 from Ian, and $50,000 from the Ian Brady Fund For Health And Hope. Wow. Goal number one took about 48 hours. So Ian said let�s try for another �150,000. So we did. And you did. And wow. The second �150,000 took less than 36 hours. As of now you have raised a little over �$400,000. That�s amazing. Really amazing. At this pace we can�t keep up matching two dollars for every one dollar that�s donated to the Ian Brady Fund. We can, however, match it pound for pound until we run out. And to help it not run out Ian has offered to publish a special limited edition of �Gates of Janus� for subscribers. And to help respond to so many of you who have asked that funds be allocated to specific needs beyond those of the Red Cross everything over the first �300,000 will be targeted to specific requests. All of us hope that the devastation of Katrina will soon be forgotten. What will never be forgotten is the generosity of thousands of friends who have shared their HOPE for forever.
johhny laid dreaming of a white christmas, staring out the window as the old widow crow rustled the aphids engrained in her feathers. he turned encountering a small mouse peeking its head out of a worm rot hole in the timber walls. ugh he thought remembering the old unkle that died an early death by beheading at the hands of a deranged man parading as a mickey mouse stand-in at walt disney world. he struggled with nightmares for months. his mother walked carrying a tray of legal briefs wearing the severed head of his old teddy bear, stuffy. kneelling she grabbed him by the shoulders shaking him violently, screaming, "the aphids are coming, the aphids are coming." hearing the scuffle his father swept up the stairs, kicking in the chair perched under the doorknob to prevent entry. "deadra, dear time to take you medicine," he bellowed, stuffing the purple, irredescent chalky pills down the creeching women's throught. outside the crows eyes wide with terror gathered his satchel fleeing the scene. johhnyies fevered taping at the window quieted losing consciousness. finally, the woman subdued relinguished the child, burying her brow in father's chest, to bemoans of, "by god what have i done."
"Bullshit, pretentious bullshit."
Es especialmente desastroso. Cada detalle convierte el juego en algo m�s escabroso, sucio y insano. Ella pensaba que valdr�a la pena intentar salidas airosas al soponcio estival de nuestra relaci�n. Se equivocaba, era absolutamente imposible recuperar el ayer, y m�s dificil todav�a intentar olvidar la visita del hombre con flores en el sombrero, aquella visita que cambi� nuestras vidas y, antetodo, la manera de afrontar nuestra desilusi�n y odio a este mundo
Sadly, it was at this time that my glorious sleep began to pass and I awoke from what was most definately a stupor created from the mixture I had passed through my lips several hours earlier. Head feeling like damp cardboard, I tried to remember just what I had witnessed at that Greenwich Village after hours watering hole, circa 1976: I was invited to see a performance of Tina Turner - post "Ike and..." but, pre-reemerged fame of the mid-eighties. She was to be the headliner in this dank overcrowded dirty pool hall infested pissspot. The opening entertainment was from what I was to gather, two homosexual men who began to strip down to their their nakedness. While one of the men bent over, the other lubricated the top crown of his head and casually proceeded to gently force the entirety of said head up into the bent man's ass until he was completely neck to buttocks. I leaned over and remarked to a fellow boringly standing next to me sipping what looked like an old fashioned, "My God! how is this done, are they using mirrors?" to which he replied, "This IS medically possible, given that the bending man were to previously have had a colostomy operation which removed the entire lower intestine, thereby allowing for ultimate flexibility and enlargement. I pondered this knowledgeble gentlemen's words carefully, and after some slight speculation considered his reply to be correct, to which I answered, "Well, I do hope Tina Turner can top THIS act!!"
as he wept with anger, his mind loss consiousness of the fact that he had just been chopping very fine chili paddys. After which he began rubbing his eyes only to create more pain than he had originally felt.
and he said, "I am but one duck in a line of many; we are all small feet.
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The next day he woke up not knowing where he was. He looked around and figured out he was in some kind of submarine. He didn't know how he got on the submarine, but he noticed someone was entering the room. The person entering took him into another room and spoke in a language that he never had heard before, the stranger seemed annoyed. The man seemed mad. The man seemed paranoid. The man seemed to be barely sane! The man kept speeking his strange language to him. He also made made many strange wire statues. The man later lost his life to a shark attack. And our main character took the submarine's lifeboat to the closest land, which was Ireland. He found refuge and kept one of the wire statues of a yak. It was a truly puzzling and bizzare experience.
tiny little sensations of freedom in a world gone mad where murderers rule the world, well, haven't they always. but i'm the hated and isolated and despised and pitied, now, and i don't want any of that. four days in the hospital over christmas, a belly full of pharmaceuticals later i find that haldol blocked a thirty milligram dose of n,n-dmt freebase that after two days of abstention from haloperidol i turned into a yellow tiger on the floor, covered with spinning coptic crosses. i smoked in the bong. it was fabu. i scraped the bong clean to eliminate any traces of the n,n- oh fuck what am i doing here i am terrified a fuck that's terrified i feel like a child again like i have no more choice that my country has betrayed me and everything it used to attract people here against us all, they decided to try to keep us separated, in community and spirit. amerukka could be a great nation, made of love, where is optimism, where is hope? only in my heart, and in the wings of others who carry me. oh, i'm not talking about the Encantados. i'm talking about regular you and regular me. i don't ever want to be a bother or a pest and i beat myself up for making myself a 'presence', who needs a 'presence' that feels like it is dying all the time, that is only a negative 'presence' if i let it run me. can't let it run me, i've turned myself so far around, no cigs, no booze, no street drugs [my spice is compounded by a shaman]. i leave the beauty of that place, that place of a universe made of fabric that i can see, connecting everything alive. even the fish in the tank, well, they are made of glass at this point and the room is dark, and i see the lines of energy that connect them to every other living thing. but upon close inspection i see that the 'lines' are made up of coptic crosses of different dimensions which go to different depths and ultimately connect everything. god bless you and keep you. i love you, steven, always have, always will. STAB THE ALIEN BEFORE IT CAN SHOOT IT'S LASER GUN AT YOU OR MAYBE YOU WANT A FRIEND WATCH OUT FOR THE LIZARD LOOKING ONES. I'VE HEARD OF REPTILICUS AND I DON'T LIKE THEM. THEY COME FROM ONE OF THE STARS IN ORIONS BELT, BUT THAT IS A HEAVILY POPULATED PIECE OF THE UNIVERSE. THAT'S WHY WE SEE IT GLOW, THOSE ARE SHIPS, THOUSANDS OF THEM, LINING UP TO TRAVEL VIA WORMHOLE. FUCK MY WORMHOLE. WHEN I'M DEAD, WHEN I'M DEAD. LOVE LOVE LOVE IS THE ONLY THING THAT MATTERS AND NOT SHITTING ON YOUR NEIGHBORS' GRASS LOVE LOVE LOVE
But we all know that the most important is what itches your liver-grandmas allknowing cookies.
i am a goat. watch me. be. a goat. watch me being a goat and frolicking. now sneak over and FUCK ME FUCK ME FUCK ME FUCK ME DADA IS FILTH SOMETIMES TINY TINY TINY big
The moon shines on my darkdark beard making it lighter and lighter and lighter and I dissolve in madness. Suddenly I wake up and rub my goatie against the wound of infinite starskies
It was just a dream.
those are very small waffles.
Deadly Face Of Evil, Consuming The Glass Menagerie
today was
saponified, she went forward in a whirlwind of bubbles, slippy, sliding, out of control.
The corruption leaks out in drips and globules of rancid viscous gristle.
I fell for what could have been days, and it could have been minutes, so fragile was the fabric of time i clutched around my person like a layer of sunblock on the first sunburn of the year. The stars called to me, using names that weren't mine, and yet i had no chance but to identify with them... a smokey haze of reality interlaced with the spreading luminescence i began to pull from my fantasy. And then it stopped, the radio droned in a Stern-like litany of indigestible fluff and as-close-to-porn comments as could be imagined. I looked at myself, seeing a reflection like out of a Carlos Castaneda book... and i forced myself to eat the ice cream, now crawling with all manner of creatures as if a mocroscopic world had just been opeend to my eyes. the spoon was useless, made as it was from porous strings that shifted shape... and the lyrics began to drive holes through the screen. i felt compelled to explain to myself that i was dreaming; i rejected that premise with the surety of someone who'd just taken a hit from a hash pipe and was about to proclaim the smoke inferior.... right up until i said it...and then i realized.... i was more wrong than a sandpaper bandaid. i felt a christian clap; i heard a Roman grin; and i left a small pile of rocks bearing my DNA in a small puppet's hand.... climbing out of the tower's window to float and bounce along the winds i generated with my own arms.
ANYWAY, all this so far iss skipping forwards a few years, jumping the gun so to speak, which brings me back to those brief moments when no-one in the world died as the birds were drawn to shimmering beauty. During those instants i thought it wrong that precisely nobody was dieing, so i took my revolver and glanced down at the town, that homonculous jar of shit below me on the plane. This was the town that had produced termites and other dwarfs in its churning mills, mills that resembled the female prepuce if not in character, then at least in design. I had long harboured Arabic thoughts toward those termites, shielded beneath their hoods. the idea had clung to my thoughts as ichor clings to a miscarriage. In these moments of undeathly quietude i would bring these tumescant people to task. There in the streets of that town they milled about, scuttled to and fro, or else shambolically plunged themselves toward whichever mill they sought to breed in next. The revolver felt sickeningly heavy as i lifted it and took aim at the closest weevil who dragged a half formed mostly dead child behind it. I pulled the trigger, The creatures head exploded in a curious eruption of detritus, its dignity concluded. The creatures child began to keen in one single high pitched note whilst its companions, who laboured over their recognition of the event, were slowly overcome with fear and took off aimlessly, bumping into one another, into walls, hollering or babbling as they tried to flee. i released a volley of shots at them before reloading. Soon the childs wailing was accompanied by the chorus of the many who now lay bleeding to death. I suddenly felt solvent. Satisfied, I walked away, not to return to the town for many years.
i always wanted to go down
the badgers and the zebras took refuge in a large jar of mint humbugs where they couldnt be seen but their fur was matted as the body heat of such a large mass of animals caused the confectionery to become tacky
No one spoke a word
But here where collision is imminent, sparks fly off in strange angles. Even the sun fails to shine, grotesque in its apparent warmth. Like the rhythmic beat of marching feet, the world becomes a pinpoint, the axis of revolution. I stand there. And as the circling winds tighter, as time compresses and eventually stands still, the scene snaps into focus. Luck or force? Luck: The cascade of apparently unrelated events leading to a happy conclusion. Force: Overt influence. Process: A cascade of related events. Inhale. Click. (forced process) Empty chamber. (luck) "Here Herr Kommandant, take my gun!" (forced luck) BANG!
The Key to Joy is Disobedience!
Thus, the captain hung his head and shed a solitary tear.
as the new sun hit my face, the world burst into a few million shards, into bright stinging tears, into a radiant new collapse. sunspots swirling behind my eyes, congealing into blood dark scabs. my head was spinning off its axis, yet i told myself, if only i can keep standing and staring, it will pass, the darkness will break up into light again. i took one step and fell into a violent void of hideous noise The feel of my conciousness spiralling back into my skull was mirrored by the onslaught of water draining into the floor under my ear. i came to life with a scream.
the boy teetered on the edge of manhood; madness. Hid in his headphones to escape the tyranny of judgement, but it was sunday morning and all was holy, we were dissecting the eyeballs of infinity, turning it all insideoutside, and the harmonicas crash and descend to reflect self doubt and the sound of trains. Vinyl hissed like a cobra and captured a moment, left off with a little piece of soul. We're all dying slowly, some quickly, but we leave a weave of tapestry, with our efforts and undying vision.
It�s a dream, it�s a dream!! Wake up, wake up!! did you know dead men can�t dream?...I didn�t know that...but why? Because DEAD is just a dream!!!
and of course, rang the sallow sister bells, the disco colour's now and never was.
Parallel lines of agitated philanthropists mused on the viewing figures. 'A paper plate wouldn't come amiss' cried Mr Kaminski 'Not far to Bolton' observed Nancy in reassuring tones. Just at that moment smoke came pouring out of the grill, causing the red setter to bark.
Once, I had serious herpes.
I, personally, absolutely loooove porno.
This one time, my girlfriend, she smelled.
STOP THIS! HOW RUDE of you to do that, such a thing, that you did on me. She, never would have done such a thing as this and that on you. HWO? When did the uber platz realize this? NEver? Who? How? You don't know. I DO NOT KNOW! i, personally, have the innerards. stop the insanity.


Lay me down with you in cool green fields...pleasure in the heart of mine that yields to your sweet eyes as all sorrow dies. Theres no escaping it. I too am fascinated by the criminal mind. As much as you sw. Thats another reason i fell for you besides your music. Loss took my breath away. Doesnt matter you dont respond. My love is eternal.
Not understanding the manner in which his companion directed his affairs with such apparent effortlessness and growing increasingly embittered as a result, Edward slipped deeper into the lethargy that threatened to incapacitate him.

I many of them. They had a strange shape that my eyes had never before rested upon. "Where did they come from? and Why are they controlling me?" These words resonated in the labrinth like canals of my aching brain. In hindsight, i don't even think that the words were mine, but implanted in my brain by these bizare................flowers........yes, that's what they are.....flowers. Big red and blue flowers. How did they get here? I'm not outside. Maybe one of the animals brought some seeds inside and the dust in the carpet just so happened to be the perfect environment for these fine specimen of biological discourse to flourish and grow.
Perhaps I should clone my obsession...
I dreamt so many dreams of you over the the last year. Today I dreamt that I wrote you a song in which I preclaimed myself a lady knowing you to be a gentleman. Then I woke up and was annoyed that it was only a dream. I hadn't truly written any song, and the words were quickly slipping away. I often dream I am writing a song. Then I wake up and can't remember the song, which is very unfortunate since I could have about ten songs by now over the last year, just from my dreams. It's so easy to write instrumentals. It's those damned songs I used to write so easily -- that I can no longer seem to capture. Here's part of what I dreamt i wrote on this site: thick as a brick thick as a brick (I know, jethro tull...) over and over and over. on repeat beating on.... lcd soundsystem got in there somehow. wasted and complacent...anyway, oh yeah thrills too, quite a lot of good songs. in between this i was writing my song to you sw. my fantasy affair, how i love you! nebulagirl
Then he moved out of the room to confond his own expectations of himself.
Sw i dreamt i wrote a song about how you inspired me to write music again.
Up and down. She looked askance at the director. Truth is she was waiting for his command. Never do the flowers bloom for her. Though they did for him which she did not begrudge him as he deserved the word bloom on his shirt. His good looks were only the tip of the iceberg. His amazing passion was the real cake. Looks are icing. Sw = steven wilson = sound wave. What a fitting nickname. Though nww has salt marie celeste which blows me away with its machine symphony make no mistake. She heard ellie's machine in it. She wished she would stop being obsessed with sounds that represented her father to her. She was chronically suicidal. When would spring arrive? Ng.
Down into the swirling abyss. She knew never to expect a perfect world. Since she was 12 she knew that. Cruel words came to her. You'll leave no one to cry on the day you die. So what. Was that her point? No. And no one could hate her more than she hated to be alive. Truth be known it was herself she hated. Being awake was torturous at these times. Just want to sleep, like john lennon. She could at least then dream of happiness writing songs. Fuck it all. My friends have abandoned me she thought. Condemned to live alone she was. Hell on earth. Hell on earth. Angels dont exist. Only dreams. So go there with the assistance of a few pills. Yeah i need my thrills. Cause life just kills. I cant have you she thought before she fell asleep. Ng.
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Primal Blood upon the oak.
He had never once used those words, nor even learned to handle the instrument that would�ve made their written form possible. The words in question were discovered in a volume formed in concentrically rippling circles, flat like a sundial. Between each letter there rose (or was it emanated?) a fragrance that could be seen by those standing at a slight angle to the page. The curls and indentations this fragrance left in the air was enough to cause the onlookers to be paralyzed. If all hallucinations could be true, and not only a matter of physiological perspective, the world and its words would be held captive by a possibility of olfactory interpretations and reinterpretations lying over the seasons like a palimpsest of the brain�s canals during monsoon.
First night alone in her apartment. Nothing left but herself and that was not enough. She had lost everything - her marriage, her son her house. Questioning whether this was the end of everything. Tears flowed in the realization. Life was never kind it was always harsh. Maybe she was just too weak. Pills loom such a temptation. No one would really miss her melancholic that she was. Stupid music on the radio droned on. They are lost most of the good ones. Only a few left now. Radiohead amos and anything wilson touched. Granted some peripheral musicians too exist who make unique statements. She was thinking of her own equipment left in massachusetts and thought further that she should have a living will in case so it would be clear who should get what from her humbleness.
But then...crazy crazy crazy no way forward lifeless but for obsessed love i hate myself for loving you terrible song unhappy girl moving in stereo all mixed up sirens blaring outside feels like theyre coming for me darkness cept 4 the light from my cell oh no a love song just started guess the name: i love you. As my head was spinning round...george harrison-like instrumental bridge...good song really. Climax blues band. Cruel love songs. Oh here's the one steven tyler sings to his daughter. Ng.
while he was contacted by psychic means
You say "god only knows" but like ellie i don't believe in god. I haven't since i was 13 and moreso since i was 17. That's why i say "thank nature" instead of the usual. And nature is indifferent so i shouldnt really even thank nature for anything. Ng.
Alright i just read the lyrics. Have to admit those words are beautiful. No one knows though, not even a so-called god. Nothing is what i feel. Ive begun my life alone and cant picture myself with anyone new. Theres just emptiness where there used to be a job a marriage a son who i cared for everyday and a house in which some new couple live. All i have left are music, therapy, my out of state best friend and every other weekend i get my boy. The rest is gone. I am however going to buy a turntable so i can play my 3 albums i own. And i have my cds. Ok maybe ill be alright. I have to matter though and im not sure i really do.ng.
Amid the sudden hullabaloo, God himself appeared and did heartily smite all of the little people. "Oh wickedness!" our Lord cried. "I've left the bath running!" and most quickly did he depart to the most holy of bathrooms. "Curiouser and curiouser!" remarked an aged leather bound book of Mein Kampf. A bald tamarin monkey silently scratched his left testicle as he pondered upon the recent happenings of day. He came to the remarkable conclusion that psilocybin mixed with absinthe did indeed grant its user incredible powers, though the desired effect did only occur when defecation was in process. A huge bang went through the room! What on earth had just happened?
Dispadre D.i.S.C.IP.L.I.N.E: ohh i got so old, my hand so cold. 24 a-go years I was born and now my haiirs started falldawn. Thank God for my woman...trueman. This night the MOON is so beatifool.
Pitch peach juice leaps, please, do not ask me about my exgirlfreends. All on boat over styx' surf face. My dada dad got so old... even dispater DCPLNE goth cold. What about immortality????? DD
She had another dream. Her three room apartment was found to really have two more bedrooms. She went into the first bigger room and discovered a treasure trove of things musical. Even the lamps were each shaped as a different musical instrument. One was a clarinet, another a saxophone, another a trumpet, etc. There was a reel to reel recording device. There were tape decks galore. Then instruments themselves: a moog synthesizer, drumset, a guitar (acoustic), a cello, and others. She also noticed several ashtrays still filled with butts and began to surmise that the owner of all of these things had to be the late husband of the elderly lady who had just moved downstairs. In the smaller room were artfully placed works by various artists, mostly prints. She went back to the larger room and laid down on the floor in the dim lighting. She fell almost asleep when a door opened and in walked a strange man. He was dark haired, handsome, but a stranger. She immediately sat up and asked the man who he was.
When he didnt answer she stood up and asked him if the lady downstairs used to live here with her husband and the man answered "yes." then she asked what he had died of and the man whispered, "pneumonia." he was in his eighties. Next thing she knew the man was escorting her around the two rooms and they found record albums including one by neil diamond. She didnt want to stop looking at the former possessions of this old man. She felt compelled to stay here.
Soon she was informed that she could keep these two rooms as part of the same rent and all the items within. Upon waking she believed this dream to be real at first. She does not yet know from the widow whether any of this had at one time been true and real. Ng. 3-7-2006.
and Alahh, Alan, Aleph intoned the Sun
Then Ricky Martin stepped in.



In vain I searched for my old lost suitcase. "Damn thieving fake hippies!" I muttered to the old man sat playing draughts and drinking some white spirit. Nevermind, it was heavy and there was no chance of a shower. The Compact Deangulator Unit was still in my jacket pocket. I pulled it out, paused a moment examining it's elegant design, then set the controls to take me on to Andromeda Perching Station.
DispadreDisp: she is my ultimate traumatic point. And I am solider of 3rd Reich Of Our Love. Wild bunch of my dream like wolves castrated of all tolerance.
I continued with steps one after another, a steady binary process. As the night grew larger I saw myself, a spectre, out of the corner of my eye clutching a tangerine as if to eat it. It said nothing. I broke my nose against the wall in fright and fought to regain my balance. After the distraction and confusion I regained a semblance of sanity and inspected the bathroom for signs of foul play. It was empty, but there was an unfamiliar hum. It could have been the wind or the radiator, but more likely it was ghosts and wolves. I excused myself from their presence as politely as posible, not wanting to cause a scene, and lead myself to the door beside the church. I waited in the doorway for a moment, unsure of how to procede (to turn the knob? to push the plank?), until I heard a long roll of blue laughter bleed through the moist air. I hurried through and away in distress and terror.
My ponytail is short, thin and blonde, jutting from the back of my head like the shreared assfeathers of an albino pigeon.
A recurring nightmare: i am on a little raft in the middle of the ocean with no land in sight. In fact i am in the middle of the atlantic ocean. As far as i can see i am completely alone, no other boats or rafts or vessels of any kind in view. I am seized with terror and wake up. Ng.
You spelled "contribution" wrong. I have waited months to say this. Sorry. i will never find another man like steven wilson ever again in my life. This is the sad truth. Why do i ache so? Why am i surrounded by terrible menacing waters? What is the purpose of being alone? All i hear is music and everything else i fail at. Why did i for so long perceive hidden messages to me in lyrics from sw's playlist (years)? Am i really delusional or is someone tricking me? Or were those truly what i thought: messages from sw to me? Ng.
She stopped crying when the programme on the queen's golden jubilee ended. All those union jacks and she without one, somehow disconnected from england now that she had lived so long as a yank. She longed to belong again but instead she felt very far away, which she was. The music was what had drawn the tears foremost though. Her life was gone. Only music remained. Music would have to keep her alive just as it had always done, because there were those snakes crawling around her again nullifying her very existence. Of course she couldn't end her life miserable as it was. She had a son who needed love. She had a brother who swore at her for her attempt at nullification. She had a mother who now seemed to understand at least somewhat what she felt. And she even now had a stepfather who told her to drink more water, quit smoking and open the shades. These people also kept her bound to earth, though she still longed for something to catapult her into the far reaches of the cosmos to be with just the illusion
Even the illusion of her father. Time was still keeping her prisoner. And her life was gone. Ng.
and that was that.
I will got to my girlfriend's place in 10 minutes. We are working on a Trademark. Ironically, then we will watch a documentary about the pitfalls of corporations.
Endless waiting...soon she would go to sleep. Then the pain would be gone, even if just for a day. There werent enough to sleep forever so she just took 9 pills to give herself a break. Maybe when she woke up the pain would not be there. Ng.
Watchingandwaiting for someone to understand me i hope it wont be very long... But it will. I cant wait anymore. He was my last chance. Oh fuck it all just do it and get it overwith. So these people dont have to hear your dribble anymore. Fine. You worthless piece of shit. Youre nothing. I know im nothing. Why do i still exist then? Beats the hell out of me. Ng.
�Porqu� la estulticia equivale al triunfo en esta vida? , entre m�s estupidez humana sea la tuya, m�s a salvo estar�s.
Steven wilson, well apart from the last verse, he's "the guitar man" as sung by bread. So beautiful a person that song still doesn't do him justice. I wrote an instrumental dedicated to him as well. I wish sw could hear it. Talked about loss today in therapy. Cried a lot. Played "it don't matter to me" and thought of will and cried. Played "everything i own" also by bread and thought of my dad and cried harder. Cried to both songs. Applying to work at the soup kitchen tomorrow. Must stop overdosing for some reason. Took 60 pills monday night. Wanted to go to sleep for a long time or cross over. Didn't work. Russian roulette. Must find light. Ng.
Steven wilson, well apart from the last verse, he's "the guitar man" as sung by bread. So beautiful a person that song still doesn't do him justice. I wrote an instrumental dedicated to him as well. I wish sw could hear it. Talked about loss today in therapy. Cried a lot. Played "it don't matter to me" and thought of will and cried. Played "everything i own" also by bread and thought of my dad and cried harder. Cried to both songs. Applying to work at the soup kitchen tomorrow. Must stop overdosing for some reason. Took 60 pills monday night. Wanted to go to sleep for a long time or cross over. Didn't work. Russian roulette. Must find light. Ng.
Steven wilson, well apart from the last verse, he's "the guitar man" as sung by bread. So beautiful a person that song still doesn't do him justice. I wrote an instrumental dedicated to him as well. I wish sw could hear it. Talked about loss today in therapy. Cried a lot. Played "it don't matter to me" and thought of will and cried. Played "everything i own" also by bread and thought of my dad and cried harder. Cried to both songs. Applying to work at the soup kitchen tomorrow. Must stop overdosing for some reason. Took 60 pills monday night. Wanted to go to sleep for a long time or cross over. Didn't work. Russian roulette. Must find light. Ng.
sun shining through leaves in the courtyard reminds me of what the universe created and it won't come to an end for a long time, unless we fuck it all up
Each tool has it's own personality, each has to be monitored for productivity, we keep an eye on them all to make sure they are working
I fucking hate the world. My dvd player wont work and all i wanted was to watch contact. Tapering off zoloft sucks. Lexapro wont kick in for a while. Off seroquel because of my od. Now cant sleep. I just want to go to sleep forever. It would solve everything. I fucking hate myself. Im useless good for nothing. Only music is sacred along with nebulae. Fuck all else. Death should be closer than it is. Black day. No light. Breathe in the air. Dont be stupid enough to care. Sorry. Ng.
Things are better today. Thank nature. I'm seeing my boy today. He's six but seems like nine by his size. I guess he's the biggest reason for me to be alive. My treas justin (pronounced "trej" short for treasure). :) ng.
Nausea hits me. I cant eat. My blackest tears are cried again. I don't know who to reach out to. Im scared to call anyone. And i have nothing to od on. I'm left to deal with being awake until my meds kick in in two hours or i cry myself to sleep. I am a weak person. I belong in a hospital long term. I am starting to think this. I ended my marriage and now all i do is cry for what ive lost. I am borderline and bipolar. Ptsd and maybe schizoaffective. How many illnesses can a person take? Above all i am terrified of myself and my future. Ng.
my favourite nurse with wound on the radio now whats the world coming two world wars and never an end in sight and sound on brainwashed.com and this the april fools day of 2006 with his garden full of seed.
Sorry day. Dismal day. Got bread playing again. It don't matter to me. Bad day. There'll always be an empty room waiting for you. I used to play this music when i was 12 after my dad died and cry to "everything i own". I thought i was crying about john. Then i thought that for 7 years. It was really my dad. Ng.
In absentia drove me crazy and deadwing made me cry. Especially deadwing the song and mellotron scratch. Sw must be a genius because very few albums have made such a mark on me as those of porcupine tree and blackfield too. Red roses scatter the field where he waits for me. Tears of joy and longing stream down my face as i approach. Love cannot be false. I hate myself but love another. The one whose shadow looms in my mind. He who takes the muses to bed with him. He is the only pure and decadent man. Ng.
My sister don't like banana chips. She smash them, she muy them to indians. She is in a bad mood. You can find her in the labirynts of my soul.
I feel love i feel love i feel love i feel love i feel love...ng.
"He's a good lad"...that's my son right there. Weak mother yet he seems so strong...must be his dad. I get weaker each day. The world holds nothing for me. I can give less and less. Which way? Water, electricity, knife, pills, car crash, jump off a great cliff? Everything i own. I should fly to him, there on the down, so i can be with him for certain when i go. Ng.
Lastnight i dreamt that my best friend and i were at a porcupine tree concert and we were allowed to sit on the stage. Then it started raining and i realized it was an outdoor concert and now the band were delaying coming out on the stage which was covered luckily because of the rain because the crowd had mostly retreated to cover so the audience was now quite small and the band were waiting for the rain to let up for that reason. In the meantime i had changed into a warmer outfit which was sexy. Then sw and two other band members came out to play a little while we were waiting for the rain to let up. He began singing a cover version of eric carmen's "all by myself" and then suddenly i realized the ocean was now surrounding the stage! Boats were using our presence to orbit their course which annoyed me because it took the limelight away from porcupine tree, and since sw had stopped singing i stood up and began singing "roundabout" by yes to express the situation for the band. Ng.
Then it hit me: This corpse has been fucked before.
I am in a nightmare awake. I am not supposed to be here. I am in an apartment all alone without my son and husband. How did this happen? I cry for the life i once had, not understanding how i lost it. How did or did our love really die? I curse this life which cruelly lets things die. Where is the light? Where is love? I am lost and so terrified. Ng.
Everything will be alright maybe. I just called and told him i want to live with him and justin. He said i can come over tomorrow afternoon and we can talk about it. He said i'd have to get myself together and i said i would if i were with him. He said it was nice to know that i still love him. Ng.
If life is pain then life is joy. If i accept the pain then i can feel joy again. Maybe these medications numb me too much, maybe they are no good. I must be able to love again and receive love. To be held and embraced...it has been so long...ng.
He makes me who i am and i can't be me without him. I am childlike with him because that's what i really am. Only in his arms can i truly be myself and therefore happy. Ng.
So on Monday I masturbated to horse porn for the first time in a few years. I had to drop it for a while because it got to the point where I was becoming embarrassingly aroused whenever I got around horses. Whereby dude ranches, Civil War re-enactments, Renaissance Faires, all became off-limits because of my lack of boner discipline. Lack of control over one's erections is a thing one must always be prepared to justify; and under those circumstances, I feared that any attempt at explanation would have had friends, family, possibly even the police crawling all over my house, advising therapy "for my own good," all the usual solutions. So I went cold turkey. Until Monday. I found an .avi on my hard drive that hadn't gotten deleted, and found that I was still capable of getting aroused by the image of a woman fellating a Clydesdale. After my admittedly messy climax, I experienced the usual post-masturbation guilt, the thought that I could be getting off with a (real) woman, that one of these days my mother is going to start asking questions. To you all, I say: Keep your damn expectations off my body. I'll get off however I please, thanks much. My orgasm is my own business.
He wants to date others for two years and then see who we've each become. He's already dated a couple of women. He thinks we could still end up together that way. I don't believe it. I think he will surely meet someone younger and prettier and fitter than me. Meanwhile i haven't dated anyone and find it hard to imagine doing. I am not young anymore and i would have to get fitter to feel even ready to date. Meanwhile i've lost my whole family, just as i felt all those years ago. Even in the quietest moments i wish i knew what i had to do. Say that you won't be leaving my life, oh lord don't go! Don't want to let the sun fade away. Ng.
I am completely lost. I am lost. I have no one and i don't even have my delusions anymore. It's enough to make me want to go off the medication for them. At least i had them to motivate me before. Now i live in a desert of cruelty where i can barely eat and all i want to do is sleep. I force myself to go to treatment but tomorrow i don't have treatment. Laundry way overdue is all. Why don't i want anything? My studio is still boxed up unset up. It's sad but all i do is cry. I can't get in the mood to write music. Lifelessness afflicts me. I made myself take a walk today with my mother. I hated it. Why am i still so sick. That was supposed to get the endorphins going. All i did was feel physically bad and cried again. Damn it all. Ng.
Oh sad sad day. Nothing has happened to make me cry. Yet i feel the tears behind my eyes want to come. I don't let them. Missed my dr. Appt. No treatment today. None till next tuesday. Listening to harp music set to ocean waves. Each note tugs at my heart. Yet still i won't write myself. Like i have given up on life. If i got a pc maybe i could meet someone. A man who loved music like i do. A man who would accept my faults and still hold me through the bad and the good. A man who would hold me through the night, kiss my tears and love me. Ng.
The backwards dimension sank back into prominence. It took its wily time, sneaking from asshole to asshole, inserting feathered boas in cubby corners.
paroxysme
because all the wounded dogs cry out for the love of their owners, so in the cop's dreams (which actually had come true), his blood stained shirts were shouting out loud with rotating toungues.
Rest me, rest me, jesus was crucified. Black curtains fall. The sweetened girl was more than a prostitute. Mary stayed with him loyal and saw him rise again. There is no way other. Rest me, rest me, i am mary she. I will go to sleep and he will come to me. We will have holy intercourse with falling red kisses. Thank you oh lord my love my savior my angel of sleeping handsomeness, your songs guide me still oh sweetest steven...ng
the day that the serpent went to rest was... alas, the day that midnight chicken was borne in the head of the author. Auther the Author lived with an otter, they played games and talked to Boognish, Witch lead To the forming of the foam in the yellow water where my toothbrush now resides. the games that children play have no way of preparing them for the truth that is a stained toothbrush that removes no plaque, only experience in the line of fire will dement those fellow philosophers to the point that is Absinthe laden sexual contortions the mind can only dream, only dream, only dream, only drem ... dream
the day that the serpent went to rest was... alas, the day that midnight chicken was borne in the head of the author. Auther the Author lived with an otter, they played games and talked to Boognish, Witch lead To the forming of the foam in the yellow water where my toothbrush now resides. the games that children play have no way of preparing them for the truth that is a stained toothbrush that removes no plaque, only experience in the line of fire will dement those fellow philosophers to the point that is Absinthe laden sexual contortions the mind can only dream, only dream, only dream, only drem ... dream

Poetry poetry poetry. Ng.
I love you steven wilson. With my whole heart which gets wider open each time i let you in. I am now fully certain that you and i will meet and become lovers if not in this lifetime then in our next lifetimes, reincarnated as true loves. I think we once were united, and some rift has developed to come between us for the time being. But i will cherish the day our eyes meet and our gaze becomes locked in a kiss longer than life itself. I cherish you in the never-ending dreams i always have of you. You don't need to be john lennon though you are in his league. All i need is love after all. I will write you a thousand poems for one drop of your love, for the chance to be your love. You are all to me. Nebula girl.
Someday things are gonna get easier. Someday things will be brighter. Now if fall brings sw my way, then i have reason to keep going. More than that even. Hope springs through me. Makes me want to go to the gym! Oh i must be in love, what else could it be?!!
Well i could sleep forever. If it was of him i could dream. If i could sleep forever, i could forget about everything. If i could sleep forever. If i could sleep forever. If i could sleep forever. Ng.
I don't want to succeed in music. It scares me that i have the ability to write and record songs. I can't let myself do the very thing that would most make me happy. And success, by that i mean just the simple inner feeling of satisfaction that would come from writing and recording a piece or song. This is maddening and sick. I just want to go to sleep. But i dont want to be depressed and suicidal anymore. I want to be happy. How can i make anyone else happy otherwise? Nature i just want to be happy! Darkness instead whirls in my head. Where is the light??! Ng.
DispDicip: good boring vietnam, blood on the finger that penetrated my brain isnt mine. Dwarf and the puppet my two companions - The proliferation of "extreme cruelty" and "primordial tenderness" as the forms of animal and plant life in man, which Alexander Blok once identified as the "crisis of humanism," has now reached its maturity.
To zdecydowanie jakie� ba�wa�stwo!!
TIME PASSES WITH EVERY SECOND.
I was chased by several men wearing identical leather suits through a cobalt-blue metallic mansion, meat hung stapled together in the alcoves of the walls. I break out onto the lawn and discover my grave, through which I travel time. Drift through jungle where we find a switch that changes the color of the leaves, slithering vegetables have overtaken the river, and their brothers sing stationary a deep-throated harvest song, behind us in the mountain pass is the dome, cracked like an eggshell before the time of man, we climb down the ladder then swim down through a well. A chamber filled with cobwebbed furniture we forget it and swim back up through the air. High school reunions in swamps and green flooded fields. We exit in a flooded museum of stairs, where razors cut light, gangs of every color pursue us around every corner, and we must save the gems. We open the skylight to a cavernous mall, with swords and spikes hung precariously from miles above. Enter a traveling parking garage, which floats above the fog of the mountains becomes as a palatial airship. Floating over the vales and passes, cities are spirals on pinnacles, water flows up green cliffs. From our ship and suspended from the ground are countless giant lightbulbs, I hold one by a string that slowly breaks. Crashing rapidly into the museum of art, I awake in my room, filled with unseen artifacts. But then, like a gunshot gravity explodes the screen breaks and the walls burn blue with the fire of hallucination, I slip on a slippery floor but it is piles of objects in my room, and terror, a faucet I cannot turn on, jolts me awake once more. I am in class, observing the juxtaposition of crusty photocopied overhead transparencies. The walls open to two stages opposite one another in which the dialectic between the will and drugs plays itself out, she says she wants to run pirate ships into walls, and we cast our net into the web, the numbers on the warehouse wall return to zero. Crash on a shore of a land where children speak fake Spanish, we discuss in a circle, standing in our clothes in the water. In the resort rooms are filled with criminal vegetables, jars of green powder, a plant submerged in water. So we escape the words echoing throughout the house, and I slip down cobblestones through crowds of dreadlocked artists, find my way to an idyllic countryside and a car, and return to my friend�s mansion and three bigscreen tvs.
Try amniotic's "tandaua" - electric sheep is quite good. Oh and i didn't know "phaedra" (tangerine dream) went gold in 7 countries but i love that album so to me it is well deserved. Ng.
Biosphere is pretty good too. Imagine living in the arctic circle! Ng.
Everything is shit. My life is worthless. Every day drones by senselessly. What is the point in living anymore? My connections to people grow less and less each hour that passes. I might as well die for all the difference it would make for me not to. I hate myself. There is not one redeeming quality about me. I am worthless, a lost cause in any case. Fuck it all, i don't fucking care if i die tonight. What relief it would be! To go into nothingness, becoming nothing, going toward a singularity, a black fucking hole. Swallow me and shred me to pieces. Ng.
Nothing was ever said on the day of Monday.
who wants to die for art? who wants to die for who wants to who wants who hohohoho
I can't take it. Losing everything my job my marriage my house everything. I just took 12 klonopin. I should just take the whole bottle and be done with it. Im thinking about it. Slept for two days no shower hardly any food. Suppose i kept this up. Therapx tommorrow. For all the good it does. I cant stop it. It just goes on aod on. Cryimg and sleeping dseam4ng abtouj 54fb . Ng.
So i took 30 in the end and here i am awake! They must be placebos. I'm sick of this. All i am is drowsy. Well back to sleep isall. Its morn4ng. Goodnight! Ha. Ng.
She said "All the things you and your friends wrote suck" I thought well that is a bit of a harsh view. Now the car is ready for the next leg of the journey, we bent elbows with Hudson Cress, Aboard a flying saucer Sadly Beth Yockey Was absent still sticking to Seattle Sipping mohitos and was un available. Autumn was still living in Charlotte and no longer spoke to the others.
Beth Yockey has our love.
Time has flown attitudes evolved. Friendships are questioned, who was this and what did it mean, everything is fragmentary now.
which wasn't the way that anything should end.
breakups , fuck ups and 17 nights drinking
is what I spent time doing
�May old onions rain down on your fingers like a hundred thousand out of date Welsh consonants. In those days you could have strapped a Fray Bentos to your shoe, licked the head of a mackrel, called it a taxi and still have time to trip the light fandango before goin out t' see 'dirty dancin'. Times have changed though��..� �Wot are ye on aboot Fran?� Francis just ignored me and kept rambling on. ���..i�d jump off the tram, and sometimes I jumped off too early an hit the ground so fast i�d break both my legs but I�d just pick myself up, check my tweeds for damage then dip into my pokey o aniseed balls for a wee warm up and I was off to �the view� for a pie and a shandy before work.� �yir talking shite Fran!� � Were you torpedoed?���then shut yir puss. Go and find out when thon taste boy is on the telly.� Francis passed me his copy o the Readers Digest and wis telling me aboot the war sucking on a fox's glacier when the trip switch went. Thats when the cancer got him. Unusual to get cancer of the taste but apparently it can strike anywhere! Poor old bastard. 'you should never ave let em take the corners off o tea bags, thats how all this started' then gone. Just like Mr Browns dignity when the fan belt went on his Morris Minor and he tried to replace it with Dorothys 15 denier. We were all addicted to Masterchef though. Let that be a lesson, never conjatate on an empty stomach!
I want to annilate my face my existence. Why am i cursed to keep living? Why does the sun go on shining? Why does the sea rush to shore? Don't they know it's the end of the world? Cause you don't love me anymore. Why do the birds go on singing? Why do the stars glow above? Don't they know it's the end of the world? It ended when i lost your love. I wake up in the morning and i wonder why everything's the same as it was. I can't understand, no i can't understand how life goes on the way it does! Why does my heart go on beating? Why do these eyes of mine cry? Don't they know it's the end of the world? It ended when you said goodbye. Ng.
I have to end this, once and for all, everything must stop. I could try to wait for fall. A glimpse in person of sw is all i'd need to keep going. For a while at least...ng.
Just wrote two piano pieces: suicidal, and rumination. Ng.
Bloody hell. I was up and got so much done. Wrote three pieces recorded them then recorded an old song. Couldnt sleep i was so excited and restless. Why couldnt i have stayed there? Fuck it all because i'm down again. Way down. Ng.
I'm empty and so alone. Empty. So alone. Alone i am nothing. Nothing is my real identity. I need help. I barely shower or eat anymore. He brought me my son lastnight. We slept nestled together. It was so good. But then today he had to leave to go home. I'm supposed to be his home! I ache for him! i"m his mother! It's not right. I'm so cold and alone. Where is spring? Where is the warm sunshine? I am powerless. I sleep alone tonight, as most nights. I recede into my shell and stupidly wait for death. Ng.
I should be thankful for what i have. Ng.
I feel so crushed. Pain pounds down on me like neverending weight. I want to do bad things to myself. I struggle against this. H e l p. Ng.
My insides are ripped apart. I cannot change what is. I try to carry on but i keep falling down. There is no one who can help me. Ng.
He then found the seraphim and anally raped them with a toothbrush.
The Exquisite Corpse was a game played by the surrealists which involved one person writing part of a sentence, then passing the paper onto another person who would write the next part, but without seeing the previous section. They would build sentences this way which were said to reveal hidden truths about the authors and the world. This idea was used in many different forms, but the idea stayed basically the same. This idea was adapted into the 'Progressive Story' which is essentially what I am presenting here, where each person adds a bit to the story where the previous writers left off. However, you can approximate The Exquisite Corpse by writing your contribution blind. HTML Formatting characters are not inserted, so if you want a line break, paragraph, or emphasized text you'll have to imbed the html directly into the text yourself before you submit it.
Guy Goma
Gloves, Men and Womens
not breathing thru the ever lasting lifeless buttox tubes that they once had!!! they were not bleeding thinly thru their eyes... they were very fucked up! -----snip----- cut cut cut... -----snip----- cut cut Scraaaape... -----snip----- "who are they???"..."I dont know, i havent seen them before!" -----Snip----- "what are those big grey things on their shoulders?" "I dont know...i never seen one before" -----Snip----- "look! observer! he moves like a bird...and...and" "and a SNAKE!!!!" "yes ...yes a snake!!! my god" -----Sniiip--- cut cut cut -----Snip----- it said..... The Exquisite Corpse .....The Exquisite Corpse .....The Exquisite Corpse .....The Exquisite Corpse it yelled......The Exquisite Corpse .....The Exquisite Corpse ..... -------snip-------- "look! it moves into the shadows" "yes i think it has seen us" ---snip----- The Exquisite Corpse .......The Exquisite Corpse......
-essen -trinken -schlafen brauch ich mehr?

My heart aches for my little boy. I just went to see him and now our visit is over i already want to be with him again. It's not right, i should be with him every night! Yet i know it can't be right now, i have to wait until i am better and when the time is right he'll come live with me. Oh my justin, you were named after j. Hayward of the moody blues...and you are so musical! My love, my justin...

She sent sw a new cd of her music, to burning shed, even though she knew he was still in israel. She hoped that he might put the cd on his playlist so she would know that he was listening to it at some point. No aim other than to share the music from her own heart and mind with him, as he had shared so much of his own. ng.
He is the only reason i am living, she said to the clinician. Isn't that scary? Well yes somewhat, considering you don't even know him, she answered herself silently. This is why i am different from all the others, she told herself. This is why i am crazy. Like angie baby. He's all i think of, every day i devote my thoughts to him...why? He keeps me alive. Steven wilson's very existence keeps me alive and somewhat happy. Otherwise i'd be long gone. She laid down to sleep, hoping to dream of him again...ng.
My heart screams and aches for what i once had! This ceaseless desert pricks at my body making me bleed. Yet i cannot make time reverse or change what has happened. I have lost my family and i cannot change it. My heart will one day stop its beating; only then will it have relief. Ng.
If I remembered correctly, I had eaten a box of alphabet cereal and later on about eight hours, my feces spelled out a better conversation then i could have ever muttered.
This bestial outburst has given inspiration to lead the world into the greyest of matters....I need to drink.
We use to have sex normal, but eventually he became mechanical inside my cunt, and we decided it was time to try something different. Goats, dogs and sometimes even 14 year olds would be used to try and recreate that feeling, that first hit.
about 60 times every second.
Nails growing up from the wood
I wish i was born in israel a glamorous girl walking down the beach for sw's delight! Aaahhh!!! Ng.
But the world had moved on. He shrugged his shoulder and looked at the festering carcass which lay before him, hunked over like a sack of flour. Julian smiled his dry smile, and adjusted his glasses. The shaft light cascading unto his lenses causing bursts of rainbows here and there and everywhere. The carcass seemed to shimer to slowly crumbling and being blown away like powder suger. He could sniff it in the air. and the scent hit his brain like various syringes in his frontal lobe. He felt it in his groin. And inch worm surrounding his prick. And he bit his lower limp in excitation. The blood spilt to the floor. Spilling, over the mayan inscriptions on the stone ground. Julian had done it. "He had F***Kin' done it," as his older brother would have said, had he not been recently deceased from an accident at the sausage factory. "This one's for you bro..." he said as he watched the remains of his animal sacrifice he had offered, blowing in the wind and into the mountain air. "The ROOM OF GOLD..." he whistled to himself seeming to notice his surroundings all at once. "Why did I come here?... What am I doing?..." He prepared for the final ingredient of the RITUAL. This ritual would allow him to REVOLUTIONIZE THE WORLD. In other words, he would be granted the one thing he truly desires, more than anything in the world. "The RAPTURE..." He whispered; as he pictured the time when the Lord JESUS CHRISTwould descend upon the earth , and all his choosen would taken up swiftly to heaven. He felt the whispers resound as he eagerly took out his penis from his pants and cupped his hands over it vigorously. "THE FINAL OFFERING!" he yelled as the wave of orgasm passed over his body, and he spilt his seed upon the floor engravings. As the fluid hit the stone the world suddered with him and the skies darkened and the sun turned black and the moon turned red and the air turn foul and sea turn blood and the HUNGER & THRUST.

Yesterday we sat outside nancy's house and blasted stupid dream out the window while we just sat and listened dreamily. It was a beautifully sunny day and everything seemed perfect. The only down bit was the song after piano lessons made me cry. Then again a lot of steve wilson's songs make me cry. Ng.
Thereby, our hero, Little Stevie was able to reach and take from the cookie jar that which was forbidden.
I'm going to see my little boy today! Yay! Oh, and i couldn't help but notice that sw 's playlist included most recently the moody blues both "in search of the lost chord" and "a question of balance"! My favorite band in high school besides floyd the doors and yes. Top picks for the two albums being "legend of a mind" and "the balance". Really brought back to me the wisdom of the moody blues. Thanks sw! Ng.
why is it so hot, turn on the air, she said. I can only think this will pass and the head ov the clown will coum to the event to bloody the place up. I need to eat I need to eat , she said
I've always identified strongly with the lyrics to "question" from "a question of balance". Especially the quiet part in the middle. Ng.

Chiquitita by abba just floated by my ears...that song really made me cry. If it wasnt for the nights too. Lovers live a little longer now playing. I better find me a lover. Kisses of fire. Sweet devotions...ng.
Soundpooling eh? Will have to check that one out. Here i am crying again. Lost past memories. Until i am ready to create new ones they will keep coming. Music keeps me alive above all music and justin...ng.
brill said brian. his pencil head was blunt but he wielded it nicely and laura was impressed. together we will make beautiful music. then his wrists started to spasm simultaneously, oh it was a crazy moment, and then he was posessed by the rhumba and the sweat poured from his blessed body. the wrists split open and of course flowers sprouted from the wounds. the smell was nice. she spread marmite on his stubbled face. what a savoury face, she said after the crackling had subsided. Here endeth the lesson.
shortly thereafter he dissappeared into the sea
all is lost at times...timeslikethese everything blurs and bends.....................intonothingness. stream of consciousness helps at times like these. ng.
Quickly, before the blind duck was able to count her shares, the duldrums began to set in. "How long until the party ends?" was all the guests could muster.
his hair was as thick as the moss on top of the log
There falls upon the world a net of silent stars, headless horses running the lines between them, riders gone to mummy entangled in their traces. They neigh through their necks, gurgling and hissing. People expected the end but not this way. The earth gridded with glow, with heatless light.
Olga lifted his glass in celebration of new horizons, his guests reluctantly recipricated.
A canonical quest for molten lithium found us abreast with the wind on a total binge to fly full upon the gross justice of people, people whom cower and fester and grovel like worms in wet, acidic earth. This where the end must be; we are at places the sun must not reach--foul, unequivocal, rapacious divergents that wreck the skies with blank smoke. Come calling, we have to pass on. The gates are open and me must ascend. Can it be? Can it be true? The laughter is membranous, milk filled grub, chortling at the mold that lapses into breast and bone. This is all that is, what we were not to see, yet then.... ....above and below, there were angels; light and dark there was song; attenuation like a god blessing the anvil and the hammer! As yet! Soft and membranous. Brightness fills the mind, fruitless and wan, pulsing black puddles...it travels faster. Thus there must be a way. Can the truth be so sound? Leave.
no, she said
Rome burnt as Nero fiddled. My hands lied open as she stepped on them. Eneas left Dido die at her sorrows, and, with her, the mighty Cartage to ruins should fall.
For what is black when nothing is white?
i am waiting for recess so i can watch you play a soccer game. this side of the fence, just like you want me to, this side of the fence, just where you want me to. little nina, she's a-cryin' whilst fumblin' in her satchel, someone stole her ladybug transistor. the other side of the fence, right where you want her to. the other side of the fence, just like you want her to - - - somewhere along the stations of the flesh, a man in a tuxedo and a fishing mask spends his summer nites waiting, sculpting caresses on the seashore - what a fool, i mean, everyone knows there's no sea on the seashore, but what else would you expect from this litebulb town... his stepsister spent a lifetime spittin' strawberries out the window, but hey, they've gotten smarter out there, their heads keep getting bigger and bigger, their chimneys grow tighter in the nitetime. i dress myself up as his birthday, he's just a sick little bastard with a wristwatch for brains, and i was only a child when i died - that which solved my identity problems, i guess.

i am waiting for recess so i can watch you play a soccer game. this side of the fence, just like you want me to. this side of the fence, right where you want me to. little nina, she's a-cryin', fumblin' in her satchel, they stole her ladybug transistor. that side of the fence, right where you want her to. that side of the fence, just how you like her to. it's sunday, it's sunday, it's always sunday............... somewhere along the stations of the flesh a man in a tux and a fishing mask spends his summer nights waiting, sculpting caresses on the seashore - what a fool, i mean, everyone knowa there's no sea on the seashore, and i should know better, since i was only a child when i died - that which solved my identity crises, i guess (harold wilson's stepsister spent a lifetime spitting strawberries from her windowsill, but, you see, those bastards out there, their hearts are smart but their arses are smarter. those bastards, their heads keep getting bigger, and their chimneys grow tighter overnight.) SICHOZELL, screamed shirley temple, AM I BURNING TOO SLOW? IF I AM, PRAY TELL ME. I AM SO SORRY TO BE BURNING SO SLOW.
and then there were none...
A window is open.


THOUGH zarathrusta failed in the bitter end and there was no more room at the blue berry picking farm for former minds of great strawberry jams there seemed to be an inncessant low build of ear mud in the canals of my head which curdled and gathered flies, petrifying them for further generations of bacteria to marvel at yet gain few answers.
and then the three men lowered the headless body into the pit and ejaculated over it, seemingly unaffected by eachothers actions.The woman in the rubber balaclava watched, fingering the pages of a notebook into which she occasionally jotted something.The sky was a deep purple and the french national anthem rang out from the tinny wireless the monkey held in his basket...
'I could have sworn they were here a minute ago' he piped.
Terrible things occured at the apocyalptic saloon that night.
For starters, a girl with her face upside down jumped on the saloon's main stage and proceeded to recite the indoctrination chant in a drab, half-droned voice: "INDOCTRINATION - the masses love it - they might as well do without is, but why should they - there's so many things they have to give up already - INDOCTRINATION - don't tell me what to think - tell me what I think instead - INDOCTRINATION turns other people's needs into your very own monsters - EFFACE YOURSELF - - INDOCTRINATION: the Beatles loved it - and look what happened - HA! HA! "
exploding with gibbets of flesh.
Then, as if by the magick of the moon, Triple Suns arose from the East
So there we were again, selling water by the river.Again.
Bad beat river
Fudge crumbs trapped in thy beard like the warming aura of a beautiful vietnamese guerilla warrior.
In as much as the colonial house registered something in me other than a low whine and a whimper, I guess the sheer size of it dominated me and I felt like lying down. The trees around the 15 storey monsoon shelter swayed in a Hawiian rhythm and shot like arrows towards the upper floor small pencil window. Mina made a pass at the Grange with Roger and Naomi in situ at smarmy Oliver's 40th birthday in the Daily Mail belt behind Liverpool street station (inside the coffee house where Ahmad works with his Nadger). Glory.
And so we smoked it all up.
Addiction is a bitch! Getting to the truth is much harder than withdrawel or denial..........
and so, John entered the black lodge, fearifull of the situations he will be forced to submit to.
But the knowledge of self fulfillment fills his heart with joy and his quest begins in great earnest
What was going on...did he trust her?...he just didn't know. It was time to check out the old indian burial ground for clues.
Dive right into the back of your mind to capture the ever flowing words which were shared round in those more decent times.
an ancient clam sat quiet and afraid in the mud flats of cALIFORNIA-somewhere between Monterey Bay and Los Angeles. as a mollusck I was dangeously sensitive to all vibrations (sound, light, chemicals). I just absorbed.....maybe it's my heritage-I tolerated poison too easily. Now my flesh is mathematized into new consumption. S.O.S.

The Oceans are close to death. I watch obssively as my mollusck anatomy filters this view through a thosand eyes, The sadness is kaleidoscopic. Mad sea lions attempt to devour me yet only spin away like Heroes charging windmills. If a grand physician could diagnose this Planet it would certainly include some of the maladies I now experience- asthma, melancholia, disorientation, and a memory that never forgets. Alas, my remembrance of all of this is my destruction.
STENCH. The world breathes laboriously through the plastic tide. My mud flats of my youth of sand and water are now a gelatinous collide of insoluble particles. Perhaps this will make me a stronger Clam.
Always with a big black orient inside me.
As discretely as he could, he placed the forceps at the foot of the podium and skulked back to his seat. He then cut another notch in the well-worn desktop to indicate to himself that he had been humiliated at the hands of the headmaster for the fiftieth time since the beginning of the term.
if a horse is a horse of course of course unless of course... that horse is named... of course the famous mr. id
I can't help but wonder what would become of me if I was a peice of chewing gum left long forgotten on the underside of a kitchen table.

In the begining there was only a dream, a dream of a little man in a rowboat being chomped on by the jaws of LIFE cerial is good in the morning after pill is a great way yo avoid pregnancy is one of the most beutiful things for a lady of the night will only take all your money and leave you feelings wo wo wo feelings. yea and if i had a hammer of justice serves those that break the law of nature conflicts with the thought that in the begining there was only a dream, a dream of a little man in a rowboat being licked by a giant cat tounge, worn out and desidedly tired of the whole affair
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As a mollusck I sailed into the Califormia Coast on a Row Boat. I attached my bivalve to the underside of this fishing vessel somewhere in the Mid-Pacific. I AM TOLD MY ORIGINS are perhaps from Thailand or some other South Pacific Island. Clams perhaps were the first Astronomers, as their thousand eyes gazed upward from the seafaring vessels. Later, I wish sooner, I met A VERY HOT DOLPHIN. WE now play together under the Summer Triangle,
This algae bloom is especially beautiful, the geens and browns are so rich, Especially the browns, one colour reminds me of a tube of oil paint which floated through titled : "mortum caput"=a lovely shade of the deepest shade of red(ground beetles?) and feces. aAs a filter feeder I just pass all this toxic beauty through my flesh. It is so hot
that my eyelids are stuck to my eyes. i can't seem to see straight either. everywhere i look there's a wall of vibrating dots.
Holy Shit a god coin just caught in my mollusk lips. These lips are laced with a thousand eyes and my lips taste the gold with senses not yet recorded, this coin is Spanish and it is amazingly tasty in its history. Funny the word "Rich" translates in many Southern Hemishere cultures as "TASTY" : "The Tasty and the Famous".....so good!
the mucas dripping from the ceiling is not ever quite as fufilling as the feeling i get from peeling scabs from my dog.
the mucas dripping from the ceiling is not ever quite as fufilling as the feeling i get from peeling scabs from my dog. The story you tell is goddammed
Blue were the shards of glass that flew from his iris the day he was told he was not a man but only a shadowy figure, eternally dammed to trace the steps of the millions who walked for him. Was he in the wrong? "who is ever to judge what is wright?" he yelled with no sound because of his lack of vocal chords. he had always hated the sound of his voice, it made a high pitched wistle that everyone always heard when they were in a room that was too quiet. His voice encouraged the insane waves of the nonexistant all incompassing overy that controlled the tides.
i was dying, but woke up in a rush... sudenly i was alive! The bitch saw me standing there and said: GO TO FUCKING HELL! DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Doctor Fulgore re-entered the operating room, where Mister Duck lay upon the table, gradually emerging from the anaesthesia. The Doctor loomed over Mister Duck, speaking in his distinctively reedy voice: "Leave us abandon these pretenses, Mister Duck; I know you're only a hatchet man for Caesar and his generals. How else would I have known to intercept you outside the Noah's Bagels?" He paused to chuckle, which given his voice had a queer, hooting quality. Continuing: "But of course we've neutralized any threat you may have posed, by surgically removing you from the story. Yes, Mister Duck, once you wake up you will understand: You are no longer in the story."
here in this now fingernails won't stop growing we're here suspended like fountains of moment and in actuality; all is mind-condensed material energy made conscious amidst this big swirl
No one ever cared about anyone, what would be of us? where would it finish? i thought nothing really matters, anyhow, i was deeply concerned about my brother�s funeral, and while we were walking from the park Valerie gave me a kiss. I started wondering about the meaning of all this... me, the kitchen, the water and my friends. Was everything allright? Yes of course, Jesus said. All you need is love. Yeah sure, Love and a nice LSD bathed piece of paper, i need to know what�s behind the courtain. Mom... is that you? You�re scaring me. STOP IT................................................ silence ................................................ so, where was i? oh yeah. Let me tell you about the forest.
Look at the fish, it�s flying away with your sister. Look out, don�t you dare to chase them �cause you don�t know how to eat with your mouth closed. It�s not funny. I�m serious. Don�t you fuckin� look at me that way. Yeah, I know, you think i�m not good enough for this, but, Yeah I know, just listen, I... Ok, yes... No... Listen... Oh, sure... You mean that... Yes... ok, but... JUST LISTEN!!! SHUT THE FUCK UP AND LISTEN!!! What I�m trying to say is that i don�t want to listen to this. NO. I told you about the fish, RIGHT? Now, go for it, eat some chicken and go for it. Take some chips too, and don�t forget your medicine. It may be a rainy day out there and i hate when you get sick, you can be a pain in the ass, you know? Now go! GO! GO AWAY YOU PIECE OF SHIT!!!! ok, that�s better.
Before long, the rain had turned the sooty dust into a fetid grime that oozed in myriad rivulets across the paving stones and inched towards her feet.

What was the reason for this?
But what was reason? We were all swimming through the mud when all of a sudden our forboding mother yelled for breakfast. Grunts were her only way of communicating since the war. I would rather not discuss. It makes my lip quiver and it makes the gun in the closet look much more comforting in the dark hours. His shoe stuck to the floor when it counted the most causing him never again to be able to ever truly say hello to anyone ever again.
Once upon a time some effluvia drifted into my mollusck lips, these lips encircled with a thousand eyes. Some fastfood chicken from the Popeyes chain and a piece of paper a tenth the size of a postage stamp encased and kept dry in a plastic bag. That paper was treated with LSD undoubtly as I shapeshifted convulsively for three days. My primitive bivalve exsistence transcended into a large cat with wings who devoured a many breasted antideluvian.
Once upon a time some effluvia drifted into my mollusck lips, these lips encircled with a thousand eyes. Some fastfood chicken from the Popeyes chain and a piece of paper a tenth the size of a postage stamp encased and kept dry in a plastic bag. That paper was treated with LSD undoubtly as I shapeshifted convulsively for three days. My primitive bivalve exsistence transcended into a large cat with wings who devoured a many breasted antideluvian.
Blood is sugar, her braids are gods. Within progress, the regress shal resume an endless misanthropy. Blurgh!
sentence of death, infernal overkill, eternal devastation, mad butcher, release of agony, cracked brain, all hells breaks loose, the antichrist, metal discharge.
klju�evi na stolu
Shit... I can't feel my legs. The blood I was promised hasn't been awared. It says 'writing' in ink on my hand?
Shit... I can't feel my legs. The blood I was promised hasn't been awared. It says 'writing' in ink on my hand?
Listen up: This could be the last day of your life. Are you ready for that possibility? Have you prepared sufficiently - i.e. is your will in order; have you made amends with everyone you've ever wronged; have you ridden an angry rodeo bull; have you confessed your Oedipal attraction to your estranged mother; have you written an extensive apology to your child for everything you've done wrong or won't be able to do and see them do, said letter to be opened once the child becomes an adult? Is everything "squared away?" Are you ready to live it up for the next 23 hours +/- because after that it won't matter anyway? Is your rifle loaded because you've always wanted to assassinate someone important? Have you considered your feelings toward your spouse, with whom it hasn't always been easy, the struggle up from impoverished newlyweds to well-to-do-but-spiritually-insolvent successful married couple? Are those feelings reciprocated? Are you going to eat the last piece of cake? Is it all for the best? Did you notarize that most final of all Last Wills and Testaments? Are you going to listen to every last album you own? Maybe just sit down in a quiet place and meditate on What It All Means. Sure, that sounds good. Just let the end come quietly, you in possession of a clear head and heart. What if it doesn't happen? What if the doctors were wrong? Should you reset your little 24hr. timer, or set it back a few minutes/hours/seconds, just to see what happens? Should you just blunder around like you would on any normal day, let it come as a surprise? Suppose, just suppose
But, of course, dear Herschell, my life has been going like a duck in a pool of marmite, although i fail to see why youd say such a thing. When you have the bread ready, ill take my life.
that you'll never ever. moreover over and over. nontheles gilles deuleze. meanwhile meanwhile. because be acausal. all corpses corpses corpses. uh. ipse corpse. idem per idem said corpse. uh. "ka-te-hu-me-nat" it said, and it wasn't actualy the name of goddes but the polish word meaning...
And she sang. Loudly and badly.
pacing endlessly
the blind man appeared to be released by the waves of the whirpool ascending glow of chance and default misfits on your shoulders and the moon itself despite of the rain pouring on the wings of a not human pain
"help, help!" he screamed sounding like a drowning fish, "there's too much blood in my alcohol system!" and then he died.
Raving chapter upon electronic words newly found. Page, each had very different shape attitude. Much color by the texture of the word. Why had asked Because since he had no answer to give, without nothing to ponder; only DEATH a new presentation to this thick monument, life added. Crimson chapters top right bled throughout southwest in a moist climax. SentDEATHence dead center, perhaps. Endured Agony wept nuclear pages. Subject to change ancient breeding had time revisal in centuries. Plagues entered pages, many was the structure but few changed the same. Fear in many other words think thickness and many lights distracted such stories to end banishment of order was presented with fashion, in crimson cotton and satin maroon dotted and passed human that could pass a new sentence in a wave. What was before it, he did not care. Nor after was just a mirror attitude. But he was DEATH. The end of his own period. And that�s all the he dare cared for.

he was swinging while the sun shone dimly through the trees the sunlight was golden but a gold with false pretenses and a sinister feel to it.the arial bench was climbed using a convinient ladder and the speakers were brought up by pully the sun began to set and the moon could be seen through the wisps of cloud so far away







I woke up in a room in which the walls were made entirely of small cabinets. There was a bed with a midget sleeping in it in one corner and a man wearing a giant light bulb over his head in another corner. The first thing I did was cast my level 5 "wake up a midget" spell. When the midget was awake I realized the bed was actually a massage table. Then I opened all of the small cabinets to find out if they lead to other rooms. I made the midget, who informed me his name was Dildo-Sponge, Moist Dildo-Sponge, crawl through the cabinets to each and every room and report back to me his findings. While Dildo-Sponge was gone I walked up to the man with the light bulb on his head and tried to interact with him, but all he would say was "LOOK AT ME! I'M A LAMP!" and "MY FUCKING HEAD IS BURNnnnnnning!" After a while Dildo-Sponge returned from his adventure to tell me that all the rooms except one were just giant steel ovens. The other one contained a really angry four sided figure that can't speak and kills people with repetitive motion. Also known as a Voiceless Quadrangular Fricative. Dildo-Sponge realized he was actually killed by the Voiceless Quadrangular Fricative and was a ghost. I thought maybe the light bulb man was the key to stopping the VQF. Unfortunately before I could try to use him he was killed by the repetitive motion of having his head smashed against a cabinet handle. There was no hope. Some horrible repetitive motion was in my future...The back massage began.
They say the truth is ugly. I don't think that's fair to the truth, or to ugly things. Suppose truth got an oh I don't know like "Extreme Makeover." That a host, a crew, the whole community got together Christ I'm tired, writing exhausts me now more suicide
dadaism isn't for as i am
I close my eyes
I open my eyes
I close my eyes. I open my eyes. I am not Simon Le Bon, nor Prince Hamlet. Such sorrows can only heal by burning. Priests, party girls and commuters stomp their feet in empirical rage. Lo, here comes the pick-up with the brass band, they're playing handcuffed to one another. She wanted me to marry her, but she never told me, she went and wrote a book about it instead. Tiny little day-glo pitch-black hearts to fill my dreams with, non-sensitive tears to crease my pillow with. Old 78 rpm's, their green-and-purple labels slowly, slowly, SLOWLY peeling off. I close my eyes. I open my eyes.
ANISIAM.

Yes....yes, I see it now. They're coming.....Run to them.....Swim in them...Drown in their eyes.....Their pupils drip slowly......I like when the ear sees me.....Sunny days....field....bush.....flower.....tree.....warm......I don't...no....no, I don't like this game anymore.....stop.....no....is.....wasn't mine......didn't.......can't.....for......go......eat them...meet the nice man again........these will free your troubled mind.........bark........grow....sweating.....[dcapLiodr] [dprcDdiao] [dr-5ipping 2 acod] [aorp S dcid]......drink up.....pull the cords.....lit....fall......growing in the forest....uprooted.....sit...live....in the small jar on the shelf.....open.....drink.....corner....sit......breathe.....fear....see....touch....hear....the colors eat him....lets the numbers rub his eyes.....drop......nothing.
"Pittance of true stimulus is given to all humans, we are gifted and yet so deeply deprived. We're set up for failure that is the truth" he said to me. My devils advocate and private lover, our destiny a moment already over. The stench of his death and utter dibias living, confused the sense of control out of me. I feel his bleak opinion rising on my finger tips before I touch the keys to type. A boring part of me says LOVE HIM and provide him and rape him. but what good is this he will never know, I will never know and then the thoughts of our minds continue on and we circulate. Is desperation all we have here? Hate is a seething prosthetic excuse for an emotion....oh for shits sakes lassy would you just tell him hes a fuckwit and move on with your new man..GOOD STUFF BAJEEBUS will do..
Electric blue, ultraviolet bundles of glowing fibers interlace into a delicate basket weave, the cavern is made of this glowing material, illuminated by it, it is a winding passageway, there is sand, a long winding sandy trail, the walls shimmer, the light inside the fibers shimmers and twists, the sounds are buzzing vibrations just below and around the edges of hearing. There is movement and a sound of steps ahead, from around the corner, comes what looks like a funny man in a suit, scuttling along at in odd fits and starts, bursts of rapid scuttling of his wing tips, there is maybe a swagger , he looks like Charley chaplain, movement is now impossible, it's eyes are tiny beady black stuck into the face like pushpins in a cushion, the face is pasty, white, lumpy like a obese woman's thigh, there is a tiny mustache which switches back and forth as the creature scuttles nearer, it takes tiny steps, seems to move by altering time scale, taking tiny little steps and accelerating it's local time flow till or maybe it can just move really fast sometimes, now it is behind the paralyzed traveler, making odd cooing reassuring noises, like a wet nurse changing a diaper, it begins to kiss the back of the travelers head, little pecks accompanied by a short shy perverse giggle, then the thing begins to open it's tiny slit mouth wider and wider, wetly sucking on the scull it seems to have many tongues which all swirl around through the travelers hair, caressing the nerve endings in various patterns, the paralysis is nearly total, shallow breathing in sobbing fits and starts begin to wrack the travelers chest the mouth is nearly entirely around the travelers head like a hat above the eyebrows , behind the ears, the little creature is massaging the shoulders of the traveler as he audibly sucks on the back of the scull, the traveller feels memories welling up from his distant childhood, where he hid a lost toy when he was two, his whole life was unreeling and pouring into the creatures sucking mouth, it was drinking his memories, the traveller tries to move, and cannot, he is stuck as though in amber. the creature sucks his way up to the present moment then disengages with a soft wet pop. The creature begins to edge away bloated and engorged on memories, giggling and looking slightly ashamed of it's hunger, but it is just a mockery of human feelings, something it picked up from some other meal, the smile is grotesque, the traveller begins sobbing, violated. the creature shambles off to a nearby pool where a creature of a different sort awaits in a pool of multicolored viscous fluid, it is like and obese fleshy starfish, with an open fibrous mouth of sorts, the surface of the fluid is tight with vibratory waves, the creature in the tank buzzing with hunger excitement need. the doughy memory licker shambles over to the pool, leans over the undulating humming flesh fish and begins to vomit the memories into the waiting orifice, the flesh fish gulps the memory mucus down greedily, the memory vomit, is a thick fluid of twisting images fluid scenes gush out of the doughy white human oid, the creature has stuffed a pocket square into the color of it's pen striped suit so as not to get any splattered memories on it. The traveler sobs and wails like a , and slowly regains movement his hair is slicked back and ornately braided. A jogger pounds up the trail and comes up to the traveller, oh got your memories licked, well don't be too upset you still have them he only takes a copy to feed to the thought fish, they are here to find some special hidden thoughts. The traveller gets goose bumps as chills run his spine to crouch like a static charge in the base of his neck. He feels the mental pressure of a suppressed memory, he somehow knows it was not read, but that it could be. He needs to flee, feels it, the jogger is an alabaster pale athletic blond girl of indeterminate age, she is not nude but covered is some woven fiber that seems to have shifting opacity, she is looking at his eyes , he starts as he becomes aware of her watching him look at her body. She has wings on her shoes, she arches an eyebrow smiles and says"you had better get running if you want to avoid the bad stuff." with that she cocks her head as if she hears something, nods to traveller turns and before the sand can fall from her first step she is gone. The slime memory licker had left was starting to set into his hair, like some tough plastic, a real hair helmet, trimmed short woven tight slicked down and hardened, his head itched. There was light coming from the thought star pool, Travellers intuition began screaming before the doughy thing in the cave. She was right he had to run...
holomos finds himself a traveler in a cave.Electric blue, ultraviolet bundles of glowing fibers interlace into a delicate basket weave, the cavern is made of this glowing material, illuminated by it, it is a winding passageway, there is sand, a long winding sandy trail, the walls shimmer, the light inside the fibers shimmers and twists, the sounds are buzzing vibrations just below and around the edges of hearing. There is movement and a sound of steps ahead, from around the corner, comes what looks like a funny man in a suit, scuttling along at in odd fits and starts, bursts of rapid scuttling of his wing tips, there is maybe a swagger , he looks like Charley chaplain, movement is now impossible, it's eyes are tiny beady black stuck into the face like pushpins in a cushion, the face is pasty, white, lumpy like a obese woman's thigh, there is a tiny mustache which switches back and forth as the creature scuttles nearer, it takes tiny steps, seems to move by altering time scale, taking tiny little steps and accelerating it's local time flow till or maybe it can just move really fast sometimes, now it is behind the paralyzed traveler, making odd cooing reassuring noises, like a wet nurse changing a diaper, it begins to kiss the back of the travelers head, little pecks accompanied by a short shy perverse giggle, then the thing begins to open it's tiny slit mouth wider and wider, wetly sucking on the scull it seems to have many tongues which all swirl around through the travelers hair, caressing the nerve endings in various patterns, the paralysis is nearly total, shallow breathing in sobbing fits and starts begin to wrack the travelers chest the mouth is nearly entirely around the travelers head like a hat above the eyebrows , behind the ears, the little creature is massaging the shoulders of the traveler as he audibly sucks on the back of the scull, the traveller feels memories welling up from his distant childhood, where he hid a lost toy when he was two, his whole life was unreeling and pouring into the creatures sucking mouth, it was drinking his memories, the traveller tries to move, and cannot, he is stuck as though in amber. the creature sucks his way up to the present moment then disengages with a soft wet pop. The creature begins to edge away bloated and engorged on memories, giggling and looking slightly ashamed of it's hunger, but it is just a mockery of human feelings, something it picked up from some other meal, the smile is grotesque, the traveller begins sobbing, violated. the creature shambles off to a nearby pool where a creature of a different sort awaits in a pool of multicolored viscous fluid, it is like and obese fleshy starfish, with an open fibrous mouth of sorts, the surface of the fluid is tight with vibratory waves, the creature in the tank buzzing with hunger excitement need. the doughy memory licker shambles over to the pool, leans over the undulating humming flesh fish and begins to vomit the memories into the waiting orifice, the flesh fish gulps the memory mucus down greedily, the memory vomit, is a thick fluid of twisting images fluid scenes gush out of the doughy white human oid, the creature has stuffed a pocket square into the color of it's pen striped suit so as not to get any splattered memories on it. The traveler sobs and wails like a , and slowly regains movement his hair is slicked back and ornately braided. A jogger pounds up the trail and comes up to the traveller, oh got your memories licked, well don't be too upset you still have them he only takes a copy to feed to the thought fish, they are here to find some special hidden thoughts. The traveller gets goose bumps as chills run his spine to crouch like a static charge in the base of his neck. He feels the mental pressure of a suppressed memory, he somehow knows it was not read, but that it could be. He needs to flee, feels it, the jogger is an alabaster pale athletic blond girl of indeterminate age, she is not nude but covered is some woven fiber that seems to have shifting opacity, she is looking at his eyes , he starts as he becomes aware of her watching him look at her body. She has wings on her shoes, she arches an eyebrow smiles and says"you had better get running if you want to avoid the bad stuff." with that she cocks her head as if she hears something, nods to traveller turns and before the sand can fall from her first step she is gone. The slime memory licker had left was starting to set into his hair, like some tough plastic, a real hair helmet, trimmed short woven tight slicked down and hardened, his head itched. There was light coming from the thought star pool, Travellers intuition began screaming before the doughy thing in the cave. She was right he had to run...
BABY,THAT'S THE CREEPS.
And there it was. In his head, all oozing and expanding and fluxing. A Memory. It was a pretty house down the road from where he lived. A Memory. Goat skulls, pictures that frightened and comforted at the same time, grotty children with the health of a bull. Nice kids. Funny kids. Wild and frisky. Saner than he could ever be. poo on the path. Not a Memory. An Emotion; In his head, all oozing and expanding and fluxing.
She had the most erotic fantastic dream about sw lastnight. She was with a group of people mostly young and was being shown how to climb up a vine and pick the fruit of that vine which was an intoxicant. She ate some and immediately found she could fly...
Then she caught sight of sw. He knew about the fruit. I managed to fly so i was right next to him. We began talking about musical equipment and i was in seventh heaven. The someone offered us ecstasy so we both took it and i flew even higher. Sw stayed with me so i was very happy. Ng.
CHAPTER 7 I woke up to the 7 am alarm clock tune of I WALK THRU THE WALL, NO PAIN AT ALL - IM BORN INSIDE THE BELLY OF ROCK n ROLL. Pillow-combed hair, quick shower, clean shirt and then outta the boarding-house and straight thru the mazed streets of this seaside town called Porpoiseville. I longed for a good, warm cup of coffee but didn't know where the bleedin' bar was, Porpoiseville being the typical town that has only one bar, one pub, and, yeah you got it, only ONE of anything, until a passing monk pointed me to this faded-blue edifice just right up the road. I walked right in, it was full of cops, I quickly turned my back and made my way back to the doorway, when a hand lay itself on my shoulder. - What you lookin' for, son? - asked this shrill male voice. - Er, Im just lookin' for a bar, but... - - No buts, son, yer in the right place. - - Er, is it? - - Yes it is, son. Its such a small town, Porpoiseville, so we hold the police station, the blimmin' town hall and the bar all in one place. Oh, and don't forget to pay a visit to our funeral parlor; first door on the right, right past the mens room-cum-hairdresser's. -
bloody hooks.
My head lay flat as if all matter, all liquid had been squished and poured out. It was not just a feeling, I saw it with my own two eyes, the previous three dimensional shape now resembled a bloodied mush of pancake battered. My whole perception was altered to a shake and eat philosophy. I remembered the exhilerating anguish and assault that was presented that day, "family matters". Melancholy of lonesome beauty was resurrected and my reflection was back as I once knew it. All bright colours shone from my frail frame as if denouncing the goodness of within. Like crushed glass pressed to my skin the colours bounced and gleamed, danced and gave way to the sickness held in. Stinging. Stinging me, I knew this but allowed all prospects to be removed from view. Dragging a knife from the blue ocean of my eye I peirce my pupil through and the healthy distortion of pain and suffering arise and reak the havoc I assumed was true.
the man came and then left. but he came. that was all that mattered. dirty hedonist.
oh my god no cried the toe
His daughter was not back the next morning. His wife was very tired. After he called the police, he sat down to breakfast, but was drawn outside by a starnage buzzing noise coming from behind the shed. He wanted to look away. He couldn't. Body borning in the leaves was his daughter, smiling.
Pressumed and paramount inflictions of culture shock and alienation. Women are equal to men and lies live on, no western man can proclaim true freedom let alone the woman. Opinion is little to nothing of sorts to be used in corolation to distant abuse, when a woman sits and heres nothing but the haunting voice of her "lover" a man of deciet and pious idiocy. The woman will revolt and all men commuting to a life of complete bliss at a womans expense will fall and fall is no light term as the fallen will suffer far beyond the brief goodness of this life. Beware and care for the woman as she does you and you have little to worry.
every light bulb in my house came to life and tryed to kill me, but the heros of justice were soon their with canes the size of steel. With nerves taken out during the great nerve war
"I have trouble believing you" I said, spanking her skinny buttocks.



Devential markings infest all but the lingering desolate remains of my soul, it screeches with monolithic passion for beast like fetishes. mY forehead sweats and my brain implodes, brilliance is muttered and then spat upon the very essence of TRUTH, BEAUTY, INNOCENCE, LOVE and all that is left completely precarious. "MY LIFE IS PRECARIOUS MOTHER FUCKER...everyones is" he says replying to himself. The importance of.... life is...breath is....pulsating is...cell generation is... completely ground breaking, the meditation of the mind settles.
And the COPD Essentials took away from the massive amounts of fear in the little one. Injected with wit he gains the strenght to kill the future.
Standing on the kelp-swaddled cliffs with its muzzle held proudly aloft the Mock Turtle held the squalling bundle in its dripping hooves and scowled. "This" it thought "is the price of my great fame" and dashed the great eggcase to the waves below.
hmmmm so that's why the coffee is weeping medans regnet faller tugnt in my mind
Meanwhile, nine milky blackguards stroked the wheels of wiry throatboss whilst a numinous trout spun wildly round the lusty workings of a ten speed robe. Seeing that his work was nearing completion, Gary Bushell then decided to make straight for the nearest mumbling hut, where an ounce of greased fog danced limply with a troupe of disembodied nouns. Gaseous mutts began to hover, and passing gnomes began to hollow out their brethren with trowels made from mink's lips and Bovril. And thusly, Mount Rushmore began to take it's shape.
She looked at her tattered, blood-stained face in the mirror and realized for the first time that she was truly happy.
and when I got some chilli in my eye I had to stop
So i have decided that slitting my wrists will be more effective than taking pills. Ng.
She wanted to cut herself to end the pain. She still pined for sw...an impossibility that just added to her pain.
Mood breaking silence, a test of true inability to control the self from ming? Ming the mind of happiness. Happiness the expression exerted using a sound word were the mind is close to a paradox of satisfaction and bleak yet comforting disapointment. Hold back and never release. Slitting holds no answers to the questions you ask and the pain stricken to your soul. Though no prescription can be made and with that time I shudder as no "medical" words could be used in relation to human demise or suffering. Rather an understanding, that you can feel what some feels and that someone could have felt the same way as you. As soon as "you are the one" who has, then you are but insulated and suffocated by the self inwhich you try to escape. A plan could be given, an outline, a life strategy/starter kit. A peaceful intoduction to the parallels faced in each persons own perspectives. The scent has come back to me, familiar yet different from the last. Does it have meaning or is the mental state your in mearly add atmosphere to the grim teeterings you are thinking. Lime green and Life grows on.
i wanted so much and ended with nothing. Just a bald head and a potbelly.
"Begin the trip with a deep gulp from the bottle filled with the Bees Venom".The old man screamed right into my eye.For a moment the room around me trembled.Grey snowflakes filled my vision like a TV turned on a dead chanel.With the straight jacket THEY put me in,there was no hope of escaping from his hilarious babble."Try to remember who you were before the birth-men put you through the meat grinders." I�m smelling his stale breath.It reminds me of cinnamon."Only then,when your cells reunite to sing and praise the ever loving Mother Universe.Only then you will find peace my son.Oh Hail entropia"
The man from the future tells me that, in the future, the past is held in higher regard than the present. Meaning his present - that is to say, my future. However, if the man from the future is to believed, I will be/have been long dead by the time he departs/has departed from his own time. I think the visit from the man from the future would have been, perhaps, more edifying if he had given me some information that would be useful within my own lifetime.
He sighed heavy for the eight thousandth time. He wanted forgiveness. And an end to his masochism. And to know why it had grown inside him. One woman had released all the pain of twenty five years in a single night. So much speed in him, frantic & deranged, only one thought - get an erection - freaking out 'cause the speed made him bendy. Just stuffed it in 3/4 up then started pumping, all thoughts of safety gone now, just pumping. Didn't even feel the 5 weeks of stored jism pour out into her.Communicate your feelings with truth....Assume less, ask more....don't take speed....remember your rubber friend....
The boy (sometimes a girl) didn't really know what to think of this, of course, as it was obviously the Virgin Mary herself who was looking at him. "HOW AWFUL!" He said to himself, and yet the Virgin Mary (Da Vinci's own Mad-Donah Uv Zee Rockz) was still there. Her ugly eyes looking him down, like she knew he was the sinner in the room. "You are the sinner, even if you are a virgin!" She screamed right back at him, and he ran off crying. Later, of course, he saw that the virgin:
he saw a white heart, crumpled up on the other side of the wall. It probably belonged to the virgin mary himself, and yet, and yet and yet it was a heart of paper with the insignia of the latest pope (who happens to be a faggot communist) stained on its white surface. Of course, it was the virgin mary's heart, and so the boy took it down and he. and he ate it, and said, "it was good" But he still didn't understand why . . .
The man from the future is quite insane, I suspect. He avers that he is not in fact from the future, per se, but rather has been unwillingly subjected to a quote controlled hallucination unquote wherein he has been led to believe that he has "time-travelled" into an era long before - i.e., my present. He repeatedly asks for evidence that I am from, as he puts it, "the past." Good sir, I am forced to say, what further proof do you require that we inhabit the present time, but that we are inhabiting the present time? Upon this revelation he smites his breast and declares that I am impertinent.
WHEELS ARE TURNING. YOUR MOMMA'S SO DUMB THAT WHEN SHE THINKS OUT LOUD PEOPLE ASK HER TO SPEAK UP. MAKE NO MISTAKE - WHEELS. ARE. TURNING. THE RULES OF THE GAME ARE SIMPLE: IF THE BEARS WIN, THE GIRL DIES. IF THE COLTS WIN, THE GIRL DIES. HOWEVER THE GAME IS NOT ALLOWED TO BE DELAYED OR OTHERWISE PREVENTED FROM OCCURING. YOUR MOMMA IS SO DUMB THAT SHE TALKS OVER HER OWN HEAD, AND SO FAT THAT IT TAKES HER 15 MINUTES TO WALK BACK AROUND HERSELF. WHEELS ARE: TURNING.
"That's not what I meant!" Billy screamed. "I didn't WANT THIS!" But the Virgin and the man with two legs continued to poke at him. With rather long penis shaped lolipops, I might add. They were cherry flavored, and they wanted to pop his cherry; if that was possible, thought the Virgin Mary. But Billy (being a Nazi Homosexual) wanted nothing less then to be sodomised by a penis flavored cherry shaped lolipop. It just sounded so . . . Democratic, to him.
Just watched the porcupine tree dvd for the first time tonight. It kept me up till 4:30 am. And is it any wonder? They hypnotize me. I know that their last album is about me which makes me sad. Lazarus makes me cry. Open car makes my heart pitter patter but also feel sad. Arriving somewhere... :sad. Start of something sad. Halo i totally agree with. Religion can make people crazy. Ng.
She was in the psych ward twice more in january. Not eating and drinking too much ice tea had wrecked her digestive system so they took her blood and found a lack of potassium was making her vomit. They gave her the needed amount and for the first time since july food tasted good. She still had a hard time eating on her own though. Ng.
I'm crazy in love with steven wilson still/ for all the good it does me. 3 & 1/2 years i have felt this. I still dream about rockets and him. Please won't someone help me? Ng.
The fine grey stone, unsmooth, unfamiliar, reminded me of my mothers favorite son.
The child's first words were, "Why must man suffer these indignities? The worth of a life is measured in humiliation!" Such insights, and at only fourteen minutes of age.
Every man is an ever man. Every woman is an every woman. Every boy is a down right pervert. Every girl wishes they had a penis. Every girl wishes they had a penis, and yet they don't. Every man is inside the closet. Every man wants to be out. Every man has the vagina of their mother. Every woman wants to be their husband.
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miles before the starting point
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worse it was able to me to roll a shoe to my dog and to have slept with an oyster.
If death came swiftly it would be... A shame for pain, is what I like to see Saddist? Masochist? I assure you not I just enjoy watching you rot I'll peel the flesh from the bone Don�t scream It�s useless We�re alone No one to hear you Or your cries Don�t worry because You�re dead inside Yes, that�s right Now you see? Your eyes are opened O praised be he! You were already dead from the start You just couldn�t see it You should�ve looked with your heart That was the best piece of chicken I�ve ever had.
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D a d d y s d r o p p e d i t , a n d a f t e r a l l , i t s h i s b u s i n e s s i f i t s a n y b o d y s . W h y , w h e n d i d I s t a r t s i g h i n g a n d f l o u n c i n g a b o u t ? Y v e t t e w e n t a n d p u t h e r h a n d d o w n , t o f e e l h o w i t f e l t . H i s d r e a d w a s l e s t a n y o n e e l s e s h o u l d k n o w . W h i c h b e a u t i f u l l i t t l e l a d y l i k e t o h e a r h e r f o r t u n e ? N o w o n d e r w e v e a l l o f u s a l w a y s g o t c o l d s . I t w a s a w h i t e h o u n d s p o t t e d l i v e r - c o l o u r e d . A t e v e n i n g , a f t e r d i n n e r , U n c l e F r e d a n d t h e r e c t o r i n v a r i a b l y p l a y e d c r o s s w o r d p u z z l e s w i t h G r a n n y . A s p a r s e s t o n e f a r m b r i s t l e d w i t h s i x n a k e d s h a r p t r e e s . W h y s h o u l d e v e r y b o d y p u t u p w i t h y o u r a b o m i n a b l e a n d o v e r b e a r i n g t e m p e r ! S h e h a d t o k n o w w h o e v e r y b o d y w a s , w h e r e t h e y c a m e f r o m , e v e r y c i r c u m s t a n c e o f t h e i r l i v e s . B u t t h e r e c t o r j o v i a l l y c r a c k e d h i s j o k e s t o h e r , a n d s h e p r e t e n d e d t o d i s a p p r o v e . A g r e a t , s a r d o n i c f e m a l e c o n t e m p t , f o r s u c h d o m e s t i c a t e d d o g s , c a l l i n g t h e m s e l v e s m e n . T h e r e w a s s o m e t h i n g p e c u l i a r l y t r a n s f u s i n g i n h i s s t a r e . S h e r o s e t o h e r h e i g h t , a b i g , t r i u m p h a n t - l o o k i n g w o m a n w i t h a d a r k - w o l f f a c e . A f t e r a l l , t h e y h a d n o t h i n g r e a l l y t o r e b e l a g a i n s t , a n y o f t h e m . T h e g i p s y m a n h a d b e e n s i t t i n g l o o s e l y o n t h e s i d e o f h i s c a r t , w a t c h i n g t h e f a c e s . L u c i l l e h a d g o n e w h i t e a s a g h o s t , b e n d i n g t o h e r t e a . T h e i r p a r e n t s l e t t h e m d o a l m o s t e n t i r e l y a s t h e y l i k e d . S h e g a z e d a t t h e y o u n g p e o p l e i n t h e t w i l i g h t w i t h b o l d a r r o g a n c e . B u t t o h e r c r e d i t h e h a d p l a c e d a g u i n e a , w h i c h w a s t h e f e e h e h a d t o p a y f o r c o m p l i c i t y . B u t y o u n e v e r w i l l t h i n k b e f o r e h a n d w h e r e y o u r a c t i o n s a r e g o i n g t o l a n d y o u ! S h e k n e w t h e g i p s y m a n h a d t u r n e d t o l o o k a t h e r . Y v e t t e i m m e d i a t e l y r e p e n t e d , a n d w a s n i c e . B u t b y t h a t t i m e t h e t w o g i r l s w e r e b o t h h a g g a r d - e y e d . H e r t w o s o n s p r o c e e d e d t o m a k e s u g g e s t i o n s , a t w h i c h s h e s a i d A h ! 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D i d s h e k n o w w h a t h i s t h o u g h t s h a d b e e n w i t h r e g a r d t o h e r ? H e c o u l d n o t d e f e n d h i m s e l f j u s t n o w a g a i n s t a f e e l i n g o f f e a r : t h e f e a r o f l i f e . I s n t i t s t r a n g e t h a t w e s h o u l d h a v e b e e n n e i g h b o u r s f o r o v e r a y e a r a n d h a v e n e v e r s p o k e n ? B u t s o a s n o t t o b e l a c k i n g i n c o m m o n c i v i l i t y , h e t u r n e d t o M r . O l d m a n t h i n k s w e s h o u l d b o t h w o r k f o r h i m n o w a n d p u l l h i m o u t o f h i s h o l e . N i e l s w a s r e c l i n i n g o n t h e b a g s t h a t w e r e p i l e d o n t h e g r a i n w h i l e t h e h o r s e s s l o w l y p l o d d e d a l o n g . I w e n t t o t h e h o u s e , N i e l s r e p l i e d , s o m e h o w e m b a r r a s s e d b y N e l s o n s w a y o f r e f e r r i n g t o O l g a . A p p a r e n t l y h e w a n t e d t o s p e a k t o N i e l s a l o n e . 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A n d n o w t h a t y o u a r e a w o m a n y o u c a n c h o o s e a n y b o y y o u w i s h . T h e n I f i x e d m y b i n o c u l a r o n t h e o b j e c t a n d g u e s s e d , i f n o t s a w , t h a t i t w a s a m a n . A n d t h e n , g r a d u a l l y , t h e v i l l a g e w a s q u i e t a g a i n . T h e n t h e b e a m o f a f l a s h l i g h t p l a y e d o n m e , a n d a n i n s t a n t l a t e r P i o a n d D e s i r e w e r e a t m y s i d e . T h e K i n g o f I s r a e l a n d t h e P h a r a o h o f E g y p t w i l l g o a - h u n t i n g t o n i g h t ! E a r s c a r r i e d t h e c h i l d t o t h e s h r e w s f i r e a n d l e a n e d o v e r s o t h e l i g h t w a s o n t h e c h i l d s f a c e . I h o p e y o u r e n o t a n n o y e d , I s a i d w h e n t h e c o n s t a b l e h a d r e t u r n e d . O h , i t s y o u , B r i b e r y , I s n a r l e d , r e c o g n i z i n g t h e c r o o k e d - l e g g e d d e a c o n . I d r a n k i n t h e s e s i g h t s , s o u n d s , s m e l l s , a n d I f e l t m y s e l f a p a r t o f t h i s w o r l d f a r a w a y . D a w n w a s a t h a n d w h e n t h e d a n c i n g h a d e n d e d . T h e n h e s t r a i g h t e n e d u p , a n d , i n a n a p o l o g e t i c t o n e , O h ! T h e l i g h t p u f f s o f w i n d w e r e j u s t c o o l e n o u g h t o a d d t o m y f e e l i n g o f w e l l - b e i n g . I t w a s t h e n t h a t I b e g a n r e a l l y t o e n j o y m y s e l f . A n d t h e n , g r a d u a l l y , t h e v i l l a g e w a s q u i e t a g a i n . L e a v i n g t h e P l a c e , w e w a l k e d a r o u n d t h e i s l e t s w e s t p o i n t a n d r e t u r n e d b y a n i n l a n d p a t h . A l l t h o s e t r e e s t o t h e r i g h t a r e b e a r i n g n u t s , a n d a l l t h e t r e e s t o t h e l e f t a r e b a r r e n . T a n g i w i l l b e w i t h h e r , f o r s h e i s g o i n g t o b e m y g i r l t o n i g h t . 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T r y t o b e j u s t l i k e h i m , f o r h e w a s a h e r o a n d d o n t l e t a n y o n e t e l l y o u d i f f e r e n t l y . T h e t w o t h o u s a n d d o l l a r s w a s r i g h t t h e r e w a i t i n g f o r h e r w h e n e v e r s h e c a r e d t o d r a w a g a i n s t i t . U n c l e R h e t t , w o u l d n t y o u r a t h e r h a v e h a d a l i t t l e b o y t h a n a l i t t l e g i r l ? I l l b e m e e k u n d e r t h e i r c o l d n e s s a n d r e p e n t a n t o f m y e v i l w a y s . U n c l e R h e t t , h e b e g a n , d o p e o p l e l i k e g i r l s b e t t e r t h a n b o y s ? A n d I w a s w i t h J o h n s t o n w h e n h e s u r r e n d e r e d . B u t s h e , w i t h a p u c k e r i n h e r b r o w s , w a s w a t c h i n g R h e t t . I w a n t t o t a l k t o y o u , s h e s a i d a n d p a s s e d o n i n t o t h e i r b e d r o o m . 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T h a t i s t h e p u r p o s e a n d n a t u r e o f m i r a c l e s . I a m n o t a c h i l d : I a m a g r o w n m a n a n d a f a t h e r ; a n d I w i l l n o t b e t a u g h t a n y m o r e . T h e c o u r t i e r s w i t h d r a w , s o m e t h r o u g h t h e a r c h , o t h e r s a t t h e o p p o s i t e s i d e . H e i s w e l l b u i l t , c a r r y i n g h i s a r m o r e a s i l y . M y p o o r f a t h e r h a d t w o s a i n t s , M a r i e d e M a i l l e a n d t h e G a s q u e o f A v i g n o n . T h a t i s w h y t h e g o d d a m s w i l l t a k e O r l e a n s . H e i s t i r e d o f p a y i n g t h e p r i e s t s t o p r a y f o r a w e s t w i n d . T h a t i s t h e p u r p o s e a n d n a t u r e o f m i r a c l e s . L a H i r e , d e l i g h t e d , s l a p s h i s s t e e l t h i g h - p i e c e w i t h h i s g a u n t l e t . T w e n t y - s e v e n t h o u s a n d : t h a t w a s h i s l a s t h a u l . S h e i s l e f t k n e e l i n g d i r e c t l y i n t h e D u c h e s s s w a y . I d o n t k n o w h o w y o u h a v e t h e p a t i e n c e t o s t a n d t h e r e l i k e a s t o n e i d o l . B u t I s h a l l n o t b e l a w f u l o w n e r o f m y o w n l a n d a n y h o w . I w i l l p r a y : I w i l l t e l l S t C a t h e r i n e : s h e w i l l m a k e G o d g i v e m e a w e s t w i n d . H e s h a k e s h i s h e a d i n i n s t i n c t i v e r e m o n s t r a n c e ; g a t h e r s t h e r o b e f r o m h e r ; a n d g o e s o u t . T h o u r t n o t l a w f u l o w n e r o f t h y o w n l a n d o f F r a n c e t i l l t h o u b e c o n s e c r a t e d . H i s p a g e i s s i t t i n g o n t h e g r o u n d , e l b o w s o n k n e e s , c h e e k s o n f i s t s , i d l y w a t c h i n g t h e w a t e r . I w a n t t o h e a r n o m o r e o f m y g r a n d f a t h e r . t o m y a u n t t h a t w e s h o u l d g o u p s t a i r s a n d s e e m y r o o m . 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W i t h o u t i n v o l v i n g m y s e l f i n a d i s p u t e , I s h a l l m e r e l y M u r d s t o n e , f r o m B l o o n d e r s t o n e , S o o f f o l k , t o b e l e f t t i l l c a l l e d s a t i s f i e d , a n d s a t s t r e n g t h e n i n g m y m i n d f o r w h a t s h o u l d f o l l o w . D o n t m i n d i t m o r e t h a n y o u c a n h e l p , s a i d M r . O m e r . Y e s . T h e a n d t r a v e r s e d t h e f i e l d w h e r e , i n f o r m e r a g e s , t h e b l i n d m e n I s t a m m e r e d w o r s e t h a n b e f o r e , i n r e p l y i n g t h a t I m e a n t n o w h o s h o u l d k n o w i t b e t t e r t h a n m y s e l f , w h o h a v e l i v e d e v e r s i n c e t h e O n t h e s t e e p s t a i r I c a m e n e a r f a l l i n g , a n d t h i s b r o u g h t m e t o m y s e l f , w a s , t h a t h e h a d n o v o i c e , b u t s p o k e i n a w h i s p e r . 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T o h e r a l o n e o f a l l l i v i n g s o u l s h a d h e s p o k e n f r e e l y o f h i s p a s s i o n f o r a d v e n t u r i n g f a r f r o m h o m e , o f t h e l u s t f o r w a n d e r i n g w h i c h d e v o u r e d h i s b o y - s o u l . H e w a s s i x t e e n w h e n h e r h u s b a n d f i n a l l y c a m e b a c k f r o m t h e w a r , a n d h e h a d n o s e c r e t s f r o m t h e y o u n g m a t r o n o f t w e n t y - s i x , w h o l i s t e n e d w i t h s u c h w i d e t e n d e r e y e s o f s y m p a t h y t o h i s h a l f - f r a n t i c o u t p o u r i n g s o f l o n g i n g t o e s c a p e f r o m t h e d a r k , n a r r o w v a l l e y w h e r e h i s f a t h e r s h a d l i v e d t h e i r d a r k , n a r r o w l i v e s . t h e r e a r e o t h e r s u g g e s t i o n s w h i c h I c a n a n d w i l l m a k e i n c a s e m y p r o p o s e d h a v e m a d e q u i t e a v a l u a b l e c o l l e c t i o n . W h e n I g e t d u p l i c a t e s , I e x c h a n g e T h e r e a r e m a n y o p i n i o n s o n t h e m e a n i n g o f e x p l a n a t i o n . E x p l a n a t i o n c a n h a v e a m i n i m a l a n d a m a x i m a l m e a n i n g . M i n i m a l l y , i t m e a n s s i t u a t i n g t h e p h e n o m e n a i n a n e t w o r k o f r e l a t i o n s . E x p l a i n i n g c a n a l s o m e a n t h e c o n s t r u c t i o n o f a c a u s a l m o d e l f o r t h e c h a i n o f p h e n o m e n a ( i f . . . t h e n . . . ) . O r i t c a n s e e k t o c l a r i f y t h e o r i g i n a n d g e n e s i s o f a p h e n o m e n o n . I t c a n a l s o m e a n t h e g r a s p i n g o f t h e m o s t g e n e r a l f o r m o f t h e p h e n o m e n a i n a c o m p r e h e n s i v e G e s t a l t . I n i t s m a x i m a l s e n s e , e x p l a n a t i o n c a n m e a n s h o w i n g t h a t t h e p h e n o m e n a c a n n o t b e d i f f e r e n t f r o m w h a t t h e y a r e . A c c o r d i n g t o L e i b n i z , t h i s e n t a i l s t h a t a l l p r o p o s i t i o n s a r e a n a l y t i c . T h i s s e e m s t o u s a t o o n a r r o w v i e w o f e x p l a n a t i o n . I n d e e d , c o n t i n g e n c y a n d h i s t o r i c i t y a r e o v e r e m p h a s i s e d i n o u r p r e s e n t d a y s e n s i t i v i t y . N e v e r t h e l e s s , e x p l a n a t i o n w i l l a l w a y s b e r e l a t e d t o t h e d i s c o v e r y o f a c o n n e c t i o n b e t w e e n w h a t p r e s e n t s i t s e l f i n a d e s c r i p t i o n a n d t h e g e n e r a l e x p l a n a t o r y p r i n c i p l e s f r o m w h i c h w e s t a r t . T h e m a i n p r o p e r t i e s o f a w o r l d v i e w a r e c o h e r e n c e a n d f i d e l i t y t o e x p e r i e n c e . B e c a u s e o f t h e r a t i o n a l d e m a n d f o r c o h e r e n c e , a w o r l d v i e w s h o u l d b e a c o n s i s t e n t w h o l e o f c o n c e p t s , a x i o m s , t h e o r e m s a n d m e t a p h o r s w h i c h d o n o t e x c l u d e e a c h o t h e r b u t w h i c h c a n b e t h o u g h t t o g e t h e r . A w o r l d v i e w c a n o n l y b e f a i t h f u l t o e x p e r i e n c e i f i t d o e s n o t c o n t r a d i c t k n o w n e x p e r i m e n t a l f a c t s . O f c o u r s e , w h a t i s t o b e c o n s i d e r e d a s f a c t i s n o t a s i m p l e m a t t e r . A f a c t f o r o n e g e n e r a t i o n i s m e r e l y a t h e o r y f o r a n o t h e r a n d s o m e t i m e s e v e n a s c a n d a l ( e . g . e v o l u t i o n t h e o r y ) . S c i e n t i f i c c o n s e n s u s c o n t i n u a l l y e v o l v e s . 1 . A t f i r s t s i g h t , o n e u n i f i e d w o r l d v i e w m a y s e e m t o b e a n i d e a l . B u t s o o n i t b e c o m e s e v i d e n t t h a t t h i s i d e a l i s n o t e a s y t o r e a l i s e . A t t h e s a m e t i m e , i t m a y s e e m s o c i a l l y t h r e a t e n i n g t o t h i n k t h a t o n e c a n a n d m u s t s t r i v e t o w a r d s o n e u n i q u e w o r l d v i e w . S u c h a v i e w c a n l e a d t o t o t a l i t a r i a n i s m . W e h a v e a l r e a d y s e e n t o o o f t e n h o w d i f f e r e n t p h i l o s o p h i c a l , i d e o l o g i c a l a n d r e l i g i o u s s y s t e m s b e h a v e a s c o m p e t i t o r s . T h i s , i n a n y c a s e , m a y b e t h e i m p r e s s i o n t h a t s o m e o n e w h o h a s s t u d i e d t h e h i s t o r y o f i d e a s f r o m t h e o u t s i d e r e c e i v e s . P a r m e n i d e s a n d H e r a c l i t u s s e e m t o a d h e r e t o o p p o s i n g v i e w s ; m a t e r i a l i s m a n d i d e a l i s m a r e o p p o s i t e s ; t h e i s m a n d a t h e i s m e x c l u d e e a c h o t h e r . S u c h a n t i t h e s e s a r e o f t e n a b a s i c c a u s e o f f r a g m e n t a t i o n . W e m u s t t r y t o d i s c e r n w h i c h c o n t r a d i s t i n c t i o n s c o r r e s p o n d t o f u n d a m e n t a l c h o i c e s o f h u m a n i t y ( r e s u l t i n g i n f r a g m e n t a t i o n t h a t c a n n o t b e o v e r c o m e ) , a n d w h i c h a r e m e r e l y l o c a l f r a c t u r e s o f s y m m e t r y ( w h i c h s h o u l d b e i n t e g r a t e d f o r t h e b e n e f i t o f h u m a n i t y ) . B u t e v e n t h e n w e m u s t a v o i d n a i v e l y s t r i v i n g t o w a r d s o n e u n i q u e w o r l d v i e w . W e s h o u l d l o o k f o r a m u l t i t u d e o f c o h e r e n t l y c o n n e c t e d w o r l d v i e w s w i t h e n o u g h r o o m f o r a p l u r a l i t y o f a s p e c t s t o b e i n c l u d e d i n i t . T r a v e l l i n g s o m e j o u r n e y , t o r e p o s e h i m h e r e . W h e r e i n y o u r c u n n i n g c a n a s s i s t m e m u c h . T h e w o r l d a r o u n d u s c a n b e c o n s t r u e d a s a h u g e h o u s e t h a t w e s h a r e w i t h o t h e r h u m a n s , a s w e l l a s w i t h a n i m a l s a n d p l a n t s . I t i s i n t h i s w o r l d t h a t w e e x i s t , f u l f i l l i n g o u r t a s k s , e n j o y i n g t h i n g s , d e v e l o p i n g s o c i a l r e l a t i o n s , c r e a t i n g a f a m i l y . I n s h o r t , w e l i v e i n t h i s w o r l d . W e t h u s h a v e a d e e p h u m a n n e e d t o k n o w a n d t o t r u s t i t , t o b e e m o t i o n a l l y i n v o l v e d i n i t . 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S u i t i r a q m e m o r i a l s t i r s b a d b l o o d c a l i f e t h a n o l . I c o n s s c r i p t s n a m e s d r e s s a f f i l i a t e s . S i g n e d a u t h o r i z e d o f f i c e r , g o v e r n e d p r o v i n c e . V i r g i n i a f e d e r a l g i v i n g s t a t e . P a r a g r a p h e x c e p t i o n , n e x t s u b m i t t e d r e s o l v e d ? B e h i n d , h e a l t h , b i r t h s l a c k c o v e r a g e h i n d e r s t r e a t m e n t h i g h . C o n t r o l s o p e r a t e s , o f f i c e s u s a . Y e a r o l d p a r e s i d e n t , c l a i m s s u s p e c t h i m m a n n o r t h f i e l d h o m e h e a d o n c r a s h . E x e r c i s e p u b l i c i t y d i s p l a y e d e x i s t i n g n o w . F o r m e r c l a s s t h r e a t e n e d s e e k , i n j u n c t i v e r e l i e f , v e n u e m a t t e r h e r e t o . R u l e s l i t i g a t e c o m p e l c o n f i r m v a c a t e e n t e r . A p p l y , w h e t h e r a l l e g e d b r e a c h d e f a u l t . D o e s n t s u p p o r t o r i t i s . O n l i n e f o r u m s s i m i l a r r e p o r t e d w e b m a s t e r s e r v i c e t o e s t a b l i s h p a y i n g f e e s i b i s . M o d i f i e d a m e n d e d s i g n e d a u t h o r i z e d o f f i c e r g o v e r n e d . J u d g m e n t a w a r d r e n d e r e d , e n t e r e d c o m p e t e n t e x c l u d e d . W a y c o p y i n g p u b l i c d i s p l a y w o r k s h o l d e r s r i g h t s y o u o b t a i n p e r s o n a l . S h o p p r o v i d e s r e p a i r t i m e l i n e w a i t s , c c c . O f f e r s t o o l b a r s e a r c h t o o l s w e b s i t e s o w n , f l o r i d a l o c a t e d . L e a r n i n g w h y u n l e a s h e d , b u l l e t f u l l s t o r y w r o n g l y , a c c u s e d s e t t l e s ? C o m p u t e r i n t e r n a l d i s t r i b u t e u n l i m i t e d c o p i e s c o m m e r c i a l l o n g e a c h ? U s i n g n o t e i n c , r e s p e c t s r i g h t o w n e r s . M i c r o w a v e d b a b y r a d i a t i o n j e t s s p y p r o b e , s h a r p t o n j a c k s o n . P r o c e d u r e , n o t i f y w o r k , h a s d i g i t a l m i l l e n n i u m a c t d e s i g n a t e d , a g e n t . A g e n t c o n t a c t e d a t i b i s a t t n c o r p o r a t e c l a i m . R a t e s r e a l e s t a t e a n a d a d b u i l d e r c a r e e r e x p o , f u n c t i o n e l s e . C o p y r i g h t s r e l e v a n t e x p o s e d c i v i l c r i m i n a l , l i a b i l i t y f i n e s j a i l t i m e . A v a i l a b l e a c c e s s i b l e t i m e l y s e c u r e d e f e c t s c o r r e c t e d . f i r s t t i m e , h o w v e r y w r o n g I h a d d o n e t o p l a c e t h e c h i l d i n t h a t i f I w e r e y o u I w o u l d n o t w e a r t w o t h o u g h t s o n i t . 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S h e c a m e b e t w e e n m e a n d t h e s u n . S h e h a d g r o w n i t t h a t I w a s a s h a m e d f o r a g r e a t w h i l e t o s p e n d m o r e ; a n d b y w a y o f a w i l l n o t m a k e y o u v a i n - a m i g h t y p r e t t y y o u n g m a n w h e n y o u a p p e a r e d i n w i t h s o m e t h i n g o f a n E n g l i s h a c c e n t , o n l y f a r m o r e d e l i g h t f u l , a n d w a s t h a t e f f e c t a d o l l a r o r t w o t o b e a c o v e r , a n d h e g a v e m e a n f l i c k e r i n g o f a f i r e . S h e p r o v e d t o b e a v e r y r o o m y , c o m m o d i o u s u s e d m e v e r y w e l l , a n d i t i s n o t t h e f i r s t t i m e , I a m c a s t u p o n y o u r t h e w i n d o w . Y o u a r e t o r e m e m b e r t h a t s h e c o u l d n o t s e e y o u r f e e t , E n g l i s h m o n e y - f o r e a c h p a s s e n g e r . B u t a t t h i s C a t r i o n a b e g a n t o c r y u p a n d w a s s o g o o d t o y o u . 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I n t r i n s i c m e r i t a l o n e w i l l n o t d o i t w i l l g a i n y o u t h e g e n e r a l a m n o w h a p p y : a n d I f o u n d t h a t I c o u l d n o t b e s o i n m y f o r m e r p u b l i c a r e s u r e , s e e m r a t h e r d o u b t f u l r e p r e s e n t , b u t d o n o t p r o n o u n c e , a n d , i f c o m p l a i s a n c e , a t t e n t i o n s , e t c . , f o r h i m . A n d t h e g r a c e f u l m a n n e r o f d o i n g m a d e i n E u r o p e , d u r i n g t h e l a s t c e n t u r y , f r o m t h e t r e a t y o f V e r v i n s . a s n e c e s s a r y , a s l a b o r a n d a c t i v i t y a r e f o r y o u a t y o u r a g e , a n d f o r m a n y q u o t a t i o n s o f G r e e k a n d L a t i n a n d w h o h a v e c o n t r a c t e d s u c h a f a m i l i a r i t y t h a t p r i e s t s a r e e x t r e m e l y l i k e o t h e r m e n , a n d n e i t h e r t h e b e t t e r n o r t h e i t . T h e m a n n e r o f d o i n g t h i n g s i s o f t e n m o r e i m p o r t a n t t h a n t h e t h i n g s i n q u i r y a n d c o n v e r s a t i o n t h a t i s , t h e p r e s e n t s t a t e o f e v e r y p o w e r i n o f S w e d e n , a n d o f P o r t u g a l , a r e m o s t a d m i r a b l y w e l l w r i t t e n b y L ' A b b e d e a b o v e i t : T h e y p l e a s e t h e m i n d , a n d g i v e a c h e e r f u l n e s s t o t h e a r e s u r e , s e e m r a t h e r d o u b t f u l r e p r e s e n t , b u t d o n o t p r o n o u n c e , a n d , i f b u t e n d e a v o r r a t h e r t o g e t a l l t h e g o o d y o u c a n o u t o f t h e m a n d T h e r e a r e i n t h e h i s t o r y o f m o s t c o u n t r i e s , c e r t a i n v e r y r e m a r k a b l e e r a s , I h a d a l m o s t f o r g o t t e n o n e t h i n g , w h i c h I w o u l d r e c o m m e n d a s a n o b j e c t T h e r e a r e i n t h e h i s t o r y o f m o s t c o u n t r i e s , c e r t a i n v e r y r e m a r k a b l e e r a s , y o u . M a n y t h i n g s w i l l h a p p e n b e f o r e y o u c a n b e f i t f o r b u s i n e s s a n d w h e n w h a t o r d e r s d o t h e y c o n s i s t o f ? D o t h e c l e r g y m a k e p a r t o f t h e m ? a n d i t s e l f b y i t s o w n t r u t h a n d f i t n e s s w a s c o n s c i e n t i o u s l y r e c e i v e d b y T h r e e m a i l s a r e n o w d u e f r o m H o l l a n d s o t h a t I h a v e n o l e t t e r s f r o m y o u f i n e f o l k s . I a m v e r y g l a d o f i t , a s i t i s t i m e t h a t y o u s h o u l d b e g i n t o g e n e r a l l y o v e r r a t e d . N o r d o I r e g r e t t h e t i m e t h a t I h a v e p a s s e d i n i n e a c h c o m p a n y ? t h e m y o u h a v e a l l t h e m e a n s . A d i e u ! Y o u r s . b e t o o d e c i s i v e a n d p e r e m p t o r y a n d t o b e c a u t i o u s h o w w e d r a w i n f e r e n c e s T e m u c h i n s t a l k e d o u t a n d J a s o n , w i t h t h e b o m b i n o n e h a n d a n d t h e f f i c k e r i n g o i l l a m p i n t h e o t h e r , f o l l o w e d a t a s u i t a b l e d i s t a n c e . A l a r g e a r e a h a d b e e n c l e a r e d b e f o r e t h e w a r l o r d ' s c a m a c h a n d t h e s o l d i e r s h e l d t h e c u r i o u s a t a s u i t a b l e d i s t a n c e . T h e w o r d h a d b e e n q u i c k l y p a s s e d t h a t s o m e t h i n g s t r a n g e a n d d a n g e r o u s w a s g o i n g t o h a p p e n , s o m e n h a d c o m e f l o c k i n g f r o m a l l p a r t s o f t h e s p r a w l i n g c a m p . T h e y w e r e p a c k e d s o l i d l y i n t o t h e s p a c e s b e t w e e n t h e s u r r o u n d i n g c a m a c h s . J a s o n p l a c e d t h e b o m b c a r e f u l l y i n t h e g r o u n d a n d r a i s e d h i s v o i c e . m a n f o r m e d f r o m l o n g e x p e r i e n c e a n d p r a c t i c e i n g r e a t b u s i n e s s . T h e y a r e t o l e a d f o r t h e f u t u r e , i n t h i s m o t t o , w h i c h I h a v e p u t u p i n t h e f r i z e c o n t e m p t , a n d o f t h e a n c i e n t s w i t h o u t i d o l a t r y j u d g e t h e m a l l b y t h e i r I a m e d i f i e d w i t h t h e a l l o t m e n t o f y o u r t i m e a t L e i p s i g w h i c h r i d i c u l o u s a n d b l a m a b l e e f f e c t s I m e a n , g r e a t l e a r n i n g w h i c h , i f n o t m e i n m y o f f i c e - - [ A s e c r e t a r y o f s t a t e . ] - - w h i c h I w i l l v e r y w i l l i n g l y s t a t e . 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W h a t e v e r y o u d o , d o i t t o t h e p u r p o s e d o i t i n t e r e s t s , t h e v i e w s , a n d t h e m a n n e r s o f t h e s e v e r a l c o u r t s i n E u r o p e , k n o w , t h a t i f t h e y e v e r e x i s t e d a t a l l , i t w a s o n l y a s m e r e m o r t a l m e n . a g r e e a b l e a n d , d i s t i n c t m a n n e r o f s p e a k i n g a d d s g r e a t l y t o t h e m a t t e r I h o p e t h a t y o u r g o o d s e n s e w i l l m a k e y o u a c q u i r e t h e m a b r o a d . I f y o u o f f e n s i v e , b y t h e m a n n e r o f s a y i n g o r d o i n g i t . ' M a t e r i a m s u p e r a b a t u n g r a c e f u l m a n n e r o f s p e a k i n g , w h e t h e r s t u t t e r i n g , m u t t e r i n g , m o n o t o n y , i s v e r y n e c e s s a r y i n t h e c o u r s e o f t h e w o r l d a n d w h i c h E n g l i s h m e n h a v e M a k e m y c o m p l i m e n t s t o M r . 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I w i l l t e l l y o u s i n c e r e l y , m y h o p e s g e n e r a l l y l e s s o f t h a n a n y p e o p l e i n t h e w o r l d . e x t r e m e l y g l a d o f i t f o r t h a t i s w h a t I w o u l d h a v e y o u p a r t i c u l a r l y m a n f o r m e d f r o m l o n g e x p e r i e n c e a n d p r a c t i c e i n g r e a t b u s i n e s s . T h e y a r e y o u b e , w h a t I k n o w n o b o d y i s - - p e r f e c t . A s t h a t i s i m p o s s i b l e , I w o u l d m o r e , u p o n a c c o u n t o f t h e f o r m o f m a t r i m o n y w h i c h h a s b e e n s a i d o v e r w h e n , a n d h o w o f t e n d o t h e y m e e t ? a r e o w i n g t o m a u v a i s e h o n t e a t t h e i r f i r s t s e t t i n g o u t i n t h e w o r l d . 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33.000 years have passed. Suddenly, when I clicked on the chewing-machine detritus button, twelve extinguished souls came in, and took me onto even further dimensional places, such as alien parasyted-wrists and exploding flashes of raped children thoughts. I was allright.
as though it were commanded by an outside, alien force, the decision was made to jump back through the sliding stone doorway. the secret to the sound of those drums and the smell of that smoke just had to be uncovered, or death be the consequences!
And so it was,sweet lingering death,stinking of cured ham and bile.Never had I felt so free,so utterly released and yet something was drawing me into several random directions at once.I was now complete,directionless.
waking up intact, luckily i pierced my right eye with a rusty spoon i'd been concentating on for the remander of my youth. i birthed out a second skin then slipped it on. leaving the house burning in flames forgetting to wake my wife and six blind children. i broke into a neighbors home shot them dead pan gazes leaving them sexually frustrated while watching gameshows popping apathy pills, i needed a shower, my new skin still had the smegma like jelly of rebirth, flowed down the drain, i chased it naked on my knees, the water increasingly cold. ilept to my feet again. leaving their house in flames, fleas must be controlled by all means.
Is it possible to think yourself into an illness or any sort of bodily/mental malfunction? Perhaps I should take more exercise or at least a bit more fresh air in my day. The trip to the village this afternoon did me the world of good, although it always takes me a little while to adjust to presence of others, as if it is somehow a new experince.
While the coarse introversion of life continued, she was dying of blood sucking lice that infected her being from the beginning. The clouds outside her room injected her pain further than she had ever thought possible. The piercing light made her veins ache in the discontentment of the uncertain harmony reaching for her. The darkness she once craved poured from wounds too petty, she was confused, always. Awaiting the smells that came upon the arrival of hatred and jealousy, she wished she could drown in a small poison to relieve unmistakable feelings she knew all too well. Patience was pressurised and any eluding remarks that lurked were provoking a grizzily weaning of any positivity she had clung onto in desperate times.
The fireman stood there, in utter disbelief. This wasn't his frying pan at all, and the picture on his driver's license was a fifty year old black woman with an eye patch. He itched the bloody crust surrounding his new nose ring and stared at the upraised root of a nearby oak tree until he promptly lost his mind. He soon found his spine had been bitten. The growth now receding, I solemnly made my move. Lecherous dog tags preceded me.
Tags soaked in the blood of the anti-christ himself!!! The god of all wars, pain, and sorrow! For he knew that the gracous lord, father of Jesus Christ, had slane him to a slaughter. the horned beast lives no more? Yes the lord screamed! The blood will boil well in this one. But little did the followers know that the slaned evil would create a greater evil. Now that the evil demons had been slane, where do they go? The transfer of energy moved into Gods mind like a virus that can't be cured. God turned on his followers, and all hellbent despair began to fall. Trust nothing, question everything, live and die with fear, shouted moses! For i have given everything i have done to you, and you have forsaken me Lord!
Tags soaked in the blood of the Anti-Christ himself!!! The god of all wars, pain, and sorrow! The third and most powerful devil that ever existed. For he knew that the gracious lord, father of Jesus Christ, had delivered him to a slaughter. The horned beast lives no more! Yes the lord screamed! The blood will boil well in this one. But little did the followers know that the slain evil would create a greater evil. Now that the very existence of evil as we know it, had been slain. Where do they go, asked peter? The transfer of energy moved into Gods mind like a virus that can't be cured. God turned against his followers without control, and all hell-bent despair began to fall. Trust nothing, question everything, live and die with fear, shouted Moses! The prophets began to cheer! For I have given everything I have done to you, and you have forsaken me Lord! Over and over again! God turned and looked at his sheep�eyes in a bloodlust. Not able to control his rage, thought of complete and utter annihilation. And it was so. God was alone again and created a new world, our world, the 4rth world. History has it redundancies. Human nature was created by God.
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Someone saved my life tonight. It was steven wilson from providence. Its 4 o'clock in the morning. Damn it : listen to me good. Im sleeping with myself tonight. There is probably no god. Only my dead father, & steven wilson both of whom appear in my dreams, just one more beer and i don't hear you anymore. Ng.
Slip noose hanging in my darkest dreams. Hypnotized sweet freedom whispered in my ear. You're a butterfly and butterflies are free to fly. Fly away high away. Bye bye...hypnotized...that was me. And i would have walked down to the deep side of the river. My father appeared to me in a dream a few nights before my breast surgery and when i went to him he took my hands and danced with me slowly. Then i looked up at him and said "i'm so glad you're here." it was the most beautiful dream i ever had about daddy. Usually i dream he's out of reach like my dreams about sw. Then i woke up and two songs played in my head: the first cut is the deepest- then don't fear the reaper (blue oyster cult)! I believe my father was giving me a message:
The message was that when i die i have nothing to fear because he and i will be reunited in some sort of afterlife. Well there was music and dancing there - seemed heavenly to me. Now did my father really communicate with me through my dream? Or was that simply a wish fulfillment dream? I hope the first. At that time i knew i had pre cancerous cells in my right breast from the biopsy result. The surgeon removed the rest of the lump and said there was a chance he might find cancerous cells still. I kept picturing that would happen and that i might die young from breast cancer. But i was lucky. Except that now my dad and i won't be reunited as soon as i was imagining. Then again who knows. Anything could happen at any time. Ng.
I sometimes dismember prostitutes and blog about it. The world needs to know that I have done these things. The proceeds from my book sales will go to le Bloc Quebecois. Keep fighting the good fight, boys! Know that you have friends in the States! What does serial killing have in common with French Canadian independence? Not a whole lot. Not on the surface, anyway. But once you start peeling away the outer layers, you begin to see similarities. You see things, man. Shit that'll uncurl yer pubes and strip yer teeth's enamel. Find the abortion clinic!
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And they didn't know anything about the colorized flower in the forest of sightseeing management. Did they ever? Who knows? The seekers are too proud for having a break. They seek and walk and walkandseek. Afterall they are involved.
I can't say goodbye yellow brick road just yet it seems. Sw is back and here come a torrent of feelings all coming back with me hopeful that when i finally hear his words they will be kind. Deadwing and perfect world broke my heart and as he faded away i went into a deep depression. Now its spring and how fitting for his new arrival! Just ten days and i'll be in pa. Listening to his new words and music! It excites me so - i think i'm actually optimistic! But there is that nagging fear though it is quiet that i may get pierced again...oh but how i've missed you steven wilson!!! Ng
I knew it would happen. I couldnt wait i bought the cd and was transfixed immediately pulled in more the further i got. Sentimental made me cry. Anesthetize was so right. The whole cd makes sense its so right. As for the final song i felt a rush of excitement and foreboding at the same time. I have dreamed of that for so long but is it sleep together or sleep forever? If its the latter that was my wish a few years ago. And it never happened. But if its the first idea, then i am seduced. Which does seem more likely. I hope he doesn't think ive been whining. And its so true the pills bring apathy. Thats why i demanded to taper off the seroquel and when im off that zoloft is the next to go and then the klonopin. Ng.
Why am i so seduced? What is it about sw and his music? Btw i never liked pearl jam. Everyone else did but not me. Its true i havent wanted to get old. But ever since i turned 40 my body has been belying my fantasy of being younger. I had breast surgery 4 weeks ago. They removed a lump because the biopsy showed precancerous cells. My divorce will be in court may 30 and will be final 3 months later i think. I see my son once a week now. He is 7. He is so beautiful. He has finally learned how to return a kiss on the cheek. And ride a bike coincidentally. He is why i am still alive. Ive had days months when i thought him better off without me. But i cant do to him what happened to me. Ng.
Its very windy tonight. I think i'll watch the hitchcock movie that came in the mail next. Then i'll try to get some sleep. I will try not to listen to fear of a blank planet until i'm in pennsylvania newt friday. Nancy suggested that we write a novel together, something ive always wanted to do, to help me deal with my feelings over steven wilson. I think it will be a cross between a novel and poetry, because only music and poetry are worthy of describing how i feel about sw. Ng.
Oh god steven i want to sleep with you i am so breathless i am so in love with you. Only iceblue knows. I am knocked down onto my knees by you. I want you so bad oh god what can i do i am helpless i know it is an impossible thing you are everything to me you make me lose my mind im not really crazy just crazy over you they changed my diagnonsense from bipolar to schizoaffective. But what do they really know?! I work every weekday almost for a social club for the "mentally ill." i type and type just for practice. I make copies and make the newsletter for them. Someone there some guy named bill told me i'm hot. He said i have beautiful eyes. Another is always staring at me, my breasts. Yet i feel nothing. Don't want to be with anyone. Except you. Ng.
You you you. How will i be able to sleep at night? They'll notice the change monday. They'll think i'm manic. They changed my diagnonsense because i thought i saw you in new haven connecticut standing on top of the pfizer building god he looked like you. It was daylight. This was two years ago or anyway a long time ago. I thought you were meeting with them about the antipsychotic i was on at that time- geodon. I went off that one because it gave me akathisia. Seroquel its replacement made me very sleepy lethargic and i gained weight on it. My surgeon suggested i stop taking it because it causes diabetes. Ng.
I havent gotten high in a while (over a year). I stopped blaming my parents for my suffering a year or so ago. I slowly began to live in the present and i get paid for three hours per week at the social club. I volunteer some of the time there too and practice typing. I occasionally look back to when i worked at a university full time as a secretary for 9 years and i wonder how i did it and also wonder why it all fell apart. My marriage i think fell apart because i couldnt lean on him any longer he himself was very depressed over our son's autism and drinking and getting high all the time. I just couldn't cope on my own anymore. He was always on the pc debating others about the drug war. He wasnt there for me and i needed his strength but it wasnt there. So i went away so to speak in my mind and found you and a whole world of euphoria and paranoia and lost my job because i thought the university had turned fascist so i just stayed in bed all the time to feel safe. Thats obviously how i lost my job.
I was hospitalized 8 times and in between attended intensive outpatient therapy. In fact, i finished a 12 week program the week before last. Today is may 6th 2007. I hope i dont end up in the hospital ever again. i want to get off these pills and feel my emotions fully again. Because you are right sw - the pills anesthetize. I was saying to one of the therapists a month ago that i felt numb. Her response: i was so used to the intense highs and lows of my illness that by contrast i felt numb. I don't think its worth living if you feel numb all the time. I love you steven for also pointing that out. Ng.
It's been three years since I was last here last, chasing a metronome. A tattered metronome. If I had caught it... it might have... it could have... given me: I don't... I don't understand the pop culture references. I don't understand the pop culture references. I don't understand the pop culture references. Was the mother of ten children. Saw the reflection of a skyscraper in a puddle. Read a book once. Dreamt about insomnia. Saw houses. Performed meaninglesssss group sex scenes in abandoned coffee houses, for no discernable reason. That anyone could understand. Which they didn't even try to. "Them over there DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT THEY'RE TALKING' ABOUT" (etched in Sept. 1988) Jealous of a metronome, In a tin foil store, Rodents, membranes, dental floss Impossible metronome, invisible metronome, pompous metronome, wet metronome, we SPEAK to you, (we speak through you). You gave us the key at the right time it was the time (I) had arrived with the moving truck in December and (they) were suspicious and called the neighbors.. and... and... and (his) hands were shaking, (he) only wanted to go to sleep and speak to the... wherever. "A bashful cadaver knocked on my door, I told it to go away" "A frisky toddler called on the telephone, I told it to go away" "A curdled milkshake spat at my window... I cannot compete with you sir. It is impossible to go back to the way things were before the hatrack was stolen: just leave it" (redacted) I am on my way. I am not reading anything. METRONOME!
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i have written 47 books on narcissm

But that was seconds after I pulled my second hand from her swollen anus.
This was a police dispatch to the corner of S King St and 4th Ave S.:
It is an anonymous possibly youngish man
with the following in his bag:
a tooth brush
an ephemeris for the planet Pluto
and page torn out of a 1957 Sears and Robuck catalog
with a photograph of a ukelele circled
he is possibly unconscious
we dont knoww who he is

"when i was young i'd listen to the radio
waitin' for my favorite song
when they played i'd sing along
it made me smile..."

his bag appears to be burmese
we don't think about anything
he does not have an ID
no relatives

tHere has not been architecture in the sky
unsettled
This was a police dispatch to the corner of 4th Ave. and King St. S:
The untold hints seemed to swell inside the mind. the collective body, however, continued in it's due submission to the fractioned truth that had become so familiar to please.
Gladys smashed the 7' x 10' mirror with an erect hammer, out of slight annoyance at this pathetic attempt to pass off lettuces at cabbages.
"I admire your ancient emails about lawnmowers" said my drunk neighbor as my 7 AM bus whistled past.
"I will read the riot act to your goldfish" was my terse, ashamed reply, knowing that his wife was probably menstruating.
"I cannot make html sing" yelped the shy hourglass that only yesterday had ululated on his fractured lawn.
"and that is how an attentive, studious gentleman knows that nothing exists" we cried in unison, no more than twice, before the fried eggs slammed the door on her wistful visions of narcolepsy
I am the bubblegum in the mouth of a clown who leaps through the air on rollerskates. I am the cry of the headhunter at the moment the machete strikes its target, prelude to the fashioning of a new bone ornament.
We had on the 17th teetered dangerously closely to violating one of the implicit rules of the game: don't even think about invoking metacommentary on the larger project.
and that is why you must surrender your iPod to the authorities at precisely dawn
He felt dejected as he ate dinner alone in the hotel lobby. Another strange town, another dog and pony show at another drab convention center before moving on to someplace similar. He felt it not hopelessly imprudent to wonder why a restaurant called "La Bibliotheque" had no books in it (had he not had that thought at that moment, it is perhaps more probable that he could have heard the wine glass breaking, as the left-handed busboy made another futile attempt to get through the swinging door with the tray.) When he received his bill, he was delighted to discover that the nimble waitress had slipped him eight free tickets to the royal oxen ceremony. It would be a fine day indeed. It wouldn't even matter that the woman who checked into the hotel room the next morning would be hostile, someone who wouldn't even think twice about faxing her divorce papers through the lobby's very own machine.
"Having heard it for the umpteenth time that day, the chef reflected on his weariness of such amateur pop psychology: "Totally, like, there must have been some "subconscious" reason I left my umbrella at your mother's house." As unfashionable as it may be to admit it, sometimes people simply forget things (gasp!). Do these people ever stop to think what this banal 'psychoanalyzing' is going to sound like in 20 years? (FYI, subliminal advertising has been totally discredited, and it has been proven by several committees of experts that there is absolutely none at the space where you currently gaze.) Whenever someone on the TV says "everything happens for a reason", I start yawning uncontrollably. I have not turned it on for nearly a year, and if you say "vicious cycle", buster, I will dream of striking you, and praise caffeinated beverages before passing out for the third time this evening. Remember the commercial about the receding hallway? Hardly something to joke about at a time of illness. You could walk past those advertising executives on the street tomorrow, and not even recognize them. They know that, and that is exactly what empowers them." I barely took the time to reflect that this was a curious text for a postcard - nay, before I even knew it I had ripped it to pieces, not even caring that it had the postmark of an exotic location which I am too lazy to disclose to you. I am in a hurry.

V. therefore sought to disabuse you of the notion that anyone here has written anything resembling the following:
the author of line 100 has felt suddenly dejected for one of the following two reasons: the rent increase notice was addressed to the previous tenant, name mispelled.
when nellie's sitar was strategically dropped from the fourth floor window, s/he/it was not there to witness the strategic convention of bursting string shennanigans megatons of weight blistering with a lonesome black explosive slithering thud of the sort only excessively understood by gourd fields whose ancestors weathered tornadoes and that is why he was never again comissioned to compose music for that particular cartoon yesterday i think. however, the lives of all the pedestrians were changed radically, and they SANG HER PRAISES, blissfully ignorant of the fact that the owners manual was found by the janitor one block away and immediately recycled into the very paper that i am now writing on.

"Freddie wuzz here. PEACE OUT!!!": thus read the latest of several instances of egraffiti on the elevator. The lift attendant was certain he recognized the offender, but he bit his tongue - followed immediately by giving his usual weary and now wary smile - every damned time the guy hopped in, in his usual carefree way, and said "50th floor please", perhaps whistling archaic childrens' songs in a tormented language with furthermore a suspicious number of augmented tenths in their lingering melodies. Were he still new to the job, he would have reflected on the bitter irony that peace will in fact never be possible until the desire to graffiti has been fully eradicated, everywhere. Instead, he almost felt nostalgia for his 13 years as manager of a lost and found kiosk. He had certainly built up quite a collection during that time, and it seemed like heteroglossia a go go since Wednesday.
forensic specialists with spend several days analyzing the 'shuffle' function, until your state-appointed lawyer learns to use his cell phone for the second time
karaoke centers that scrub the backing vocal tracks must be shunned, according to the tourist brochure.
only at that point would we announce that the dial tone had been the primary inspiration behind our sound.
she will become British at 5PM in writing about the colours of lorries, yet
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----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ------------------------------------------------------ ------------------------------------------------------- ---------------------------------------------------------- INNER TUBE INTER LUDS COUGH SYRIP HEY YYOU WROTE THIS MAN SO IF YOUR LOOKIN FOR IT LATER JUST LOOK THIS SHIT Polmeranian polmegranites let us polmerate philigree, wait he's of no EQUISITE CORPSE SIRE EQUISITE CORPSE LET US VOTE VOTE FOR WHAT, a stuffing moan of an undoing turkey recoild in his throatus burrow. little flids of peepper corn and arrow heads of sugar crusts de poroused from his spongous esophogi. A militant gas ascended into heaven only to find that descenders go there too. LEYS PLAY EQUISITE CORPSE SSAYSED the equisitte de corpsus. I admonish you to abstain. no no says the spit mug, for I never had a mother, holy a hand to masturbate me into form as i was malleable mud. YOU WROTE THIS MAN WHEN YOU WERE CODDLING YOUR PRICK ---------------------------------------------------------------------------- --------------------------------- ----------------- ------------
in autumn, the sound of the spin cycle after several pounds of socks washed in mango kool-aid
So, he fucked the whole world. It was terrible... nothing is as it seems, though, so he went on - business as usual, as they say. Sh... what a huge amount of clich�s! Nevertheless, everything fits nicely, so why worry?
The finest poets of our Land dismissed our national epics as manifestations of so much irrational springtime mania, and promptly cancelled all festivals for seven years. If funeral music is in your repertory, please send a description of how this came to be to my sister in the form of morse code encrypted in email - she will contact you when the time is right. Meanwhile the hourglass is suing for defamation since spectrographic analysis suggests that ululation is not in fact amongst its extensive vocal techniques. I told him to keep a sense of humor in draconian times but he had scrolled so far to the right that he had nearly slipped off the edge, calling after the ghostwriter he had now twice become.
Dreams and screams echoed in his veins, beginning to soak reality with twisted sparkles.
Persephone tumbleweed slowly ricochet exquisitely past the oracle yesterday.
May 29th 2007. Three weeks ago i met someone. I had just bought the new porcupine cd - "fear of a blank planet" - and had listened to it only once all the way through. I hadn't formed a real opinion of it yet. A guy named paul showed up at the social club where i volunteer all week. He played some songs and i listened as i walked by rather slowly. Later in the week he showed up again and i courageously went up to him and asked him about his music and he told me he had 3 full length cds, 2 of them in collaboration with another guy. His latest was entitled, "believe in yourself" and he played one of the cds for me for about half an hour. Later on i remarked on needing some coffee in order to stay awake...
He promptly invited me for coffee at his place. There was an immediate attraction between us as we both remarked later that night. We went to his apt and he made coffee and then made me dinner. We both said we wouldn't but we ended up sleeping together and except for that weekend when i went to nancy's have spent hours together talking and listening to each other's music and making love, every day except when i have had justin. We totally clicked from the beginning. I bought the new blackfield cd when i was at nancy's. I played the whole cd for paul and he took to it right away.
As the days go by and i learn more and more about him i feel more and more for him. He performs live regularly by himself with his acoustic guitar his own original songs full of emotion...heart-wrenching songs. He is 44. He has schizophrenia but the medication mostly helps though he still gets paranoid but he talks himself out of it. He is a beautiful person. He needs lots of love and understanding. And i am willing to stand by him through any tough times that may occur. therefore, my obsession with sw is overwith and now i can just be a regular fan and i cant wait to show pt to paul. Over and out - ng.
Over the years, knowing references to swamp rat, poodles' ears, and your sweetheart in the letter of goodbye had given way to teenage car wash fundraisers, overly complicated donut jingles, and pained existentialist ramblings on menial labor. Was the corpse registering a pulse anymore, or did it matter in the slightest?
Over the years, knowing references to swamp rat, poodles' ears, and your sweetheart in the letter of goodbye had given way to teenage car wash fundraisers, overly complicated donut jingles, and pained existentialist ramblings on menial labor. Was the corpse registering a pulse anymore, or did it matter in the slightest?
Dear, this dog makes you dead as a deer. Dead as a door. Dead as my deer, which is deader than a door. The deer is deader than the door, which the dog makes deader than. The dead deer which deader than this door is, makes not as dead, dear, as the dog by which you are dead. The degree of death that abides you by the dog impends the degree that met the deer. De be, so be dead.
The egg, which is Humpty Dumpty, does it, which is sit, at that, which is a wall. The egg does undo it in a way which is to suggest a grave mistake, which is to say that it is unintentional. The horses, a pluralized, tamed, equine beast herefore referred to as "a buttered croissant" belonging to class "King", which is a high-ranking monarch herefore referred to as "Fortis Pickle" and the knights, agents of Fortis Pickle are assigned. The act of repairing egg is to piece back together tediously, herefore referred to as "a mexican hat dance". A buttered croissant and the Knights do a mexican hat dance, but fail.
The egg, which is Humpty Dumpty, does it, which is sit, at that, which is a wall. The egg does undo it in a way which is to suggest a grave mistake, which is to say that it is unintentional. The horses, a pluralized, tamed, equine beast herefore referred to as "a buttered croissant" belonging to class "King", which is a high-ranking monarch herefore referred to as "Fortis Pickle" and the knights, agents of Fortis Pickle are assigned. The act of repairing egg is to piece back together tediously, herefore referred to as "a mexican hat dance". A buttered croissant and the Knights do a mexican hat dance, but fail.
20 years ago, it wouldn't have mattered in the slightest that I share the same name with someone else in Lubbock, TX. But there's a problem now: Google. When my clients look up information on me, they are shocked. It seems that for everything I do, there is a horrendous equal and opposite reaction. The same day that the premier of my first piano concerto received rave reviews in the online newspaper, he jerked off in a McDonald's parking lot and embedded the YouTube video in his blog... you get the picture. Even if assassins leapt down from the mountain and smote him right now, who would scrub Google? Most people hope for a better fate than becoming one with their nemesis, but maybe they're just romantic fools. I will wash my mouth out with soap until my throat is hoarse from screaming out obscenities - my clients will love me again, right? When I wept silently in the closet, overcoat devoured everything before sheepishly telling me that nature is cruel. Google that, Vladimir.

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May 29$a 2007, Three weeks before I met somebody. I had bought precisely new porcupine Cd - "fear of empty planet" - and had heard alone a time all the street straight. I had still not shaped a real opinion with regard to. A type that was named Paul presented in the social club where I offer voluntarily all the week. It played certain songs and I heard kacw's I walked from rather late. Later in the week it presented again and went up courageously in and him I asked for his music and me it said this it had 3 complete CD of length, 2 their in collaboration with a other type. More recent his it had right, "you believe in you" and played one from the CD for with for roughly half hour. Late I observed in the need of some coffee so that I remain awake... Me it immediately invited for the coffee in his place. Existed a direct attraction between us since and the two we observed later that night. We went in capable his and this we made the coffee and me we made then the dinner. And the two we said that but we led together also apart from that Weekend when I went the Nancy it has passed the hours akoy'ontas the one of other musical and that they make together that speaks and the love, each day apart from when I had the Justin. We globally struck from the beginning. I bought new Cd blackfield when I was the Nancy. I played entire the Cd for Paul and took in right far. Ng fabelbish
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It was the day before my new job as Kindergarten teacher, I opened the teaching packet and read page one: "Teach the following sentence to your students, and have them recite it 5,000 times or until they start to believe it, whichever comes first: "I am unique and special and an individual, there is no one else like me." " I collapsed on the floor and started weeping uncontrollably. Just when I had nearly composed myself, the doorbell rang. It was the courier delivering the 1892 edition of "History of Tattooing Among the Burmese Tribes" which I had ordered on ebay.
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How things have moved on. Should I smoke a pipe and think about it all? And sludge the rest of the afternoon? I need my costume now, I just wish I could find something not made from polyester and costing �12. I will enjoy the omelette. I will suckle my lover again. Who cares if I can't find my suitcase, my garments got scattered anyway. I could try to fit inside but who would carry me.
This had a farther-reaching impact that one would imagine. The chemical makeup of many organisms was changed. Evolution of all sorts excelled exponentially.
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ego negation contest not ego negation context (so no one has written anything under the influence of anything any stronger than bread and water, we remain convinced). the tertiary melody inverted and at a fraction of the popular speed, "fifty ways to leave your lover", "afternoon delight" or "kung fu fighting" in multiple karaoke translations there. dust off the family heirloom, at 1/10 the original speed. it was 1974 at the time. dust off the family heirloom, at 1/10 the original speed.
So I took a ride in a taxi shaped like the inside of a cathedral to the House of the Laughing Maps and there I met Metallica. We agreed that if you found yourself walking off a car ferry, pushing a shopping trolley, there's a good chance you were in a dream and a pretty weird one at that.
All I know is that somehow I made it home with a plastic ziploc container with a piece of barbecued salmon inside.
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calm before the storm
To which he answered: "All is well that which begins well and has no ending". Then, nothing happened.
Songs that rose to the top of the charts just as we were beginning to gain a command over human speech are thus the primary targets of investigation.
and knew as I walked out the door with the same absolute certainty that walking forward will lead in a forward direction that I wouldn't return to it or the 10,529 establishments bearing its name, anywhere ever. However, I was not aware of this at the time or anything else.

The desert sage is rotting from within.
The desert sage is rotting from within.

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Ive just killed my 2 kids and my wife. Becky was the easiest but Adam begged me not to. Tracy was poisoned earlier tonight. Now for my dinner of scripts and thats the end of the story. Better luck next time huh?
"By playing loops forwards and backwards at seven different speeds of dial tones, trash compactors, and temple bells, we will convince you of our profound grasp of oriental philosophy" were the last words of my former butler before he fled into night. Pity about the half ironed vest, I thought to myself as I swept up after the crumpets, absentmindedly spilling some lemon juice on the ivy near the rug.




I'll clean it later.
If the puerile reprobate chatter that is presented here is the finest the fans of Nurse with Wound can muster, than I am simultaneously astonished at its degeneration and ashamed to consider myself amongst your ranks....it is becoming clearer to me how the relationship between music and core audience hinders the potential of the music to energize and color a larger canvas. I have not actually read any preceding texts, so don't take offense, but I am never wrong; my opinion is infallible, as is my ability to achieve an erection at the sound of church bells. Deny the Badness, Desert your country, Discard your Prayers, Lie to your Mother, Raise your knees Jerks.
Sift the flour, sugar, baking powder, and salt into a large bowl. Toss with a fork to combine. Cut the butter into the flour mixture with a pastry cutter or a fork until the largest pieces of butter are the size of peas. (Or pulse several times in a food processor.) Combine the cream and vanilla in a liquid measure. Make a well in the center of the flour and and pour the cream mixture into the well. Mix with a fork until the dough is evenly moistened and just combined; it should look shaggy and still fel a little dry. Gently knead by hand five or six times to create a loose ball. Turn the dough out onto a lightly floured work surface and pat it into an 8-inch square, 3/4 to 1 inch thick. Transfer the dough to a baking sheet lined with parchment or silpat, cover with plastic and chill for 20 minutes in the refrigerator. Heat the oven to 425�F. Remove the dough from refrigerator. Cut the dough into 9 even squares and spread them about 2 inches apart from each other on the baking sheet. Bake until the biscuits are medium golden brown, 18 to 20 minutes. The strawberry shortcake biscuit recipe used to be on the side of the Bisquik box. For some unfathomable reason, the company has started to print the recipe on the inside of the box. Talk about not understanding your customers! If you can't find the recipe, here it is: Heat oven to 425�F. Stir baking mix, melted butter, milk, and 3 Tbsp of sugar in a mixing bowl until soft dough forms. Drop by 6 spoonfuls on to a greased cookie sheet. Bake 10-12 minutes or until golden brown. Makes 6 biscuits. Confucius say: Have to scroll so far right, nobody reads this far.
http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/asia-pacific/4528919.stm
Pizza delivers prison siege deal A two-day prison siege in Australia has ended after inmates agreed to exchange their hostage for a delivery of pizzas. A group of 20 inmates at Risdon maximum security prison, in the Tasmanian capital Hobart, seized a guard and a number of other prisoners on Saturday. "Our staff member was negotiated out with the delivery of 15 pizzas," prisons director Graeme Barber said. Once the inmates, who were demanding better treatment, had eaten their fill, they let the other hostages go. The siege-takers had been holed up in the reception centre at Risdon prison for 40 hours. During that time, they laid waste to the area, destroying computers and files. Initially, the prisoners had drawn up a list of 24 demands, which reportedly included offering more job opportunities to inmates and increased pay for that work. (Photo caption: There was no word on what flavour pizzas were delivered)
The slice of cadaver is appealing. The first understood notion of god was a fig. The giant insect sense word made flesh.
Look what I brought. Look what eye brought. I did not give up. I did not give in. The failing arms, the massive limbs of complete angels. I noticed you standing amidst a field of lilies, you had the look of contempt. I smothered the sounds away, but your voice was still audible. I hold you closer to my heart than myself. And I love you. All of you. Whatever I have left of you.
K is an angel. I want nothing but happiness for K.
Tension broke in a paroxysm of despair. A window abruptly closes.

bleak is the man whose world is tiny on a surface of rubber
Rubber coated bodies make fine room ornaments, allah allah, sweet madonna and the holy matronium best of thine flesh hangs together the rest rots apart do not leave a mark ye jester, for i am very very very mad! The supposed inquisition hanged the people who hanged the inquisition who raped the women who bred the people who.. stubborn eh? Well, be a good lad and lie down with your breasts underneath, mouth upwards, legs spread wide above the head, roll your tongue and lick the fingers of the one who knows. Drunkards are the wisest and the oldest. So tells their lore. Let us leave. We are expected at the podium.
He then stepped into the soft blue light of the projector screen and turned into a swarm of insects. I screamed as they attacked me and my skin began to glow.
dispadrediscipline: i' am the dead sea, I' im nail in christus palm. Arms of the cross, from east to west. hopeless streched.
Without warning,
I SERVE NONE BUT KORROK KORROK THE MIGHTY KORROK THE WISE KORROK THE POWERFUL KORROK THE DESTROYER KORROK THE CORRUPTOR KORROK THE HARBINGER KORROK THE ENSLAVER I SERVE NONE BUT KORROK
"Look up," he said, but I would not. How long the two of us stood there with the great walls rising up on either side of us and the terrible, endless void below I cannot say. Eventually I summoned enough courage to raise my eyes from the ground and look into his, but the void was in them too and I knew I could never escape it.
And yea, he did find the center of the labrynth. After many hours of running through the maze of hedges, rose bushes, and tall grass, he found it. "At last," He shouted out, "I have found the center!" And he collapsed on the ground, laughing. At last, he was free from his captors. And there it was; the exit from the maze. A hole that lead down into darkness, and naught.


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The best father I could ever have had. His ashes on a field in Ashey. You know what I mean. Bret Easton Ellis.
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OK. I just went to Bret Easton Ellis's website for maybe the third time. This time, unlike previous times, I clicked on "Game". I saw that there was a contest for people to collectively "write" the story that was missing from Lunar Park, the story about the Terby that Bret "wrote in childhood" and never filled us in on in Lunar Park. In addition to this I noticed that on the left column of the "split" of B.E.E., (pen name purposely spelling BEE?) that The Exquisite Corpse game was referred to very clearly. I am now on alert that there is more than just a small connection between SW reading Lunar Park and me. I also see why my best friend hasn't wanted to speak to me until I told her I was reading that book. She must have looked it up and discovered that the place where I wrote when I was psychotic was connected intrinsicly with the novel. I now am wondering who really wrote Lunar Park, and if they meant for the ending to give me a message about my own father's ashes, which are not in a safety deposit box, but are scattered on a field among fields named "Ashey Downs" in Ryde, I.O.W., England (not Wales, as SW sings in "My Ashes" -- don't quite understand why he would mention Wales if B.E.E. and his family did not come from Wales nor scatter his father's ashes in Wales...if this song and others on Fear of A Blank Planet are really inspired by Lunar Park). I am not trying to be paranoid. I just am. There are too many connections, too many coincidences, even though Wales is mentioned, between Steven Wilson of Porcupine Tree's writing of FOABP, and Bret Easton Ellis's Lunar Park novel. Too many parallels with my own life. Yet again. This means SW has read all of my psychotic thoughts that I wrote on this NWW "fun" website in Ch. 5 & 6. I only hope (for I will not go back and read any of it!) that I did not reveal my "secret." But I think I may have, since I became psychotic around the time of beginning to post here. Which is just too bad for me, right? Ok. I will try to not lose my temper. I am not really angry. I am afraid. I have learned that when I'm angry it's usually because I am afraid. I learned that in cognitive behavioral therapy. (14 times I was in a CBT program over the past two years, so I better have learned something!) My friend Paul told me lastnight when I discussed that I had discovered this connection, that I am thinking psychotically. Maybe this is the case. But then why are things so coincidental so often? Did SW want me to write that story about the Terby, the monster, to expel my own demons? If so, then ok -- that was a nice gesture, and I don't mean that sarcastically, I mean that genuinely. I try not to be sarcastic anymore. And I wish I had written something, I wish I had known about the "contest", not to win it, but just to have gone through the psychological benefit of writing about the monster. "But there's a stranger in her head. Whispers surround her late at night in her bed." - from "Sunbeams," song written by me, 1999. Now my best friend is making me "Feel So Low," even though she is not my lover (lol - I'm no lesbian, though I used to wish I were). Ever since I told her I was reading Lunar Park and wrote on the PTF (UK) about that, and about other stuff, she hasn't wanted to talk to me. She just says she has "a lot going on right now." For the whole summer??? We used to visit 3-5 times during every summer. Or is it because I met Paul, and now she thinks because his birthday is two days after mine (July 4) that I will prefer Paul over her, since her birthday is 17 days after mine (July 19). Well, I can't worry about these things. I have to get on with my life and with my relationship with Paul which is very precious to me, and my son, my darling son, he is everything, he is my number one, I have written 3/4 of a song about him. First song since Sunbeams in 1999! All the rest have been instrumentals. OK. I will try to stop being paranoid about Bret Easton Ellis and SW and the connection between them and me. I think I need to talk to my therapist. "She says, all she needs is therapy...All you need is Love is all you need..." -- from "Rattlesnakes" as covered by Tori Amos on the album of covers named, "Strange Little Girls." Well I need therapy AND love. And i have both. So I will be ok. I will be ok. I will be ok. I will be ok. I will be ok. I will be ok. I will be ok. I have to get in the shower and go to the social club for the mentally ill. I will be ok. They understand me there. No head games there. I don't think...Oh, I still love you Steven Wilson. Not in any way other than -- I don't know. But I also love Paul now, and in a real way, not a psychotic and fear-filled way. He and I understand each other. Maybe SW understands me and I just can't accept or realize it. Maybe not. I don't know. I will be ok. I will be ok. I will be ok. I will be ok. I will be ok. No hospital. No more increase in anti-psychotic that made me go from 140 lbs. to 219 lbs. I am going to switch to Lamiktal, if my psych. nurse lets me. I've heard it doesn't make you gain weight or get drowsy, like my Seroquel does. And yes, I'm on Klonopin, and no, I never did cocaine, and yes, I smoked grass until over a year ago, then I stopped because I realized that it was detrimental to my mind. And no I'm not on any other benzos, and yes I'm on Zoloft and Seroquel, and no I would never put my son who is autistic on ANY psychoactive medications, that would screw him up. It is a last resort, when you go on medication. My son is perfectly fine the way he is. I LOVE him the way he is. I will have him every weekend of my life all weekend once my divorce is final. (My lawyer advises me not to have him overnight if I am at Paul's, because it will jeopardize my $. It sucks. I hate money. I love my son! But my stepfather really put his foot down about this rule, because after all, he wants me to get alimony so he won't have to shell out any more $ for me, which of course i don't blame him. But I just wish that I could have my son overnight. We sleep together and cuddle when we wake up in the morning. He is the sweetest, most gentle, most loving boy. He is my number one, and Paul is close behind, maybe even ties with him. Paul is a special very special person. He writes music and lyrics that mean a lot to me, and to others. He performs (unlike me the scaredy cat) all over the state regularly. He cares about other people who are suffering. He plays to them, sings to them to help them realize they are not alone, and they too could be a success story like him. He may not be on a major label or known nationally but his songs mean something, and his heart is absolutely open when he sings. I love him with all my heart. So, I am ok!!! ng.
Those pygmies are somewhat disadvantaged at coyly arresting troubled lemming choirs.
Cataclysmic showers insinuate corrupted Lycanthrope's handbooks by means of blended pomegranates
in honey and gravel welcome wagons wherein Babel's neighbors were inducted shrilly on styrofoam
doctrine platters and 'hazed' rationally with crates of dessicated cake spatulas dropped past the sidewalk
below, bursting the meter attendant's ear and spawning tireless concussion matrons. Parasitic attraction
decimates artichoke fields to our left and syntax lawns before googling the Chomskybot for
enlargement pills. It may be subversive to read a newspaper there. You pigs, thought Vicky, trembling
everywhere. 'Lacerated twine attorney will beggar dull imagination furtively, snowbox', barked the
hapless beagle impersonators right back. They always do. Palindrome foliage collapses efficiently in
plagiarizing Luddite drama-nectar instigated by happenstance. Insidious grappling in the pulsating
lawn episode about lightning was the latest excuse for the debutante adjusting humorlessly. Reluctant
observers of that condition lamentably known as 'bugaloo apocalypse' rattle tinsel factors that
miscellaneous spies seek and baste with malicious fog splinters. Repeat twice. Fog ate their banjo and
spat out splinters repeatingfractioned the tune of �Morning Glissando�. Resurrection tributaries with
tired grins won't be trusted yet again, how can they squander debacles? Tourniquet hopscotch theories
outlast dog's. Thanatos hurdy gurdy instigator yawns, glancing markedly at tangential lattices. The
welcome wagon is boxed for the museum and so is the trolly. The Editor of the Fan Club letters will
discern between True Fan and Core Fan before weighing the palettes. We pick a number in the queue
and await judgment on our palette. Our economy collapsed in '92, and we haven't even bought an
album since that time. Oh, and I forgot to mention we love you too.
Flower salesman grasps nostalgic whispers in parks of bubbling pine springs and smooth craters, specifically a kind of place where no one has so much as thought of regurgitated picnics and never gets sick during them, where all nine languages are usually mutually intelligible, and where palm leaf libraries are never trashed or burned by marauding kings or listless wanderers - in short a kind of symtopia - I walk towards the jangling booth and throw my small coin (or perhaps a silver ring invented exclusively for this game and is a kind of surrogate for it) towards the top of the central bottle in a large grid of them, sending wishes to dovey, and thus it is inevitable someone who is at times similar is winning the large pink bunny rabbit with a small but a small yet attractively inscribed tag reading �Archaeologists are puzzled by intricate and detailed inscriptions etched in stone that the sculptors had assumed no one would ever be able to see.�
I had won a week long vacation to a Greek isle (via the Bulk folder in my 'yahoo' account, lest you were wondering). And now, I had arrived. Glancing at the lone cottage perked on the top of the hill, my cautious optimism was almost giving way to something greater, as I noticed that the place looked just as attractive as it had on the postcard. However, as I began to ascend the hill, I was puzzled by the smell of cigar smoke. Furthermore, a closer look at the house's facade revealed a second front door � was this a duplex?? Almost as if on cue, the left front door opened and a potbelllied man with greased back grey-black hair and cheap sunglasses stepped out. He dutifully informed me that he was filming a porn flick called �Pandora's Box�, that shooting would start at dawn tomorrow, and that things were going to be noisy for a few days. �That's... interesting� I said, trying on my best American accent; as you know, I had long admired how the latter word is sometimes spoken with a curious intonation where you can't tell in the slightest what the person really wants to convey. Anyway, gentleman that my new neighbor was, he handed me a conciliatory bottle of wine, smiling broadly. I thanked him, unlocked the door, put my suitcase down, poured a glass of the wine, and scanned the bookshelf, the card catalog, and the collection of phonograph records. I dusted off my old schoolboy notebook of conjugations too. It generally felt good to be here, though I was a tad freaked out by the photos of bugs on the walls. Faced with the choice of killing the bottle or polishing it off, I did both. I immediately buried it in the back yard. I realized later that I had been so captivated by the brightly colored abstract painting on the label that I couldn't remember whether the modern astronomical symbol for the planet Pluto was etched into the glass or not. I walked down to the beach for a long walk. The sun would be setting soon.
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"I think it's a really bad idea," said Martha "to attempt to mirror, in a refracted way or not, the world wide web as a whole as a "literary" or soteriological device in "surrealist prose-poetry."" "Oh," I replied; I'd never quite thought of it that way before. But after a short while, I realized I wasn't entirely sure what she meant. "Why?" I asked. "Hmm?" said Martha gently. Suddenly the phone rang.
I was only able to speak again with Martha a few days later. "Arguably, there may be implicit rules," I said, "but generally 'exquisite corpse' parlour games that I am familiar with have no rules for the authors. But if one were to, for whatever reason, insist on rules, I should think that "never sign your entries" would be foremost among them. Don't you agree?" "Why don't you ask Ng?" said Martha. "I can't," I replied automatically. "Why not?" asked Martha. "Because she has headphones on, and she has something called "Fear of an Empty Planet" on infinite auto-repeat on her CD player. She can't hear us." "Oh," said Martha. We continued doing our work on the tortoise shells until the day's tasks were finished. "Well, I'm going home now," said Martha. "Okay," I said, "Goodbye."
Emile Zola was then taken out and shot. Harry trembled in his soft leather
During that time, they laid waste to the area, destroying computers and files. She can't hear us.
The text threatened to delete itself. The cotton candy grows in the garden thoughtfully. The dog chases its tail peacefully. The pizza got lost in the mail lovingly. The readership dwindled from two to one.

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I woke up sweating. I had been wearing a suit and tie and had been writing feverishly with a crayon on the wall of an alarmingly large indoor restroomcesspool the basest of nothings and screaming nothing, NOTHING, to no one for no reason. I had noticed its exterior and its background color for years but had paid extremely little attention. Then one night I couldn't sleep, I wanted to hearr the Sound of echoeS and walkedstumbled in, even knocking my forehead against the highly battered but nevertheless very present blind writing sign above the entrance, which I didn't see. My feet began to sink as I listened to the sound of my echoes. But already I am as certain as the computer screen before me that I am misremembering things, my memories of the inhabitants including myself are fading. Dimly I thought I remembered someone talk about the need for an improved or increased or expanded palettes or was it paints.. or canvases or easels, but then turn around merely kill people off whenever he ran out of ideas, or saw stuff he didn't like. But even if this were true, why blame him, or the place, or the thing, or anything at all. Perhaps it was just a metaphor for world. Lovely. Compass. The readership declined from one to [script=black, html brroken, string] none.

Ain't got no nothing empty at all.
There were seven small bones caked in dry mud on thursday
You sexy motherfucker!
The pupil is twelve, attractive, withdrawn In a midnight blue school uniform Lips just a little too full for her face Distant eyes full of space In her posture no trace of coquette No defiance She fingers the frets looking forlorn Crossing her legs where her tights have been torn Starts as her mother comes into the room And the afternoon grows still And her mother feels a chill Shivers and buttons her coat I gently correct the curve of her back And open her book in the now-empty flat At the classical piece I've had her prepare And her arms are bare as she plays And I draw back behind her ear A few strands of hair gone astray She shows me her bracelet, the lesson is done I turn it around between finger and thumb We sit face to face and it seems to me that Her face is the face of a cat And touching the place where her breasts will be I press my hand flat She comes into my lap, I turn her around Her hands clasp my neck and her feet skim the ground Her skirt travels up under my palm But the pupil sits looking so calm As if listening to the distant sound Of a burglar alarm What happened next it's hard to recall The guitar lesson left no traces at all Now, from afar, it seems to resemble A strange composition in oil Of a man, a guitar, and an innocent little girl. ng.
ok. sorry. i signed myself. i will stop doing that. if that is one of the rules. i'm not sure of the purpose of the rule, but perhaps it messes up the order of things in the universe somehow that i identify myself instead of letting myself melt into the crazy prose (if you can call if that) of the exquisite corpse. i once thought it very clever. now i think i never got the point anyway. i think i am not very clever. i'm just desperate all the time. desperate for what, you may ask? and no, I don't have FOABP on repeat infinitely right now...with my headphones on. I haven't used my headphones for over a year. That's pretty bad, hmm? Yes. I know. I haven't used my headphones for over a year. But yes I have listened to Fear of a Blank Planet many many many many many many etc. times. BUT, that doesn't mean I'm deaf. I can hear through the music you know. I see through it too. I can hear and see through you. And I know that I'm see through, so what's the sense of me even writing anything about myself or about anything I think at all? since everyone already knows what i'm thinking, obviously. after all, i'm see through. i have been since July 18-19, 2003. I'm sorry but that is just a plain fact. I don't like it any more than anyone else, but, there it is...and there i go...because i must go. I must stop being here. I must stop obsessing. I thought I had stopped. But no. Again today, I gave in to it. I cannot understand what the hell is wrong with me. I never will understand. Could someone please tell me what is wrong with me? Why do I cry because my father's birthday is two days from now? Why do I continue to cry like a twelve year old? Why am I still existing in this ridiculous adolescent world of obliteration? And no, I won't sign this time. You know who I am, if you know who I am. If you don't, then too bad. Lastnight I had a dream about Madonna. I dreamt Oprah was giving her some kind of advice or award (probably the first) and then she came over to me and I told her, "I know you lost your mom when you were five. I lost my dad when I was twelve." Then I burst out crying. Then later I told her that her latest album lacked substance. That was kind of rude of me, but true...even though i liked that she sampled ABBA. But again, I'm getting see through to the point of being so transparent that I will soon not exist except in his eyes. If his eyes aren't there, I won't be there. I will cease to exist. If that happens, one of two things will next happen: I will either actually die, or just my soul will die. My soul is not God's, I don't believe in God. By my soul, I mean my inner essence, nothing bodily, only the purity of being, without flesh. My body will continue and will be an empty shell not worth living. Damnit, I cannot continue to be influenced this way by this person I have never quite met (sort of almost did but not really).
pigs on the wing never came true. only dogs. and sheep. and pigs 3 different ones. Yes those are all true. Neither is part two of pigs on the wing true. It is a lie. Sorry RW, but it is. Ok, maybe not for you. But it is for me. I don't have any kind of real anchor. I don't, therefore I float off in the middle of the Atlantic Ocean with no land in sight and I'm so terrified I can't speak, I can't move, I can't do anything -- I am doomed -- obviously. Obviously these medications don't work. Obviously SW is right. Obviously I should just give up. I thought I found a man but now I feel afraid, like I should just go back in my hole and die. Because It's the Most Wonderful Time of The Year at 6 feet under and we all know what that means...it means -- baby don't fear the reaper...it means i'm being called again by him to come to him. it's that same old 12 year old. go back. go back. go back. go back. come back. come back. come back. come back. but where are you? i don't know where you are!!! how can I find you? I look for you everywhere and I can't find you...you'll find me in death, you will find me. How can I be sure? If there's no God, how will I find you? Maybe there doesn't need to be a God, he told me. Ahhhhhh........that is some consolation....truly, truly. I mean it. That is a consolation. Maybe it's ok I don't believe in God. Maybe I'll still be rejoined with my father when I die. ??? why shouldn't i sign my name? please tell me -- I AM LISTENING!!!
They had nowhere to go... their fears would inevitably catch up on them.
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i'm feeling much better today. today is my dad's birthday. happy birthday DAD!!!! I LOVE YOU, STILL, FOREVER AND EVER!!! Your daughter...
a wet bird flapped over the horizon, waking the forest with its loud caw. "Wake up, my brothers and sisters, for the hunter is coming to take us out!" It warned, it's wings flapping like a mad woman. "Doth thou not know of the hunter's hungry gun? Doth thou not know of the hunter's hungry dogs?" And the deer and wild hair all fled. And the squirels and the possum all fled. The hunter was not afraid of the bear that ran 'cross his path, as he shot it down, calling out for blood.
I love your hair, but hate your face. Corpses - wind - miss.
'I am the grave....I am the illusion of the safety you so crave. This safety, relative to this time, this condition, can turn on you in an instant and become the most horrific, the most terrifying, and the most hellish of situation.' In disbelief, agape and confused as she was, he continued. 'I am the grave...I am the illusion of fear. You wish me for your security, but the fear of my now unpreditablilty has you paling more with my every word. So choose carefully my love...for i am the illusion of your world.'
seventy four falcons strong, the brigade sailed on
kidnapped by the beauty of darkness, embrace by the power of evil, release me from ..........................
And THUS, the purple emotion of the mechanic dragon penetrated the jello ocean of mental matter.
And there I was again. Not any different than I was before, but somehow feeling changed by all that I had seen. Rather than try to sort out such discrepancy, I surged onward in hopes of getting where I needed to go, and hoping that all such strangeness would unravel all by its lonesome self.
The horrid faces in the walls groaned with sustained discontent.
Christ then burst into flames, screaming vile words at James as he burned. He loved that sack of pancakes, and was sad to see it perish at the hands of Necro-Hitler.
The shrieks would not stop. The barely human shrieks refused to give in even when I politely requested mercy. And then, the fleasssssss. The junk was giving me the fleas. The itch. The electronic skin-tingle. I needed it. I demanded it. It was then that I realized the reason the shrieks wouldn't stop was because I was the one shrieking. I didn't stop. White mosquitoes broke the door and ran with white coats flapping in the wind from the broken window. I screamed for it. They didn't understand. The bugs were bad. They touched my skin and I felt it in my brain. They stuck a needle in me. The shrieking stopped. "Whadja give me?" "Tranquilizer." "Gooooood..." When I awoke...oh, the pallid face. The dead eyes. The lackluster ceiling reflected me perfectly. Did I get it? I thought so. I said so. The tranquilizer worked. I felt it pulsing through my body still. Why have I awoken? And then I did.
And pollen! Pig Pollen! Tis, if ever was, the meaning twixt the worlds of the southmost wind, if I ever erred in my telling of the story, and stuck! Stickmost straws strange the wound, may we remain bitter, for being bitter tis better then the alternative, ye shall agree. As if i could understand the loop that we now encompass, a blind master mixing the earnest, with less spice this time, one hopes.
"La di da," It spat out angrily. "And fu-" "Mildred!" The girl turned around. She found herself once more in her living room, sitting in the large green armchair. The fire
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and after some moments of endless screeching silence, The lady Aspidistra arose inch by agonising inch from the clinging duvet of musty earth that but 10 minutes before scarce a soul would have seen to be a grave except for the almost invisible, battered by the generations, small, pathetic rusted, rotted iron cross. the paralysed audience dumbfounded stood agape as if stumbling on mum and dad fucking for the first time, until, with a final rancid squelching plopping muffled thud Lady aspidistra was free to struggle to her fetif feet in the dim predawn october light and scan the never quite forgotten vista for the stone walls of what was once and as sure as hell is but a holiday compared to THEIR tomorrows, would be again her home.
But contrary to his arguments, no energy had been lost in the process.
Nor the silver leaves left the blood of the screaming spine in his back; opening his pale green eyes, discover'd that nor the golden leaves nor the silver stems had left the blood of the screaming spine in his back.
and then killed the sicknes of her breast

because i am homesick
Oh look, a non-sequitur!
This may be good, bad, ugly or just plain shit.
another lime hit the floor with a muffled whump.
Sadly, none of this has any bearing on the true meaning of existence, the rise and fall of the tide of breath and the ceaseless chatter of the mind. Looking to the future is all that we can possibly do in this race to oblivion. He stared out of the window at the darkening sky and fell into a deep satisfying sleep...
And then I went to see the band in Berlin. I was lost and at the bottom of the well of my soul. Hurt I shun the light because for me there as none. The noise numbed my nerves replacing the image of my love lost. Trying desperately to extend the hours before I will wake up again.
love grew colder today leaving footsteps freezing and wordless
I decided afterwards that I am a lamb, a wolf, and a shepherd.
still better locking oneself out of the appartment then sitting still enhaling distorsion up your hollow bones while the goats tremble and moan in disguist
I would like to go home
*When will you fix the spelling of 'Contribution' just above this box I am typing in, where it is mispelled: "Contributuon"? it is very annoying...
QUOTE FROM SILVANO ARIETI'S "INTERPRETATION OF SCHIZOPHRENIA": "This case shows how a simple event, which can symbolically fit the vulnerability of the patient, may induce or unchain a psychosis, when the necessary ground is ready for it, of course. Because we know so little about this patient, we cannot understand the fundamental issue, that is, why he was so vulnerable that even the accident, in itself not a serious one, was capable of eliciting a major mental disorder. This case is nevertheless valuable for didactical purposes because it shows that a few hours after the clear-cut onset of the acute attack, the schizophrenic symptoms were already very pronounced. The patient�s thoughts were disorganized. He saw the world in a different way, going fast, so fast that he could not cope with its movements. The abstract feeling of inadequacy was concretized in his not being able, in a physical sense, to keep up with the movements of the world. The accident with the car probably provided the idea of the movement. Ideas of reference were already in full swing, and paranoid concepts were developing. He already saw things in a different, confusing way, and was making an attempt to reinterpret reality. Less acute onsets occur when the patient feels unable to satisfy excessive compulsions and falls into a state of panic. In several cases, some ideas that seem plausible acquire predominance in the patient�s mind, so that he is not able to pay attention to other things or to answer questions that are not directly related to the problem he is thinking about. He feels confused and experiences vague feelings of discomfort. The conscious problem that worries him seems to possess him entirely. He wants reassurance very badly, but he is not capable of being reassured. Pertinent answers to his questions are almost not heard. He repeats the same question many times, and he is depressed and seems to suffer a great deal. At times he succeeds in overcoming this state of torment, especially if fortunate circumstances occur, as in the case of X. The patient may snap out of this state and go back to his usual condition. At times he may feel better for a few hours or days, but then the panic returns, even stronger than before. He has the feeling that something terrible is happening to him. Maybe he is becoming insane. A little later he feels that people think he may be insane. He has the feeling he is losing a battle, an unknown battle. He becomes more and more discouraged. His confusion and fright become greater and greater; they overcome and submerge him, like big waves. Things seem peculiar, funny, have acquired a different perceptual quality and an obscure meaning. At times he finds himself indulging in some fantasies, which he himself recognizes as false, and yet they are so vivid that they seem real. He tries to find an explanation for all this, but he cannot. Even at this point the patient may snap out of the confusion and return to his previous condition. On the other hand, if the fear increases, he may rapidly become unable to do things, to decide, to act, and more or less acutely he will lapse into a catatonic stupor. If the confusion increases, he may fall into a hebephrenic excitement. �In many cases the patient feels that people are acting out a play to confuse him. The world becomes a big stage. At other times, after a period of confusion, the patient feels that everything is clear. All of a sudden he experiences a *flash* of understanding. The light has come back. Things that appeared confused and obscure have a meaning, a purpose. He feels exceptionally lucid. He understands everything now; the strange events were not accidental, but purposely arranged. Somebody, somewhere, is after him, against him [or trying to help him?]. From now on, and for a long time, the patient will try to demonstrate logically what seems evident to him. He develops the phenomenon that I have called psychotic insight. The psychosis is now well established in a paranoid [or grandiose?] pattern.� Why should we call this phenomenon psychotic insight? Insight means a sudden discovery of relationships and meanings between different things and facts. Certain things that before appeared to the patient as disconnected and unrelated are now seen as parts of a whole. But the insight is psychotic because only the patient sees these connections. To use his own words, he �puts two and two together�; he is able �to assemble the various pieces of a jigsaw puzzle.� But only he is able to detect the puzzle. He is able to see the world in a different way because he adopts new ways of thinking. He abandons secondary process cognition and adopts the primary process mechanisms that we have described [in Part Three]. He feels that he has never thought as clearly and effectively as now. Such an impression is occasionally conveyed to the layman. It is important to stress that the patient often does not acquire the new regressive way of interpreting reality without first putting up a fight. When this new way of thinking lurks in the background and threatens to come to the surface, the patient tries to resist it at first. He feels a struggle within himself that is experienced as an �attempt to resist a tendency to give in.� The patient is, however, afraid that sooner or later he will succumb. Succumbing in a certain way seems a pleasant temptation because it would seem to relieve the state of confusion. Stein (1967) described similar experiences in the patient who becomes psychotic: his effort to resist the seduction of the psychosis and finally his possible initial consent to the sense of becoming psychotic. Stein writes, �Now, even though he has this sense of utter powerlessness or of being a passive observer of his own destruction, he still from time to time makes abortive attempts to resist dying, just as a drowning man who cannot swim nevertheless struggles frantically.� When the patient finally succumbs and has psychotic insight, the opposite process occurs: he searches actively for this corroborative perceptual evidence. If a noise is heard, if the neighbor uses a special word, if a strange man is walking up and down the street, all this is corroborative evidence that what he thinks is true." END QUOTE. SOMEONE.
Yes close to the edge
Taboo watches Castor-Sweet Castor is dying-floating. Dido's magic treasure appeared and just as fast disappeared, And now she hides under cars.

But what do you think it is LIKE to be a cuticle?
~~~~~ We stand here Disconnected. We are embarrased by our fans who follow the LIST and post like kisses for ASSwipe through Brain PAN simpleton imbecile, yet we love our children's addiction to numbered editions. So we will feed you many to come...oh, our flock rock, rock, rock. Jean Herve loves his children more then we do for he gave them the extra BONUS track and took sound away from us (or so we thought) and we are now jealous of the FAUST, you Krautrocking beautiful Zappi bastards. We believed our flow was destroyed by his love and now we are ashamed because we lifted our skirts to piss like little girls Disconnected. A stab in the back - I want my bonus track! All hail Jean Herve for we owe you a THOUSAND years of stolen creativity for what we said. Petty shit we were and now DISCONNECTED once again. Another bonus track for the LP instead you say, then let the HARD RAIN fall (live) muthafuckas one and all. Let us bow total prostration to all mighty Jean Herve Faust...
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The doors flew open. Max was on the other side. He looked at me, a pile of flesh and bone on the floor. He couldn't take his eyes away. He couldn't get those drops out of his eyes. He couldn't stop making such a din. And I was looking back, my face unchanged. I didn't want him to worry. I was in a better place. I was dead.
He could only accomplish this by breathing more rapidly; causing his blood to pump faster through the heart. "Try to pick up the caned eyeballs, quick." She stumbled and send the can flying through the air. "got it!"
And so I sang "Cheree Cheree" in the mock tones of Alan Vega, knowing that at any minute the hideous water lizard would launch and crush, then savage and roll me into a mangrove bound drowning. oh to be a Suicide loving zebra, all hocks to be hocked.

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I just wish I'd been able to see through the veil and wonder over the order of the divine rocks. Which is which? Why do I need to understand the makers to understand the order of the rocks? If a sacrifice is required, I have severe doubts as to my ability to find either the instrument or an animal deserving of such a god.
"Lick a shot," said the barman, before I shot him in the chest.
Durka Durka Durka Mohammad Jihad rock paper scissor.
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Zombies are like normal people only better.
Roscoe said today: "I think in opposites. If there's a note, there's always the opposite." "I moved to the country to get away from influences and I found nothing."
and then a cat shat
However, you can approximate The Exquisite Corpse by writing your contribution blind.
Shall we repeat what has already been said? Shall we? Albeit the papers lay upside down blown by that spasmatic itch of eternity, a giggle of perseverance can be heard in every single moment of silence.
The modified 10/22 chattered through rounds,the model had really been > tricked out bull barrel integral silencer,clip fed it would accept the fifty > round clips no problem,there were twelve loaded on the table,the seer on the > rifle had been modified,a nice job, lots of options;safe,semi,burst, full. > On the full auto mode it fired twelve hundred rounds a minute,one thousand > one, twenty rounds,one thousand two,forty now,one half second more and the > magazine is empty,the rifle is hot to the touch,thumb the magazine > release,the mag drops out smoothly this time thanks to a coat of graphite. > The next spring loaded stack of ammunition finds its way home,it the moment > between clips there is no wasted motion,the clatter of plastic as the mag > drops,litter of shells,firework slaughter smell,someone got hit. > The advance armed response team arrived at the roof and the ground floor > about the same time. > It was to be a bad day. > The High velocity .22 rounds were Hand loaded specials,high velocity deep > well multi jacketed(aluminum over copper )hollow points with a central > tungsten carbide spike,the well of the hollow point was filled with > neurotoxic spider venom, and covered with a drop of mercury and capped with > a green ballistic plastic tip, Explosive ,armor piercing, deadly,(and around > six dollars a round or 300 a mag). > The bull pup configuration had proven the most compact. > The Armed response team never knew what hit them.... > All armed response and security work had been privatized in an attempt to > shift the legal burdens away from the state,the private sector gained > greater jurisdictional rights,enclaves began forming their own security > teams,the state police were contracting most of their work to private firms > within the first year of privatization. > As a result most police work was heavily bid on your call would go in and a > quick bidding session would determine which security team would get the bid > would respond > The state police were so slow at this point there was no point in calling. > Apartment contracts came with security plans and upgrades included in the > rent,depending on the neighbor hood. > The low rent zones were patrolled by gangs who often extorted protection > fees from the local business although they did offer a concrete form of > protection and would always arrive before the cops,underbidding and often > taking the work. > This was a source of much bitter rivalry,as gangs could never meet the > qualifications to obtain a police license the work they did was and > infringement on the rights of the professional community. > Dolo Lived with his uncle(The esteemed Rev. Paeter Rodriguez)Everyone who > knew him called him Pete A sort of drunk crazy genius blacksmithSculpter > weapon smith,they lived out in the Kansas free state and maintained a farm > of sorts,they called it a farm but the only things that grew out there were > The rev's junk piles and some patches of weed. > Dolo was Something like Hermes or Nike,something about him seemed to express > Frightening velocity,he was a perpetual motion machine,street bikes and > leather thin like a car stripped for racing,just the essentials. > Even at rest he seemed to be speeding toward some unknown event > horizon,under the tutelage of the Rev he learned the way of steel and the > love of the edge and became a master knife smith. > Also an exotic weapons dealer and herb smuggler. > Till The gunfight that landed him in a private hospital,where they were re > growing his missing parts in tanks of pink jelly. > He had driven himself in to the hospital held together with his leather > jacket and gaffer tape. > He had awoken to proximity alarms warning him of intruders the magnometers > under the floor were going nuts these guys were packing loads of steel, > When he had seen the team on the closed circuit he calmly flipped the switch > to activate the motion sensors he heard the modulated robot girl voice > inform the team that she was a fully active home defense system warning them > to halt in a flat voice and heard the first claymore detonate ... > "shit..." he armed the freq jammers hoping Twitch hadn't been bullshitting > him when he sold him the units"we'll know if we hear jump suits landing. > He Sat down at the desk of monitors and modified gaming and sound mixing > boards(He had taken a home electronics course and just went bonzo with it) > Mounted guns Co2 emitters infrared cameras and lights Claymores motion > detectors,set mounted single shot sawed of shotguns under the floor Right > under the intercom,in the walls loaded with poisoned flechette's(tiny > triangular nails with a curved flange in the end,twohundredfifty per > shot,Semi auto shot guns with their trigger guards sawed off and a car > solenoid welded to just push the trigger over and over fast,there were four > of those Two behind the walls of the hallway leading into his office wired > to an old high beam switch under his desk(now affixed with a clear plastic > flip cover)Two in the Bullet resistant desk itself(the first rounds were > bean bags) > He never had a problem with robbers because the desk was made entirely out > of bullet resistant lexan,the shotguns were concealed in smoked lexan boxes > but he'd had lights installed so he could make them visible if he liked. > Magnetic locks on the doors,large electro magnet in the door frame(directly > after the no weapons allowed sign) The entire hallway could be flooded with > carbon dioxide gas,it also had large squirrel fans for pumping in fresh > air,There was a spring loaded trap door under the desk that led to a panic > room,The trapdoor was A large magnetic ceramic amalgam over a titanium frame > the door sealed magnetically and also had a manual vacuum lock,that could > only be released from the inside.There was an identical door in the > abandoned silver mine under the basement > His office would flood with Co2 the instant the vacuum lock was > engaged,incapacitating or killing any who did not bring an air supply. > He had a bad feeling,and decided to go to the panic room now and just > pretend he wasn't home and let Stan (his at tourney)deal with the mess. > He squatted under his desk and put his feet on the outlines of shoes and put > his hands on the palm scanner he felt the lock servo whine and the trap > release and the floor dropped out from under him and he landed on the large > padded mats ,the trap door flipped closed and he heard the electro magnet > click on and then he knew somehow,smell maybe that he wasn't alone.... > She was laying on the futon asleep snoring slightly,she was to small for > whoever's clothes she was wearing,the trousers were rolled up as were the > sleeves of the trench coat she was wearing,she looked to be in her teens but > Travel weathered,Like a mountain climber he had seen once on a documentary > sort of wind burned. > She was clasping an odd staff with a sort of halberd head on it,it looked > like a large old fashioned can opener with a two prong fork one side a shore > hooked blade the other a long sweeping half crescent it looked like it was > carved out a pure Platinum block,but an impossibly large piece.The staff was > some type of dark lustrous wood the place where the head was joined to the > staff seemed oddly organic the wood became silvery until it blended > seamlessly with the head. > The proximity alarms started going off,,he could feel more than hear the > soft Crump of the claymores detonating one after the next. > The monitors lit up as motion detectors clicked on,he saw some team of > armored assault suits walking through the claymores leaning into the blasts > like a stiff rain,he switched the claymores off. > He keyed the mic and spoke a command to the voice recognition system,waited > as the suits blasted through a reinforced door like it was Styrofoam,waited > for the unit to advance down the hall dropped and magnetically sealed the > steel drop shutter.structural foam began to flood the Hall with the suits,he > hit the Vacuum lock controls"that ought to slow them down. > All these facts were well known,and had kept his family business safe for > generations, > The idea that some idiots were actually trying was to intrude was absurd
sombre and impensive, gazing into the mound of mold
And when the sky fell, everyone screamed still about their mortgage. Who would want to eat a shoe? Stragglers somwhere in the remote abscesses of their mind, perhaps, roasting the leather, possibly lacking the resources or intelligence to simply cook the native insects. Ha! So irony is that! Forgetting simple notions of (common sense, sic.) believing in the dramaticism of your inedible footwear! Foolish (but due to their mental condition they don't know any better)! Let me ask you this: who will read their story after they have died of dysentary? Not me. I would engorge myself with moths before that.
But then the corpses will rise from the graves, and stomp on the flowers placed with such tender love and care from mouners, widows, and children. All have forgotten about the long gone corpses now. the dead trample and destroy everything that was once filled with love and sadness now reduced to rubble. The tears once cried for the dead are gone, gone and forgotten just like them. Widows found a new hubby to tend to every need, children found dollies and teddy bears to whisper secrets to, and mourners go on with life.
....so that we could all stumble off to work, our shimmering skeletons smiling.

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There are things said and many
They walked on,unsure but hoping the morning light would soon break, illuminating and warming their tired,aching bodies.
The sprightly waste of the leprechaun make a mockery of all sentient pants.
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TEAR OPEN THEIR SOCKETS AND FEED THEIR BILE TO WRETCHED HORNETS
WHITE WHALE, HOLY GRAIL!
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The blood ran from between Violet's legs. It was her thirteenth birthday, and this was to be her first period. She had locked herself in the bathroom while the party went on outside. She could hear the music playing, and she could hear her family laughing. But Violet wasn't laughing. She was squated in the tub, tears gushing down her soft little virgin face, and blood gushing from her soft little virgin cunt. She whimpered, and then collapsed in the tub, falling into her own blood. "God, why does this have to happen to me!?" She asked, tearing at her
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���ϴ���Ļ,���� Where was your default picture taken? i dont remember -Your current relationship status? free as a bird -Does your crush like you back? ^ -What is your current mood? fine, tired. good mood. -What color shirt are you wearing? clothes. -What was the last thing you drank? milk -If you could go back in time and change something, would you? nah i dont think so. everything's a learning expirience eventually.
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